Chapter 385: 2-1

Chapter 45.2– Kieran POV I couldn’t remember life before I was taken, not very much of it and to be perfectly honest, I think what I could ‘remember’ were more so the two years since I’ve been free and on the run with Carla, Tony, Connor, Dominic, Tera and them telling me their memories. It was hard to sit and think of what was true or not, what I remembered or what I was told. I also didn’t like thinking about anything that had to do with my life before coming to the island, I loathed closing my eyes and having that fear of being hunted, hurt and eventually captured. In wolf form, it sometimes felt as though all the things that happened to me were done to someone else. Since Oakley had come onto the island, Nyx had been pushing for me to make new memories, sure the old ones haunted me and could paralyze me at times, you can make positive new memories… with Oakley, with other people, you just have to try Kieran, he said. So here I was. After waking up alone and being disappointed that Oakley wasn’t in the room, I showered leaving the hospital room and going to the room Chelsea had given me waiting until I knew Oakley would be back for her movie night. I had contemplated not going, deciding that she wouldn’t want me around while she was with Kiley and Tera, then why would she invite you? Why would Tera include you if they didn’t want you to join them? Again Nyx pointed out. I know he wanted to be around his mate, but I just couldn’t work it out for myself, why Oakley or anyone for that matter would want me around them? Didn’t they know how bad I was? In the – in that place, I was always kept alone for those exact reasons. Oakley though, she didn’t know. Inside I knew how selfish I was being, wanting her around me when I was no good, only to find out that she’s my mate. I had to tell her. Even if you tell her she won’t abandon you Kieran, Nyx murmured, but he didn’t know what he was talking about. I would tell her, that would only be fair. Only I was selfish. I enjoyed spending time with her, it didn’t matter if we were doing anything, and even just sitting in silence was wonderful. Yet what I really enjoyed was the moments I made her smile, it felt good to know that I was doing that… I liked watching her when she spoke to other people, trying to see if she was any different, in the way she saw me. There was none. No judgment. Not when she was looking at me, or when she was speaking to anyone else. She wasn’t ashamed to hold my hand in front of her uncle; she didn’t let go or pull away, nothing. In fact, she held on tighter, as if sensing that I would want to pull away. Heading down to the kitchen for something to drink, I heard speaking, I knew it was Jack, I hadn’t memorized every ones voice or anything but he had a distinctive low tone. “So Logan is the only one that leaves and comes on the island?” a woman asked. Keeping my head down, hoping they wouldn’t approach me or even speak to me, I sighed when I got my way. Relieved. “And Logan is Rainy’s sisters?” the woman sitting with Jack asked. McKenna. I remembered her from… last night? Time seemed to be going so much quicker these days. Before Oakley… it felt like time dragged on, each day the same as the other, but now it felt like there just weren’t enough hours to quench the need I had to be around her. “Yeah, Logan is actually part of a crew, they search for missing or kidnapped children,” Jack said, his words, “Oh... wow… he found his sister?” McKenna asked. I had my back to them, but my ears were listening, his sister wasn’t like me, but I still wanted to know the answer to that. “Yeah… he searched for her for ten years, never gave up,” Jack answered and my shoulders tensed. The doctors had said I was bad, that my parents thought I ran away, so I wasn’t like Logan’s sister. I was someone that left home, or so my parents thought. So the doctors told me. There’d be no reason for them to come find me or even bother searching. That was something I remembered though, the moment when I understood that I was bad, that they didn’t want a bad son. “That’s – that’s – wow,” McKenna had no words, without seeing her face, I would still guess that she had a look of wonder there. “Yeah, I mean, but that’s family, you know? When someone goes missing for whatever reason you have to look for him or her… you have to get closure any way you can… the pack Logan belonged too, they forbad him from looking for her, but he still did. Formed his crew, and for years they’ve been searching and protecting not just our supernatural kinds but humans as well.” Drinking my glass of apple juice, I was in a sort of daze, fighting like hell for Jack’s words not to root themselves in my mind because it wasn’t the same. I was bad, why would any look for a boy that was bad and needed to be punished because he couldn’t learn to be right? They wouldn’t. ‘No one is coming to find you,’ white coat said, and white coat never lied. Just as I was about to dash up to my room, I frozen in my spot moving to the side when Gabriel came down the steps, stopping a few below me he turned around, “Hey, your parents… you should go see them, they’re worried about you,” I looked at him blankly, they cared so much that they weren’t here when I woke up? I wanted to snort but that would be rude. “Actually…” he said after a moment when I hadn’t said anything, “They were here, but Oakley sort of used her gift on your mother…” my eyes widened, Oakley used her gift on Carla and Tony? Why? “They tried to hurt her?” I asked my hands shaking at my side, but I was confused when Gabriel shook his head. “No, they tried to touch you when you were unconscious-” “So she shocked them?” I – but she said I had surgery; I lifted my hand to the spot of my head where my hair had been shaved off. Someone had to touch me to do that, and I had brain surgery surely they touched me then too. Gabriel shook his head, folding his arms against his chest, “To her it was different. Someone touching you to help you live was okay to Oakley, however, your parents touching you because they heard you held her hand wasn’t okay. In fairness she warned your mother that if she tried she would shock them, but they didn’t listen,” he shrugged. “She – Oakley,” despite just having drank a full cup of juice my mouth was suddenly dry, “she wouldn’t let them touch me?” she protected me? Defended me? Was she in trouble? He shook his head, “Nope, said you wouldn’t want them touching you, that you didn’t give them permission,” I nodded again, overwhelmed almost with new information. “If you want to go see them, that’s fine but please take someone with you,” I was about to protest that I didn’t need a babysitter, “Look, we’ve given out warnings that what happened to you will not be accepted, however you never know, some people are just permanently stuck on stupid,” and with that he turned leaving me on the stairs in a state of utter confusion. Oakley had protected me? When I was sleeping… she wouldn’t let anyone touch me? She shocked Carla and Tony? Why? She could’ve gotten in trouble… why would she – Because she is your friend… your mate… she accepts you Kieran… she might not understand why you don’t want to be touch, but she respects that you have made that clear… I’m sure Nyx words were meant to make me feel better but I just – this was just more confusing… I never wanted to be touched ever, had said it before and it didn’t matter now, how come this was different? . .