Chapter 54

Freshia Ava’s POV

I woke up from my sleep thirty minutes ago, but haven't gotten out of bed yet. My mind still wanders to what Eros said yesterday. Is he really going to kick me out of this house later? Then what does he mean by claiming that only he can protect me? Who is he? Question after question kept appearing in my mind. But I also couldn't deny the look he gave me at that time. A sad gaze that looks clear like a pool of calming water. I've seen that look before, but where and who does that look belong to? I kept trying to remember but the more I did, the more my head started to feel dizzy. So I gave up and let it be.

A split second later, my mind suddenly came back to the incident that followed. Where Eros kissed my lips and I did not reject all the affection given to him. Immediately I took a deep breath, starting to curse myself because I so easily took Eros for granted. To be honest, in my heart, there are still many big doubts about him and I can't just trust him. Remembering that Eros is not a predictable person and I don't want to be disappointed again because I trusted him.

Not long after that, the door to my room opened wide and revealed the figure that was still in my mind. With a complete suit covering his proportional body, Eros stood there. He smiled and walked towards me. “Just woken up, Freshia?” he asked when he got near me. I answered his question with just a nod of my head.

"How about we have breakfast together this morning?" he asked again.

I looked at his face which at that time looked very friendly in my eyes. But I also couldn't just forget what he had done to me and how the face in front of me could turn so scary. I was too busy with my thoughts until I came back to my senses when he touched my face tenderly.

"Eros, to be honest, I'm still confused about what I'm feeling right now," I said softly as I grabbed his hand which was still on my cheek to get rid of it. But he didn't respond, just stared at me silently. “You can change easily. When I met you for the first time, I remember how scary you were at that time. But then you showed your good side and continued to treat me with great tenderness. However, suddenly you turned into the most terrifying figure. And now, you're suddenly nice to me again. I'm confused, I have to see and judge what you are like, Eros." I said again accompanied by a long sigh. I also averted my gaze because I was afraid of getting a bad response from him.

But the response he gave was the thing I least expected. "There's no need to try to understand me because I don't understand myself." The answer was low but very clear in my hearing. I looked back at him and found Eros who was lowering his head at that time. “You're the first foreigner I'm interested in having a personal relationship with. So, I really don't know how I should act towards you. I'm bad at that, Freshia. Because previously, I only connected with people based on reciprocal relationships and purely business," he said again.

After that, Eros looked back at me. "And again, I have never received a rejection in my life and that makes me emotional when you repeatedly reject and deny my wishes." His words just now made me realize how different our backgrounds are and maybe that's why we can't understand each other.

"If you can't have breakfast with me, I'll go to the office now. Get some rest, Freshia.” After saying that, Eros immediately got up from his seat.

"Are you coming home late?" I asked suddenly, making him who had just stood up look back at me. “I mean, if you can come home early, how about we eat together tonight?”

Eros smiled. "Okay, then see you tonight." He answered and then immediately stepped out of my room.

When I came back alone, my mind was turbulent again. I Regret the part of me that easily accepts kindness from other people, even if they are the people who have previously hurt me and kept me locked up in this house. But I also couldn't possibly just cancel my decision to have dinner with him because that would be the same as re-igniting his emotions. Basically, I'm the type of person who doesn't like fuss so now maybe I'll follow how Eros acts towards me. Hopefully, my decision to give it a chance this time will not be regretted in the future.

Therefore, that evening, I kept my promise to have dinner with him. There was no meaningful conversation before dinner was held until we finished the dinner dishes that were on our respective plates.

“Want to take a walk around the house to see the snow outside?” Invite Eros suddenly. "You must be bored in your room all day."

I agreed to his invitation and we walked towards the yard of the house. Does Eros want to test me by taking me around the yard? Maybe he wanted to know whether I still had the desire to escape from this place or not. I thought. But who would think like that if they saw how tight the security around the house was? But if you think about it, did Eros recruit this many people just because he was afraid of me running away, or was there another reason?

"Eros, may I ask you a question?" I asked, breaking the silence between us who had arrived at the yard. "Maybe this question is not important but I just want to know if you recruited this many bodyguards just so that I don't run away from here?" I asked innocently.

Eros spontaneously laughed when he heard that. "Yes, right," he answered. "But actually they have been working with me for a long time."

My brow furrowed at his last words. “So, that means it's not just because of me.”

Eros smiled then. “For now, his main task is to look after you, Freshia.”

"But if they've been working with you for a long time, do you really need this many bodyguards?"

“I'm a businessman, Freshia. Many people want to work with me, but there are quite a few who want me to fall and even finish me off. I not only have many friends but also enemies.”

Hearing his answer, I came to understand that perhaps it was because of the demands of his job that had indirectly shaped his temperament to become tough and somewhat cruel. It also made me more aware that our worlds are really different.

“I don't want to make excuses, but if you want to know, that's why I kept you in this house, Freshia. Even though this doesn't justify what I did to you, I hope you can at least understand." Eros said while looking at me deeply.