Chapter 58

I stood by the hallway waiting for my step dad to pass by .

I had so much in my mind that I wanted to say out loud and I was so pissed at him .

I didn’t know why I was so hurt  by what I had just heard , there was just nothing that I wanted at this moment , I just wanted to know why he did it .

For the past few days I could tell that my step dad had been doing everything to avoid me , I didn’t want to think that this was the reason  why he  was doing that .

I thought that he loved me but why the fuck did he  get my mom pregenant .

I hated him for  that , how could he do something as crazy as that .

I made sure that everyone was already asleep  before I asked him to see me. I didn’t want my mom to see us together like this , because it was definitely going  to hurt and   I don’t   Think that I was in my best frame of mind but I was still going to confront him now or never .

When I stood there and looked ahead , I saw his figure approaching me .

I didn’t know exactly how to react , I didn’t know if I should run to him and scream at him for hurrying me that much .

I had  so much to say to him that I had in my head that I haven’t been able to say to him , the nerves that he got to get my mom pregnant , after making me fall for him , how could ge do something as crazy as  that .

“ you asked for me Rissa , is everything okay  “

I stared at Shaun and the only thing that I could think of at that moment was to  slap him. The fact that he still  had that sweet smile on his face like he hasn’t  done  anything wrong was definitely getting on my nerves  .

I didn’t want to say that I hated him for what he did , but why would he do that , I thought that he loved me , he  only  lied to my face just to use me .

“ you got mama pregnant ?”

Shuan looked at me like I had gone nuts when I asked him that

“ I did so what , isn’t she my wife?

His answers took me off my  feet and I could begin to feel the tears burning in my eyes .

“ You bastard , how dare you after  everything that we had   Together , you think that you can just throw all of that away because you think that  you can just hurt me , you choose my mom over , I thought you said loved me , so was that a lie .

“ A lie?  , I never said  that I was going to leave your mom for you , the only thing that I said was  I loved you but then I saw that you weren’t worth it , after all you found someone that you were beginning  to love , I think that it’s best that we both end whatever that we are doing because it’s not going to favour the both  of us .

I know that I was wrong for leading you on and making you think that I love you and I was going to marry you but that was a fucking lie and you know that , I think that it’s best that you start seeing things the way they are  I don’t have much to say to you , but I love you baby and I really want you to have yours .

I actually do not have much to say because I do not know what people would say  if they found out that I am fucking my own step daughter  .

You know what Rissa , I am doing all of this for you , I just want you to leave what we are doing and then live a normal life like everyone else .

I don’t have much to say to you but that’s just it , I am so sorry for leading  you  on , I know that I shouldn’t have done that , but it’s all my fault and I would take the blame for it .

I didn’t know why I was so hurt with my mom having a baby with my step dad .

I knew that I had no right to  be  , it was something that was bound to happen sooner or later .

The both of them were married , what the fuck  was I expecting that they just stood there and  looked  at each other .

I  have done literally everything that I think that I can do at this point , but what can I say , there’s actually nothing that I can do at this moment and just us just an understatement of how I am feeling at this moment .

I know how much I hated being in this situation  but I got it .

“You know what ,  I think it was wrong that I came out to confront you about this , I should have never done that ,  well whatever that we had is in the past now and we have to act like none of it happened  and  act like it never happened .

I know that I shouldn’t be saying this , but I hated the fact that you hurt me this much. I don’t have much to say to you but I am so hurt beyond  words .

I cleaned the tears that I had in my eyes and walked away and just as I was about entering the house , I saw my mom standing there .

I didn’t know what she was doing there but she had her hands on her waist and so I just tried to compose myself .

There was no way that I wanted to mess this up , it wasn’t  happening .

“ you have been acting all weird since I announced that I was pregnant , are you sure that you are okay or are you mad that I didn’t tell you first so what did you tell my husband about “

I looked at mom , I could see the worried look on her face and at the same time , I could still see that questioning gaze on her too .

“ I am okay mom , I will be in my room now “ I told her and she nodded as I walked away leaving her behind .