Chapter 52

MAYRA'S POV

“Rehan, why do I need a blindfold in my own house?" I asked him but like last ten minutes, he didn't cleared my confusion. He tighten his grip on my wrist and guided me.

“Rehan." I whined and a melodic sound of his chuckle ran through my ears.

“Patience." He said in a husky voice, touching his lips to my ear. I shivered in content.

After few minutes, he untied the blindfold around my eyes. I blinked and then looked around to find myself in our bedroom. I furrowed my eyebrows and realised that our room was no longer the way it used to be. The walls were of now bright shades instead of dark. It was like light has finally stepped here. I averted my eyes to one of the wall where was a huge picture of Rehan and me smiling at each other. And every other corner was pasted with our photographs. It was no longer the room of a billionaire who wants everything to be perfect but now it became slightly messy and beautiful. This room now seemed worth living.

“Wow." I exclaimed and turned my face towards him in excitement.

He then gently grabbed my wrist and walked up to the closet and pulled it open, revealing all my clothes which I used to wear before I met him.

I looked at him in confusion but instead of saying anything, he gestured me to sit on the bed. I did as I told and then he gave me an envelope. I blinked and read it only to find my joining approval in the hospital as a Psychiatrist. My jaw dropped in surprise and that's when, Rehan sat and pulled my feet on his lap. He lightly rubbed his thumb over the skin of my feet and took a deep breath. I just sat there, dumbfounded.

“Forgive me Mayra. It took long for me to understand that wearing short clothes doesn't mean you're not pure. If somebody stares at you then it's their problem not yours because what matters most for me is that only I will be the one to touch your body not them. It's your choice to wear the type of clothes you want and I don't have any right to stop you even being your husband. From now on you'll do whatever you like. You'll work as a Psychiatrist. You can go anywhere you want, you don't need my permission but please do inform me otherwise I might be worried. Before being my wife, you are Mayra who has her own life. You're mature enough to think what's good for you or not." He said in one breath without even looking at me. For a minute, I repeated his words over and over again in my mind.

How can I be this lucky to fall in love with him? He's everything, anyone could ever wish for. Tears went down my cheeks but this time they were of happiness. Without saying anything, I placed a kiss on his cheeks.

“Now there is no place for being a possessive husband because there's no insecurity left in me." He added with a boyish grin.

“Mayra, there's something I-I want to talk about."

I nodded, assuring him.

“W-Why can't I l-love you?" He shuttered.

I pressed my lips into thin line and tried to smile but failed miserably. His expression turned from ecstatic to sad.

“I can live without your love as long as you're happy." I said trying to bring that smile back to him.

“No. No. You are not getting it. I never felt any thing for Zara but for you, I feel something. It is so strong that I couldn't imagine my breath without you but then why can't I love you Mayra?"

I felt my heart beating faster at his confession.

“Because you are scared of love, Rehan. You're scared of heartbreak. You're scared that I might end up leaving you like others did." I replied whatever came into my mind and then it actually made me realize the real reason.

Is he already in love with me but scared to name his feelings?

My breath hitched up in surprise. A shiver dance over my spine and everything stilled. I closed my eyes shut and every moments which I shared with him started appearing in the back of my head and all I did was to smile.

“You love me." I breathed out in amusement and looked at him who was staring back at me.

His eyes scanned my face and then settled on my lips. Crave for his touch returned and I took a bold action of sealing our lips together. This time he reacted and kissed me back with a bright amount of passion. I ran my fingers lightly over the fabric of his shirt. His arms moved near my knees and he pulled my body, completely on the bed but then he moved away from me. With heavy breath, I thought for a moment and then crawled in front of him.

“What happened?"

“I don't deserve you."

I smiled and without wasting any other second, I pulled my top over my head. I felt my cheeks heating up but I set one thing straight in my mind that there was no need to hide my body from him when I had already given my heart to him. His eyes went wide. He clenched his fists and then closed his eyes shut. Ignoring the various butterflies in my abdomen, I wrapped my arms around his neck and placed a kiss on his jaw. He held his breath when I trailed open mouthed kisses from his jaw to his neck. My heart started hammering louder and I sat on his lap. My fingers automatically started unbuttoning his shirt.

Everything felt so good as if I was experiencing paradise. The taste of his bare skin lingered over my lips.

“You’re not Mayra, are you?" His voice sounded more like a moan. I stopped whatever I was doing and looked into his eyes.

“No, I am Mrs. Malhotra." I said, bringing my lips near his ears. He chuckled and shook his head.

I gulped down my saliva and hide my face in the crook of his neck.

What's happening to me? Why I am reacting like this? I was not like this. You changed me Rehan.

“Why do you think, you don't deserve me? Are you still into guilt of your past?" I quickly asked, trying to keep my mind sane.

“I am trying to come out of my past Mayra and I know that with you and Dhruv by my side, one day I will be able to leave everything behind but what about the times when I had hurt you both physically and emotionally? Do you think after all that I deserve you?" He asked in a dangerously calm voice.

