Chapter 29: Cry

Best mistake. Could you really consider something a best mistake you've ever made? Isn't the best mistake is just as worst as your other mistake? A mistake is still a mistake no matter how good it made you feel, no matter how best it was. But can you consider him as your best mistake as well?

Was he a mistake? No. He wasn't, he is a dream and forever will remain as it is. Because just like him, the dream was good and surreal. It is a dimension you can never touch again.

But it was a mistake that he fell in love with a girl with so much issue like you. It was his mistake that he even let himself deal with you even when he knew he's going to get hurt. He isn't your slave, he is your soldier. He is ready to get hurt and to die in this war just to love you.

You didn't do what he said. You cried all night the moment he left the door and your swollen and stinging eyes are the evidence of it when the morning came. Your head aches but your heart aches more. There's this weight that is on your chest that you cannot seem to take off.

You were hurting and you were scared. Kara visited you again in a dream. It's always that, her crying and pointing out that you stole Taehyung and then one thing you know, you're already holding his heart then Kara's dead. It was a nightmare you cannot forget and you know will still haunt you while your eyes are wide open.

You sighed heavily as you stood up from your bed. You have work today and maybe that's better since you'll be too occupied to even think of what's going on with your life and how messy it is.

When you opened the door to leave for work, you saw a bouquet of white roses on your footsteps, you immediately look at the door beside yours. You doubt if he slept there after what you've said to him.

You shook your head and put the flowers inside your house. Taehyung, you should stop doing this because this is just hurting me more, you thought.

When you put it in a vase, you went to the coffee shop. Jae Hyun was there taking orders from the early customers. You hurriedly put your cap and apron on to serve the coffee orders to the customers.

When you came back to the counter, Jae Hyun said, "Your boyfriend's not with you today."

He smirked as he joked. You pouted as you contemplate whether to tell him or not. Surely, he has no business about it but you don't want him to joke about Taehyung all the time.

"We broke up." You said as you wipe the wet counter.

He stood up straight from leaning on the counter. He put down his arms that was crossed against his chest. His face became serious.

"When?" He asked.

"Last night. It was my decision." You avoided his gaze and took the next order and gave it to the customer.

"Seriously?" He asked when you came back to the counter.

You nodded, "I'm sorry, you were just so crazy over each other that I never dared to think that you'd break up soon." He sighed.

You faked a laugh when you felt your eyes stinging again, "Well, expect the unexpected?"

He smiled sadly at you, "Why don't you take a rest? I know there's a reason why you broke up with him and I won't pry anymore. Just take a rest and order something, it's on me." He offered.

You shook your heard, "No can do, sir. Why don't you give me more work so that I can't think anymore?" You raised your eyebrow at him.

He patted your head and gave you two cup of orders and pointed the table. "Give it to them." He said.

That's how the day was spent. You did every little thing that needs to be done. You even washed the glass wall so you wouldn't be vacant. You even helped Maya make some drinks, you sometimes let Jae Hyun have breaks and fill in his position.

You were crazy and your co-workers knows it, they just don't bother to ask you about it. Afraid that you might break and cry.

The night came and you were already closing the shop, you were just mopping around to make it clean. Jae Hyun helped you even when you insisted that you can do it yourself and that he can go home now. You were working your ass off and tired so you can just go straight to sleep at home.

"Hey, I know you're experiencing the post-break up effect but trust me it will get better. I remember sulking about my first break up too and right now when I try to recall it, I could only laugh how crazy, stupid I was." He chuckled.

You stopped mopping and looked at him, "I wasn't aware you take love so easily, Jae Hyun. Are you a playboy too?" You teased him.

He shook his head as he dug his hand inside his university jacket. "There's nothing wrong with playing a little every now and then. I'm young and handsome." He laughed.

"Look at you. You're also a liar." You rolled your eyes at him.

He laughed and somehow you felt a little more normal. It's nice working here everytime. It's always light and joyful. You were locking the shop while Jae Hyun was telling a funny story of his chemistry teacher when you notice a car park in front of the shop.

The door of the car slammed and you both turn to look at the new comer. Your smile faded when you saw Taehyung got out of the car with an angry face.

"It's almost midnight and you weren't home yet. Get in the car." Kim Taehyung was angry. His jaw clenched as he try to control his anger.

You glance at Jae Hyun whom you thought would feel awkward in this situation but he just stood there and watched Taehyung like he was ready to protect you if he ever hurt you. Don't worry, Jae Hyun, it is I who hurt him.

"You can't order me around. We already broke up Taehyung." You said.

Please don't make this even harder.

He was approaching you but what you said made him stop. His anger turned to frustration and sorrow.

"Get in. Please. Just get in the car." He sighed.

"We're already done. Why are you still doing this?" You furrowed your eyes even when it hurt saying this.

"I know but at least just let me do this." He said, almost pleading.

Maybe he just felt like this was his routine, maybe he was just used to drive you home after work. You'll just have to tell him to stop. You shook your head but you still walk towards his car.

You turned to Jae Hyun one last time who only nodded to you and didn't wait for you to say anything.

You got in the car then he followed. And then suddenly you're in a small place with him again. You swallowed hard, you wanted to get him back but everytime you'd look at him, all you could do was see your sister's dead face.

You decided to look out the window all through out the ride. You sighed when he parked in front of your flat and took off your seatbelt but you didn't get off just yet.

"You should stop doing this." You said in the silence.

You saw him looking straight ahead while his one hand was holding the steering wheel hard. "You should stop seeing me." You said.

He slowly nodded even when you know it was hard for him to do so.

"And when in school? Do you want me to transfer somewhere else, hmm, baby?" He said huskily.

You shut your eyes as you tell yourself over and over again that this is the farthest you can go to not cross the line.

"N-no. Just avoid me, don't talk to me." You almost cursed yourself for stuttering.

He nodded again. And then he took your hand and placed it on his cheek. You met his eyes that were talking to you.

"I'm sorry I upset you today. But I just had to make sure you're safe." He said softly that almost melted your heart.

"You did me so bad, baby. Do you think I'll ever get over this?" He asked you that made your breath hitch.

You pulled your hand away from his. "Stop it. You didn't even cry when we broke up." You blurted out.

"No, I will not cry for you because crying for you only meant that you're not the one for me, we only cry for the things that we lost and for the things that we can't have. And I wont let that happen." He said like he wasn't ready to give up on you just yet.