Chapter 77 Calming herself
With Amara gone to bring me coffee, I collected the tray of cookies and walked out of the room. I walked slowly while looking everywhere in the house. Even though I was allowed to walk around the house, I still couldn't escape. Bodyguards were all around in the house and had their eyes on me. Silently I made my way downstairs straight to the kitchen.
No omegas were in the room and Amara was on a stool on the kitchen island doing something on her phone with a smile on her face. "Hi", I said hesitantly. "Come over here", She waved me over and showed me a bunch of old men in speedo bathing suits with some silly caption below it. I didn't even read the caption, I just forced a smile on my face.
"They are really funny", She cackled all the way to the single serve coffee maker. "I forgot to bring it for you", she went on as she brewed a cup for me. "It's fine", I retorted as I watched her put two spoons of sugar. Yes the weaning had started because two spoons of sugar were not for me.
"Here it is", She smiled and passed it to me. "Today am going to grocery store, anything you fancy and I will add it to my list, tell me what you like to eat", She began to talk as she watched me sip my coffee. "What else do you want for breakfast today?", She went on. "Nothing I am not hungry", I replied without any smile. I honestly didn't want to have this conversation. This would only mean that I was settling in here the thing which was impossible. I didn't like everything in here including her.
I wanted to and see my mom.
"I will get you cereal so that you do have something in your stomach, huh wait what are your favorite foods what do you like to eat in mornings?", She asked again.
She was so talkative and I hated it to the core.
Her phone rang before I could respond and inwardly felt happy for that. "What now?", I backed away from her when I heard her respond to the person who had called her.
I didn't want to eavesdrop to her conversation so I walked through the kitchen to the dining room where they were patio doors. I took my coffee out to the patio and sipped it slowly while looking around. Though the coffee was good, it still didn't lighten up my moods. A moment later she came out and made her way to me. "I would have gone with you for grocery shopping but too bad, Alpha has refused", She murmured but I didn't even turn to look at her.
"He has said that you off limits", She continued and at that I turned to her. "Off limits? ", I asked in total disbelief.
What the fuck does he mean off limits???!!!
My facial expression read shock and uncertainty due to the information I had just received. Off Limits? I repeated the words in whisper and looked at Amara.
"What?.... What does that mean?" I shifted toward her.
"Well, most of us were informed that you were unapproachable." She removed her attention from her phone and looked at me "My brother refused everyone to talk to you, not even me."
If my emotions were not already on the brink of sending me to confinement, now they were going to land me on an episode of my favorite show 'Snapped'. I was totally pissed off. The strong wolf in me, couldn’t bear up with it anymore.
How the fuck dare he put me here. Off limits? Unapproachable? Mark me an animal behind a cage?
"Okay." I rose from my chair. "I will be right back."
"Wait, where are you going?"
"I have a big bad wolf to speak to!"
Saying that I was mad would probably be an understatement. I was angry. I was fuming. I was furious. I was not happy with this indignant behavior toward me and I was ready to make that known.
My inner wolf wanted me to keep calm and speak like an intellectual human being. It wanted me to walk up to his room and discuss how I felt and how things were unfair.
The problem is, I'm not a human being. I was ravaging monster to most. As a wolf, we could be a beautiful specimen on the outside but a beast internally.
I took in a few deep breaths to calm myself. I had hopes of shredding away the dangerous ideas I had poisoning my mind as I walked toward his corridor.
Relax. Relax.
My inner wolf wanted me to calm myself before I approached Xavier. It wanted me to smack a fraudulent smile on my face before I met him.
That was not going to happen!
I decided to stay calm and bear up with his sex but not this.
He must have done it for a reason. Why did my inner wolf desperately try to search for a reason for why he did what he did? Why would the monster inside not accept the fact that he was an egotistical, selfish, maniac that was set out to ruin the lives of his pack members?
Was I unapproachable by others because I was like a kid's toy? He wanted to be selfish with me until he will be done. After getting the baby.
Thinking too hard? I don't know what it was or why I was off limits but I planned to put those questions to rest.
I paced down the well-lit halls toward the end. Greeting me at the end was a dark wooden door that stood tall and strong. His office.
Without any hesitation, I knocked on the door.
No answer.
I turned and walked toward my next destination. His room. A secluded room that lied in the far opposite corner of the halls, completely secluded from the rest of the home.
I passed by the warrior rooms. I passed the Beta room. My anxiousness had me standing outside of Alpha Xavier's room door with an over pissed off mind and quivering hands.
I raised my hand to knock. Before my small fist could make contact, the bedroom door swung open forcefully.
Wide staring eyes turned to low narrowing eyes before the corner of her lips rose to form a taunting and devious grin that I found appalling.
Carla?!
What the fuck is this bitch doing here?