Chapter 11

I waited in the diner when Eva finally left after I made her promise to call me tonight or I was going to come look for her tomorrow, I didn’t bother leaving the diner to go wait for the bus, instead I called Jonas to come pick me up. I knew I was coming to see my girlfriend this evening and had even offered to drop me off, but I declined the offer and told him I might hit him up to come get me if I spend too much time with Eva.

After about twenty minutes, he texted me to come on outside which I did, I got into his car immediately and sank into the warm seat with a small sigh while he turned the car around and got into the highway once again.

“How’d it go?” he asked, and I glanced at his side profile without saying a thing, in the darkness of the car, the streets lights and moving car lights managed to light up his face beautifully, catching his ear piercings and making them twinkle. I shrugged my shoulders while knowing he wouldn’t be able to see the gesture since his whole gaze was focused on the road before us.

“It went well, I guess. I wouldn’t say well- well, per se. it definitely didn’t go well for her,” I replied and Jonas glanced at me for a second before turning back to the road.

“It didn’t?” He asked and I shook my head, feeling gloomy as hell.

Now that I think about it, I wasn’t really in love with Eva. Of course I was attracted to her, but I wasn’t in love with her. I did care for her a lot though, but I knew it wasn’t enough to be classified as love.

I guess it was only physical attraction... and maybe a little emotional connection, but definitely not enough. There was never any real understanding between us, and it took me only a moment of listening to her snap at me back there at the diner before I was able to realize.

“Yeah, she’s pregnant.”

“What? You impregnated her?” Jonas demanded bewilderedly and I found myself chuckling softly while faintly registering the car zooming past buildings and cars.

“Of course not. She got pregnant for someone else, he’s an asshole though. She’s stuck with her girlfriends for, but I doubt if they’d be of any help, her parents had literally asked her to terminate the baby or be gone forever for all they care.”

“Wow, the fuck?” 

“I know, right?” I groaned out and closed my eyes as I leaned my head against the head rest, I just feel drained.

“So, y’all broke up now?” He asked and I peeled an eye open to give him a long look. He felt my stare and glanced at me with a defensive shrug before turning back to the road, “What?” He demanded before continuing, “That was why you went to see her in the first place, wasn’t it?

“It was,” I agreed.

“So..,” He continued, throwing me a quick, questioning glance.

“We didn’t break up, per se, but we both know we can’t be in a relationship anymore. It was obvious enough,” I replied quietly.

“Oh.” He stared quietly and I nodded my head.

“Yep, and I didn’t get to tell her about the fact that I’ve been doing something with you.”

“You planned to tell her that before?” Jonas asked softly and I nodded and continued without opening my eyes. “Yeah, I did. I planned to tell her how sorry I am for not communicating enough and how stupid it was for me to ignore her calls and texts two weeks ago, and how I currently have an unnamed thing with a guy I like.”

“Oh. You like me?” Jonas asked quietly and I peeled my eyes open and stared at him, he completely turned towards me when the traffic lights moved from green to red.

“Yeah, I do,” I replied quietly before snickering, “Like you don’t know that yet.”

“Yeah, I do,” he replied with a wild smile which warmed my heart that still felt like ice in my chest. “But it’s feels wonderful listening to you tell it to me,” he continued before turning back towards the wheels once the lights changed to green.

“Oh,” I mumbled while glancing out the window.

“Yup, it’s a sweet feeling. Go on ahead and tell me it doesn’t make you feel different things each time I tell you how much I like you,” he continued with a laugh and I groaned softly into my palms, he knew how much listening to him go on and on about how amazing I was and how he was so into me and how I made him so happy amongst other things relating to that made me smile and blush uncontrollably, which was one of the reasons why he was always telling me stuffs like that, just to get that same reaction from me because I was so obviously into him like he was in me.

“It doesn’t make me feel a thing,” I mumbled into my palms, but Jonas laughed loudly, clearly not buying a thing I said as he pulled my right hand away from my face. He intertwined our fingers and placed them on his thigh without looking away from the road and I felt my heart skip a thousand beats as I stared at him and almost got lost in his eyes.

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Jonas unlocked the door with his keys, and I stepped into the house after him. I grabbed the pizza from Jonas’s grip and made my way into the kitchen. We had stopped at a Pizza Hut along the way and ordered pizza since I was too tired to make dinner and Jonas was literally useless in the kitchen. 

I placed the pizza on the counter and dug out a bottle of lemonade from the freeze and popped the can open, downing huge mouthfuls in a go before leaning against the counter and placing it beside my elbow.

