Chapter 355

“What would I dra-” she stopped midsentence her eye flying to the soccer ball, and my bottom lip shook minutely, I forced all my emotions to the side, “his soccer ball.” I couldn’t show my anger, wouldn’t do it now, I repeated my mantra. It was moments like this where I saw just how amazingly caring and loving, and just brilliant Kayla was. That man made her afraid of her own goddamn shadow, I wonder for the briefest of moments, what she would have been like had none of this happened. Then I stop. I don’t know how to even deal with the two parts of myself. The man that saw the suffering of his children and mate, the struggle they were facing each and everyday that would continue for who knows how long, but can’t seem to even wish they had never been born. The other side of my self sees the opposite, we might not have had the children we had now – who know – but if none of this had happened, those children would be happier. More often that not, I was the man that wanted one percent of the latter, and was ninety nine percent of the other. I tried not to get lost in that debate often. No ‘what if’s.’ As a doctor I told patients or their parents, doing that would drive them mad, sometimes there was no answer that could settle the dust. No answer that would make time go back, or give you a complete do-over. You just had to take what you were given after the storm and make it, mold it to what you wanted. Take the pieces and make something new out of something old. Rainy says that nothing can be worse than what she endured, but then I look at Logan, and I think I’m sure he would beg to differ. Death might have led her to some peace from the life she led for ten years, but not if our children were left with Seth on their own. Death would have been worse for Logan, gone from this earth leaving him with no answers of just what happened. Bit by bit it would have ate away at him, at me as well. “You want to take a swim later?” I asked when she was close to finishing her meal. “No… can I come when you and momma take your walk?” she asked with big blue eyes. A bit of the tiredness had faded away. My eyes widened, “You know we take walks?” I asked her smiling as she ducked her head after nodding. We had begun doing that back home, but now on the island, every night before bed, Rainy and I would take a walk alone. Sometimes we were silent, both lost in our own thoughts, just enjoying the feel of having her next to me, her hand in mines. “You can come,” I told her. I enjoyed that time alone with Rainy, of course, however it wouldn’t change the activities if Kayla joined. Especially when we sometimes strapped on the baby carriers and took Michelle and Nicole with us, “Can I run?” I blinked again, wondering if I heard her wrong… “Run?” She nodded, “in my wolf?” okay so I didn’t hear her wrong. Kayla since her first main shift had yet to really shift again, I nodded dazed and happy that she asked. . . Chelsea POV Furious, red-hot rage engulfed my entire self, not an inch of me was at ease or calm to what I just witnessed with Kieran. Accidently he bumped into me when Mikael came down the stairs, startling him. To me it was as though a human had walked into me, I felt no spark, no danger, however Kieran, he was shocked. Not startled, literally his mind behaved as though he were electrocuted.