Chapter 52 Sleeping
Cleo
We've all at some point have had trouble sleeping . We either have trouble with sleeping because we; worry too much, struggle to let go, or in is some cases anxious about what tomorrow brings. Sleep is important it gives you a chance to recharge, and dream ... More importantly it gives your sub-conscious to get rid of what's bothering you, so that you're in the right state of mind when you're awake.
Sometimes it feels like you've been asleep forever and would like to wake up. You can do that ... Only when you're not sedated or hit lights out and don't know what's going on.
I don't know how long I've been out for and in my heart I know my babies are okay . I really want to wake up but my body won't let me . I feel like I've been in a never ending dream. What's strange is that I feel like an outsider looking into the interesting saga that's called my life .From the time I met Angelo ; to the time he saved my life at the club and later on in my office at Massa , and everything else in between. All I know is that I fell in love with a man I loved and still do; but it hurts how he decided to walk out on me instead of giving me a chance to explain myself or the situation. I knew about Angelo's temper we had talked about it lots of times.
I don't know what day it is but Wednesday night was playing like a video in my head.
Flashback
I had just finished reading with Giovanni about the ocean and the different sea creatures . He had fallen fast asleep midway through the chapter; I tuck him in , gave him a kiss on the forehead,and said goodnight.
I had long day and I was thankful that it was coming to the end .
Angelo was mad at me . I knew Angelo was angry at me because; when I
came walking in the entertainment area , that had a retractable cinema
screen , with pillows and chairs around including Giovanni's toys
lying around , I found him arguing with Giovanni about who the best
team was and it was well past Gio's bed time ... well make it thirty
minutes passed because he has school tomorrow I don't want him falling
asleep in class. It was half past eight and I had missed dinner with
the family and I forgot my phone in the home office so I couldn't call
in to say I wasn't coming through. When Gio saw me at the door he ran
and hugged my leg greeting the twins and then greeting me. I saw a
ghost smile on Angelo's face but it quickly faded when he locked eyes
with me . His dark blues looked stormy and his hair was messy he
didn't even acknowledge my presence. He just kissed Gio good night
and as soon as Gio left to get ready for bed; he knelt down pulled
up my top , kissed my belly and both our babies who weren't kicking
started kicking . He placed another kiss sending my heart rate up in
a good way and the babies stopped and started moving around normally.
I couldn't touch him so as soon as he stood up I walked out and I
heard him let out a groan of frustration just as I turned the corner
. An hour later after Gio was asleep, I walked to the main bedroom
and found him all dressed up and ready to go out. I walked in and he
shot me a look of betrayal.
" Don't look at me that way."
" How am I supposed to look at you Cleo ? Tell me."
" I am so sorry."
" Sorry for what? Sorry for the fact that you left without a word a
couple of hours ago and you ignored your phone when I called you , or
that you took the car that didn't have a tracker and left without
security causing me to worry that something might have happened to
you, or that we haven't touched each other properly or that you
have been distant."
I wiped a tear that had escaped away from my cheek because he was
telling the truth and it hurt.
" All the above except my phone. I forgot it ..."
" I don't want to hear it . You won't tell me what's wrong like I
might hurt you or something . Who is it?"
I took a deep breath and locked eyes with him and started to cry .
" It's your mother ."
"What are you going to blame my mom? She has been nothing but
supportive and kind to you."
" No she hasn't and I don't want you to pick sides or choose . It
wouldn't be fair to you or the babies ."
"You're lying . I can't stand you right now . "
" Angelo don't ... be so mean to me ."
Angelo grabbed his car keys and walked passed me like I wasn't even there .
" I'm glad we aren't married . When our babies come I'm suing for full custody."
" where are you going ?"
Angelo looked at me smugly .
" Who me? I have a dinner date with Jane . Oh and since you have mommy
brain lately . Your ex best friend who used to be my girlfriend who
wants me in more ways than one which is less than I can say for you.
Don't wait up for me ."
After Angelo drove out ; my head was spinning and I was feeling dizzy
falling back on the edge of the bed , and I had a crying session . I
wasn't feeling well and whatever I ate came out with a vengeance . I
wasn't feeling well and Angelo wasn't around to help. I waited a
while before slowly walking to the office and when I reached my phone
I saw Angelo's thirty missed calls. I sped dialed him and he sent it
to voice mail five times. I ended up calling doctor Raphael who
wasn't available too . I called Clara and left a message because her
phone was off , eventually when I called Paul he came through to help
me. He was a block away driving to the house because he wanted to
talk to Angelo. When he arrived he helped me clean up the mess I made
and carried me to bed . After tucking me in I told him everything
including why I was worried . He stayed with me until I was in lala
land and feeling a bit better .
I was woken up by muffled sounds outside the guest room and I was too
tired to get out of bed . I heard Nicolai saying I will drive you to
the cottage and Angelo grumbling again in frustration and swearing in
Italian. I heard right outside the door and I reached for my phone and
called Angelo but he didn't pick up again . I knew he was outside my
door . I saw a message alert from Jane and opened it only to see a
picture of her and Angelo Kissing. My heart started breaking and
just when I was going to see if Blue was okay but he came stumbling
in looking like hell.
" Blue?
Angelo looked at me in disgust and anger which in turn set off alarm bells.
" Don't call me that. You are nothing to me."
" please leave . Until you're e sober . Don't talk to me ."
He started moving closer and I started moving back on the bed until I
felt the head board on the back of my head. It was wooden and not
soft and cushioned like the one in the main bedroom . He grabbed my
arm and I tried to snatch it away but he tightened his grip. I
looked away. He reeked of wine and other things making me feel sick
again.
" Look at me ."
I raised my head and he looked like a different person .I was scared .
" don't hurt me. "
" you're the one whose leaving . I want you out and I don't care if
you are pregnant . I want nothing to do with you . I can kill you and
get rid of your body . oh and those babies won't be a problem ."
Angelo started moving his hand towards my neck and started strangling
me . I tried to grab the lampshade post to hit him with but I was too
far .
When he loosened his grip I coughed
" Massa stop .The twins did nothing to you ."
I lifted my knee and kicked him . He fell back and I grabbed my phone
quickly calling Nicolai. He picked up on the first ring
"Cleo?"
" Nicolai help me!"
The line went dead and when I looked at Angelo had already gotten up
stalking towards me . He was looking at my belly and I felt uneasy
. I needed to save my babies . They were up too and they were really
active. I moved out of his way and he fell down. I ran to the door
opened it I tried to walk as fast as I could to the kitchen and
press the emergency button ; however I couldn't move fast half way
outside Angelo's study I stopped to take a breath . I heard the
kitchen door open and I breathed a sigh of relief. I tried to walk
but I was pulled back by Angelo causing me to fall back.
"where do you think you are going Cleopatra? You are mine no one can have you ."
He started punching my stomach .Oh my word no , no ,no who is this
monster he was going in for a second blow to my other side when
Nicolai got him off me and knocked him out cold . Paul was right
behind him and he ran to me . My heart was beating so fast that I lost
consciousness and the last thing I remembered was the man I called the
father of my unborn children on the floor out like a light.
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