I sighed.

He's just like a small child who every time needs assurance about same thing over and over again.

“Be selfish and forget about all those things, okay? We are going to have a new start where there is no place of memories which brings doubt. Okay?" I said before placing another lingering kiss over his neck. He held my bare shoulder with his warm hand and made me look into his eyes.

“Yes, ma'am." He mocked salute and his face broke into mischievous smirk. The shade of his eyes darken as he ran his gaze over my body and that was enough for me to bring me back to my flushing state.

“Dhruv is with Max and Vishal, so we can continue what you started." He licked his lips and next thing I know, he was hovering over me with one of his arm around my bare waist and his lips running all over my face.

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He played with my hair locks with his eyes fixed on my flushed face. I looked at the ceiling and felt the faint sound of his heartbeat. Now I realize that why sex is called so special. There is nothing more pleasurable than the beautiful touch of body against each other. But then with Rehan it was not just sex, it was mixture of our feelings for each other. Like something so pure yet so addictive.

“You’re beautiful, Mayra." He murmured huskily and dip his lips to place a feather like kiss on my forehead which automatically took my breath away.

“I wish I could stay like this with you, forever with nothing but sheets in between us."

I smiled shyly as my heart fluttered.

“Mayra."

“Mhmm."

“If feeling my single heartbeat to belong with you is called is love then maybe I am falling for you." He brushed his lips over my cheeks and held an eye contact with me. I smiled more brightly and mouthed “I love you" to him.

“I am no longer scared of falling in love with you because you've already healed my heart to make it possible to love." He said and with that, he kissed me all over again till we heard a knock on the door.

“Is it safe for me and Max to enter inside the room or you two are having your own porn?" My jaw dropped at Vishal's voice and I exchanged a glance with Rehan who clenched his jaw in irritation.

“Vishal, Max, get the fuck out of my house." He yelled and soon the laughter erupted from other side of the door.

“Dhruv was asking us about you two, so I guess we should go and inform him that his mommy and daddy are busy bringing a sibling for him."

Immediately heat rushed up to my cheek at Max's word. Rehan smirked at my blushing state and pulled me closer to him, if possible.

“Sure." Rehan replied calmly with a wink. I hide my face in his chest due to embarrassment.

“Now if you two spare us than we would like to go for another round-" I covered his mouth with my palm before he could say anything further. He chuckled and kissed my palm.

“Ew. That's gross. Vishal wasn't enough to share the nasty details that you also started Rehan?" I laughed at Max comment and heard them walking away.

“There were many things I wanted to confess but you know, I am not good at words like you. If I say something then definitely I will mess up everything. So I tried to put my feelings into paper. If you promise to not laugh at me after reading it then- you know…"

My heart was getting excited but on the other hand he was a nervous wreck.

What he could have written?

“I promise I won't but Rehan you've to hurry otherwise I will die out of curiosity."

He smiled but still that doesn't reaches his eyes.

He grabbed his sweatpants and tossed me his T-shirt. I quickly pushed his t-shirts over my head. Smell of his Cologne wrapped me like a comforter and a blush crept up to my cheeks when I saw his eyes at me.

“Mayra, how many times I told you baby, don't blush like that otherwise be ready to repeat what we just did."

And here I go flushing even more.

I leaned into bedpost when he came back with a white paper in his hand. I took it from him and with my loud beating heart, I traced his beautiful handwriting. I passed him quick smile and decided to read it.

Mayra,

I don't know what you're?

Only you can make me feel alive, only you can feel the pain my heart hides, only you can bring the peace to me, only you can heal my scars, only you can make me smile, only you can make my heart melt, only you can let me dive into ecstasy, only you.

I am lost Mayra, I am lost in you.

You came to steal my soul and now I couldn't even think my single breath without you.

You made me realize that what happiness means.

You're a drug but yet so pure.

You're the only one who can keep me sane.

Forgive me, if I will never be able to say 'I love you' back but believe me that my heart will always beat for you.

I know no one will ever be able to love me as much as you do because no one can have such a courageous heart to heal the broken soul.

You fixed my heart, you healed my soul, you' brought ecstasy to me. What else I can wish for when you are everything for me?

When we will grow old and nothing will remain same, not even our body but still my heart will always skip a beat after watching your beautiful smile even though it will be wrinkled. Your presence will always bring peace to me, at sixty also. We will be like those couples who would have a story to share about how they grow old, together.

I know it sounds strange to imagine myself getting old but with you on my side, everything feels right.

I had found a diary on the street, back on my teenage days. I had not a bit interest to read it but there was something written on the first page which had stuck on my mind.

‘One day you will met that one person who will make you believe in destiny.’

I never understood that until now. You make me believe that we are together only because of destiny.

Thank you for coming into my life.

I want you but more than that I need you. I don't know anything about love but whenever I think about you, I wish I could love you the way, you deserve to be.

THE END