“So you’re a single man now, huh?” Jonas said as he made his way into the kitchen, his hand running through his hair and a smug smile playing across his lips. I rolled my eyes at him which made him guffaw a little while walking towards me.

“I know you’re pleased with the fact that I’m no longer in a relationship,” I mused loudly while taking about mouthful of the lemonade drink. Jonas dug out his orange juice and drank directly from the carton before turning around from the currently closed fridge and raising a brow in my direction. “Well, duh. I am, at least now I know I’m not doing stuffs with something in a relationship,” he replied honestly before walking towards me and leaning against the counter opposite me, his carton of juice in hand.

“Y’know Eva just made me realize how much of a shitty boyfriend I was to her... I feel kind of disappointed in myself,” I said to Jonas right before I took another mouthful of my drink. 

“Hey, don’t say that. It’s not your fault that she got pregnant for a stupid asshole,” Jonas argued immediately, and I chuckled a little before drinking from my bottle once again.

“I wasn’t referring to her pregnancy. I was referring to my role in her life as a boyfriend. She said she was depressed and going through shit for months but apparently, I didn’t notice because I wasn’t really there most times except each time we had sex and hang out after lectures. I mean, I was supposed to figure out shit like that as a boyfriend, was I not?”

“Hey, hey...” Jonas said softly as he pushed away from the counter opposite me, closed the small distance between us and took my free hand into his right hand. “It’s not your job to figure out shit like that, Andy. We’re all humans and we all go through different shits every day. She wasn’t supposed to assume you’d be able to figure out that she was depressed, I mean, you’re not suddenly a mind reader, are you? I don’t know how she expected you to be able to figure shit like that out. If she had said something to you about it and you didn’t do a thing, that’s different, but she didn’t, so nothing’s on you here... it’s all on her.”

“Oh,” I muttered under my breath before glancing up at him and blinking a few times. “I didn’t think of it that way.”

“Of course you didn’t. That was why I explained it to you,” he said with a small smile, and I found myself rolling my eyes on reflex, I was already used to doing it to that extent. 

“I still think I’m a shitty person though,” I informed him honestly as I emptied the can into my mouth and placed the empty can on the counter behind me.

He pushed my hair out of my face with his left hand and tugged my chin up slowly until we were staring into each other’s eyes. He brushed his thumb slowly against the skin beneath my jaw as we kept staring at each other in silence. 

“I don’t think you’re a shitty person though,” Jonas said loudly and I blinked once at him.

“I think you’re a really amazing person. I know you’re someone who tries his best not to hurt someone intentionally, and I think your personality is really beautiful. The fact that you care about people, like how you opened your mind towards the LGBTQ+ family because of your best friend. Overall, Andy, you are extremely amazing.” Jonas finally stopped talking and I blinked a few times when I felt my eyes start to burn.

Just what the heck did I do to deserve someone like this?

I leaned forward and pressed my head into his chest while squeezing my eyes tight, forcing the stupid tears prickling my eyes to back the fuck away. His hand which was once clutching my chin buried themselves into my hair as he held me to his chest while I tried getting myself together. He dropped my left hand which had been clutched in his right hand since he started talking and wrapped the hand around my shoulders, pulling me firmly into his arms. I dragged in a deep breath and wrapped my arms around his waist, burying my face into his warm clothes, breathing in his manly scent.

He finally pulled me away from his arms to my disappointment, but before I could argue, he pushed me backwards and lifted me up to my horror. I squealed in fright and wrapped my arms around his shoulders immediately just as he placed me on the counter which I was leaning on, some minutes ago. I stared straight into his eyes since for the first time, I didn’t have to glance up into his face before I could be able to see his eyes. I flushed red on realizing the position we were in a tried to pull my hands off his shoulders, but his hands quickly stopped me by holding my arms in place behind his neck.

“Where do you plan to escape to?” He asked lowly, his eyes moving from my eyes to my lips and back to my eyes again. I swallowed emptily and glanced away from him, not because I was nervous, but because my heart was beating unreasonably fast for no fucking reason.

He loosened his grip from my arms around my hands behind his neck and wrapped them around my waist, pulling me towards the edge of the counter, I wrapped my legs around his waist on reflex while my arms tightened around his neck. He buried his face in my neck and kissed my neck softly before trailing his mouth up the curve of my neck slowly until he got to my jaw. He bit lightly on the curve of my jaw and a small gasp escaped my now parted lips, he trailed his mouth over my cheeks and kissed my skin softly, dragging his lips heatedly over my cheeks and over my forehead, he dragged his nose over my ear, and I panted, I never knew tiny kisses could be this arousing with how hard my dick currently was.

