Chapter 44 her sadness
AMARA'S POV
His chest and back was probably covered in nail mark's too , l knew it. "From now on whenever I fuck you , you do have to call me master or daddy", Just as I was lost in my thoughts , he out of the blue grabbed my chin and he kissed me hard , closed mouth but possessively. He then lifted me up still straddling him and then placed me gently on the bed.
I winced in pain as soon as my bottom touched the sheets. It was damn painful. Even though l have been always receiving punishments, being spanked by him hit me hard. "Turn over", He told me . " Stay still ", This time l obediently rolled over onto my stomach filled up with despair , silently crying and tears were streaming down my face on to the bed. I saw a light turn on and l realized that he had gone to the bathroom.
He came back after a while and slathered some cream all over my sore bottom. Then he left and I guess he washed off the cream off his hands because I heard the water running. After that he climbed up in to the bed besides me and leaned over then ran his fingers through my hair gently as he pulled my torso on top of his.
I tried to pull away but he gripped me tighter. "Uh , uh", he warned in a low voice. Tears burned in my eyes but I went limp and l just let him pull me close. I didn't want everything that he was doing to me but I only didn't know what the heck happened to me , I came even harder than for my first sex. Puzzled and baffled I silently cried myself to sleep on top of him. Dripping tears probably all over his scratched up chest but I didn't care.
Through out the whole moment he said nothing , he just laid there stroking my hair. I could feel it that he loved every second of it. He loved torturing me. He was happy that finally l was weak, submitting to him.
Sick bastard .
All he wanted was a heir.
After a few minutes I started to drift off to sleep. "I will take good care of you , you doing so good , so good". I heard him say that as my eyes closed.
What on Earth was l in for this monster, ruthless Alpha.
XAVIER'S POV
I stared down at her face while she slept kind of diagonally across my chest , no blankets on us because her bare ass was covered in cream . Among everything she was so fucking perfect. The fight was something I had wanted , needed and she gave it to me. Though it infuriated me when I found her dry. That totally showed that she hated me but I still didn't care.
Whatever it was , l still didn't give a damn. She was mine and l liked the way she responded to me. She was already giving me everything I was craving for. Though she seemed stubborn, l knew it that l could easily take her down to the roads l wanted to travel. I could take her there , get what I want and then comfort and care for her afterwards. She was an omega but she had all the qualities of a good Luna.
But what l was doing niggled me. That meant that l was losing control. I had to slow down so that I didn't break her to far. I was feared and respected Alpha , weakness wasn't for me. The crying herself on top of me was total shit. I had never wanted that. When it meant that am done , l was done but with her l wanted to hold her afterwards , feel her tears hit my chest and whisper comforting words in her ear.
I could break her down and then care for her afterwards. I didn't know what the hell it was but I liked the feeling when she goes soft in my arms and falls asleep. Yeah I make her cry but all because she is mine , I would comfort her after everything. It was a beautiful thing , a twisted but a beautiful thing. She was right , l was a sick fuck and I wasn't going to change.
I had been with plenty of women who would let me tie them on the bed , who loved when I slapped them or whipped them but they had never affected me like this . I wanted her to give me everything she had , every emotion l had never had before . Possessiveness , need and fear. Fear of what I didn't know.
In the middle of the night l woke up to a loud scream. She was thrashing besides me in the throes of some nightmare , l wasn't shocked by that , it was probably a nightmare about me. "Mara", l grabbed her tightly. She woke up confused but before she could say anything, l pulled her against me and kissed her forehead.
"It's okay I have got you", l whispered but she was stiff in my arms , she was trembling , she was having trouble shaking whatever she dreamt of. She tried to pull away from me but I didn't let her go. I cooed in her ear and stroked her back as l kissed her over and over. At that she stopped fighting but she cried herself back to sleep on top of me.
Finally she went soft and l heard her breath even out and so l closed up my eyes again. I slept like shit , l made her stay still .she didn't want me l was the source of her nightmares.
In the morning l woke up with her laying on top of me , her head on top of my chest and her leg draped over my thigh. I gingerly got out of the bed before she woke up. I saw her backside was still pink still covered up in my fingerprints and I caught sight of one of her knees. It was all scrapped .
In all the things ,I didn't want to see her open her eyes. I didn't want to see the sadness and anger in her eyes.