Chapter 64: Contemplating the unthinkable

Stella's point of view

My eyes held a great sorrow to them. I was a shell of the woman I once was. Only strength I held dear to me was my unborn pup. The time was almost near for he would make himself known to us. Callum had visited my bed chambers on countless attempts to atone for what he has done. But I can not bring myself to forgive him. The woman I once was was now dead. My wolf whimpered in the back of my mind. The guilt eating away at her. She wasn't able to protect me not in the presence of an alpha atleast.

Everynight I prayed to the moon Goddess to ease my pain. But she is as quiet as always. I mentally growl so this is how she treats the people who are good to her. Before I thought it was because I was human but I'm not human anymore. I have a wolf now a white wolf at that. I ball my fist my anger eating away at me. Before I knew it my fist collided with the mirror. Glass shattering blood oozing from my knuckles. Maxine soon busted into my bathroom inspecting what had taken place.

" Luna what have you done." She whispered her eyes only holding worry. Taking my hands in hers she swiftly and gently started to tend to my wounds. My knuckles began to sting I gripped my hand away from her growling.

" I'm fine I don't need your help."

Maxine didn't say anything she only sighed " I know the pain you hold inside of you. But let me be the one to tell you. I know what he has done to you was wrong but he was not in his right state of mind."

I huffed " You know nothing of what I feel. I never had someone to love me. I never knew my mother. My own father had hoped that I would have died instead of her. The closest thing to love I ever got was from Roxy and now she's gone. I don't even know if she made it back home or if she is still mad at me and who would blame her. I chose a man over her. After she gave up everything inorder to get me to safety. And For what that maybe my child will be safe. He raped me while I am pregnant why because he happened to be in rut. I am tired if it wasn't for my son I would have ended it long ago. Maybe I should end it." Grabbing a big shard of glass I held it to my neck feeling the rigid side against my skin.

" No stop it Luna. We need you here with us. I need you please." This past week Maxine had stayed by my side unable to face the woman she had once claimed to love. Maybe there was more incommon between us than we thought.

I let out a soft laugh " I see the way yall look at me an outsider thats what yall see. It wasn't til I gained a white wolf that yall started to show me an ounce of respect that I deserve. I see it in your eyes I'm nothing but a whore. A low born human that once was. The pack whispers about me this castle has thin walls it echoes through the vents."

" Luna I wish to apologize to you I wish things haven't gone this far. But I can not take away what he has done to you but I can only try to ease your mind."

Just when I was going to respond Jezebel interrupted " The Alpha wishes you to join him for dinner."

Maxine sneered " Why would he send you?"

Jezebel's eyes seemed to dim " He didn't I offered in hopes to make amends. I know I can come off a little intimidating but I asure you it is in the spare of the moment. I just wanted what was best for the pack. I am sorry if I offended you in any way 'Luna'" Jezebel flashed her sharp fangs at me. I clenched my fist and before I knew what was happening my fist locked In With her face.

" I don't know what game your playing at but I am tired of playing. It is because of you I am in this position. Once I deliver my son in the next full moon I promise you as a gift for his arrival I will seal your fate by sticking your head on a fucking spike you fucking ingrade."

Maxine held my forearm trying to soothe me. " Hush now Luna let's get you ready for dinner with the Alpha. Do not let ingrades get to you especially not this one."

Jezebel's ears perked back " So that's all I am to you now just an ingrade." Wiping the tears from her eyes. She bit her lip to keep from sobbing even louder clearing her throat and pulling herself off the ground. " Max I made one mistake. I never meant to hurt you not the way you are intentionally choosing to hurt me. I've done alot of bad in my life but never would I ever choose to harm the one person who has been there for me. Max please I love you."

Maxine's ears went back contemplating what to do finally she sighed and shook her head. Grabbing Jezebel by her shoulder and shoving her out of my bed chambers " Jezebel I don't care what you do with your life but I can no longer be apart of it. I'm done with you."

"Max please." Before she could finish what she wanted to say Maxine had shoved the door in her face. Maxine turned her back towards the door leaning her head against it.

Maxine sent me a soft smile " She won't bother you anymore Luna I can assure you of it." Maxine gripped my hand leading me back to the bathroom. Now it was time to face the alpha that installed this new fear into me.