Chapter 89: Insecurities And Rivalry

Still Beta Female Louise's POV

"Baby, that was unreal. I didn't know it was possible to have an orgasm through anal sex".

Breathing hard, Zalev tries to calm down as I hold him tight. I haven't loosened the ropes yet, I have more plans for him. My reward for an obviously successful job I have yet to cash in on.

"You lived to see it, and by the looks of it, you enjoyed it too," I chuckle, my hands caressing his amazing body. "You owe me one, I want a mind-blowing climax too." And I know exactly how to get it from him.

"I'm yours, you can have me any way you want, love. I love this naughty side of you. You have exceeded my wildest expectations".

This is a far-reaching commitment that I intend to definitely fulfill. This man is mine to love and ravish. Only the prospect of fulfillment that awaits me makes my hands move more violently over him. He holds his breath, the sparks soaking him with lust. This is what the mating bond does, it never diminishes, it only grows stronger as our wolves become closer.

My lips go down, I spread his legs so that all of him is exposed before my eyes.

Licking my lips, I move lower until I have his pole between them. I close them tightly around him and begin to spoil him. He rocks his hips, grunting impatiently now that his hands are still restrained. I continue, playing with him until he climaxes again. I lick him clean and crawl back up. With my triangle over his lips, I rock my hips seductively.

He opens his mouth for me to lower my pussy.

And then our seductive game begins, my cries of unprecedented pleasure following one another. "Take it off, babe. I want to feel you too," he pleads. I interrupt our intense activity, untie his hands and return to my pleasure. With his hand fondling my body, he takes me to the edge of madness.

And just when I think I am going to die from his masterful tongue, he plucks at my nipples.

I fall from the highest point of the universe as I float down, moaning and squirming until I hit the headboard. "Zalev, Zalev ... Aaahh, baby, yes, yes ...". My voice is hoarse with excitement as I finally release my juices and flood his mouth.

He holds me tight, his heart pounding like a maniac.

"Zalev, I long for a pup. One of you and me," I pant as I cling to the bed, exhausted. I feel him stiffen first, then slide me down until we look into each other's eyes. We are still drunk with love, but we know we have to talk about this.

"You don't have to get a pup to prove you love me or to secure the Beta position, Louise," he begins seriously. "If we come to that point, it should be a decision we are both ready for, not based on pressure from the pack or anyone else."

His response came like a cold shower. For a second, I felt insecure, does he mean that he does not want a pup? Does he not want a family with me?

"Never mind, babe. I can wait till you're ready. No rush." I swallow hard, this is definitely not the answer I was expecting.

I heard from Romero yesterday that he had found his pups. After some detective work by him and Jace, they discovered that Lori had indeed secretly given birth to his triplets. If he had not found out himself, she would probably never have told him.

But they are now very close with their three babies. Two boys and a girl. Luna Therse is thrilled with her grandchildren, with whom she spends all of her days. And Alpha Thoseo can't wait to hand over to Romero in a few months' time, so he can devote himself fully to being a Papa.

I want that happiness for Zalev and me. To feel his son growing inside me would give me great joy. But now he is reluctant, and I dare not speak of our marking. A second disappointment within minutes would be unbearable for me.

As if he sensed my mood, he began to kiss my neck gently.

But that wonderful moment is gone. I lay my head on his chest and closed my eyes, pretending to be sleepy. Of course, he knows I'm pretending, he can feel it in the mate bond.

After a few minutes, he sighs, unties the ropes around his ankles and gets out of bed. After taking care of his business in the bathroom, he dresses and leaves.

I could not sleep, and after an hour of tossing and turning between the sheets, I got up to take a bath. Wearing my bathrobe, I went to our private balcony. I lean against the railing and look out over the woods next to the packhouse. The evening breeze is cool and soothes my troubled mind.

'Why are you upset, girl? His words were not a refusal. He wants us to choose parenthood, not because it is expected of us. And he is right.' I winced at my wolf's words, Sara does not often disagree with me. Every wolf longs for a pup of his own, so her attitude surprised me all the more.

'It is that he sobered up so quickly when I brought it up. All the bliss of our sex was gone, and he made a statement as if I were his concubine, to be reminded of the rules of a loose relationship'.

Distraught, I lift my face, refusing to let the tears escape.

Sara scoffs at my words.

'A mistress? Where did you get that idea? Zalev loves us, he really knows we are his fated,' she scolds me, 'But like me, he wonders what the real reason for your desire for a pup is. Are you in a rivalry with Lori? Do you have something to prove to her? Because it's clear that you still hold a grudge against her. And Zalev is unsure, he doesn't know if it has anything to do with Romero, with whom you also had sex.’..