He finally dragged his lips lightly over mine with me puffing tiny breaths against his mouth, my eyelids dropping low. He caressed his lips against mine once again and I caught his lower lips between my lips, I sucked it in immediately and moaned softly into his mouth when he immediately took over the kiss, deepening the kiss and biting my lower lips for a few seconds before sucking the sore spot into his mouth to flick his tongue over until nothing remains in my brains except his name, and how he was making me feel a thousand things through a kiss.

Before I knew what was happening, I was burying my fingers into his hair and tugging him forward while receiving everything he was giving me through his mouth. He pulled away from my mouth and I gasped out loudly, dragging in much needed air while breathing hard, his mouth trailed down once again, and he sucked on my most sensitive spot on my neck which was the skin over my pulses. 

“Oh God,” I whimpered and shivered slightly, tightening my grip in his hair when he sucked on a sore hickey which had been sucked into my skin this morning while we made out in the sitting room, on the couch.

He moved back to my mouth and kissed me deeply, his hands slipping into my shirt until...

The familiar sound of my phone ringing loudly made me jump and pull away from the kiss, panting loudly. We stared at each other for a few seconds with my phone still ringing loudly.

“Get it for me?” I asked, my voice still breathless from the kiss we shared as I untangled my fingers from his hair along with my legs away from his waist before wiggling on the counter until I was no longer on the very edge.

He handed me my ringing phone and I hesitated on seeing my Mum’s name flashing on the screen before accepting the call and placing the phone on my ear.

“Hey mum,” I said into the phone and winced when my voice came out breathlessly, I gestured for Jonas to come forward which he did. I stroked his soft curls lightly while listening to my mum on the other side of the phone, he wrapped his arms around my waist and dragged me towards the edge of the counter once again before running his nose over my throat.

“Huh?” I asked my mum. I hadn’t heard a thing she said since Jonas had started playing with my throat.

“I asked if you’re still coming home in two weeks’ time,” she said, and I blinked once while tightening my fingers in Jonas’s hair and gasping quietly when he licked slowly over my throat.

“Um, yeah, I am,” I replied as I tried to push Jonas’s head away from my throat but Jonas being the bastard that he was, bent down and pushed my shirt up before flicking his tongue over my nipple lightly. I shuddered and tightened my grip on his hair while straining my ears to pick up whatever it was that she was saying to me.

“Are you alright, Andy? You sound breathless. Are you hurt?” she asked, and I forced myself to reply without sounding like I was drowning underwater.

“Yeah mum, I—"

A tiny gasp escaped when Jonas pinched my other nipple and bit on the one in his mouth at the same time.

Oh fuck.

“Andy?” she called out worriedly.

“Look mum, how about I give you a call later?” I quickly bid her goodbye before pushing the phone behind me on the counter and pulling Jonas’s mouth away from my nipple. I groaned shakily when he didn’t let go of my nipple immediately until it stretched out for a few seconds, sending tiny prickles of pleasure over my whole body.

He grabbed my waist and jerked me towards the edge of the counter once again before taking my lips in a searing kiss, his fingers sliding beneath my shirt and caressing my back, ribs and waist lightly, making me moan and shudder into his mouth, his mouth swallowing the sounds and trapping them in my throat.

I wasn’t really sure where this thing with Jonas was heading to, and if it was going to last. Most importantly, if I was going to suddenly wake up one day and not respond to his touch anymore.

I seriously doubt it that could ever happen at this rate with how wantonly my body responded to his tunes without hesitating.

I wouldn’t say I was in love with him, but I could boldly say that no one had ever made me feel this particular way in my whole life, not even Eva. The constant flips I felt in my stomach when he smiled at me, or the way I quickly lost my breath each time he kissed me... it has never, ever been this intense.

One thing was really clear to me though, I was seriously happy with him, and I seriously hope that wouldn’t change, at least for now...

I knew once next semester comes, he’d be graduating at the end of the semester while I’d just be getting into my second year, I had no idea where we’d be at that particular point, honestly.

I guess I’m just going to be taking every step with him slowly, and face every day as they come, without thinking about tomorrow.

I moaned into his mouth when he sucked my lower lips into his mouth while grinding my hard on into his abs, he swallowed the sounds, a hand wrapped around my throat, holding my head up firmly while his second hand was holding my hip.

Yep, I could totally get used to this... after all, I never knew how intense being on the receiving end of pleasure could be until Jonas.

We kissed and kissed more; the pizza long forgotten on the far end of the counter.