Chapter 60 60. The Virtue Of Silence!
Saintilia’s POV
Naturally, despite my limited movement within the compound, I still did not know exactly where I was or how far I was from my own village. That uncertainty deepened the sense of isolation and confinement. I could be miles away, or I could be just beyond the next hill. There was no way to know.
My refusal to engage continued, but it carried a grave personal cost. It was the result of a harrowing incident, a brutal moment where his frustration boiled over.
I had been sitting at the table, staring at the wall, refusing to respond to his questions. He had asked me something; something I no longer remembered, and I had simply remained silent, my jaw set, my eyes fixed on nothing.
"Answer me," he had said, his voice low and controlled.
I said nothing.
"Saintilia." His tone hardened. "I am speaking to you."
Still, I remained silent. I would not give him the satisfaction of my voice, my attention, my acknowledgment.
The explosion came without warning.
His hands wrapped around my throat, lifting me from the chair with a strength that terrified me. He slammed me against the wall, his fingers tightening, cutting off my air. I gasped, my hands clawing at his wrists, but his grip was iron.
"You think you can ignore me?" he snarled, his face inches from mine. "You think you have choices here? You have nothing. You are nothing without me."
The world began to fade at the edges. Black spots danced before my eyes. My lungs burned. I could feel my strength slipping away, my body going limp in his grasp.
"Say my name," he commanded. "Say it."
I could not speak. I could barely breathe.
"Say it!" His grip tightened further.
Something in me, some instinct for survival forced the word from my constricted throat. "Emilio."
He released me abruptly, and I crumpled to the floor, gasping, my hands flying to my bruised throat. He stood over me, his chest heaving, his eyes dark with something I could not name.
"That," he said quietly, "is what happens when you forget your place."
That moment of near-death became my ultimate, cold-hearted teacher. I had seen the cruelty in his eyes, and I knew that defiant resistance would only lead to my death. I consciously decided to stop engaging, to become a ghost in my own life. I learned that my defiance, though satisfying, only invited violence. My best defense was stillness and calculated submission.
This behavior allowed me to move about freely within the boundaries. I began to cook without complaint. I cleaned without protest. I responded when spoken to, my voice flat and neutral, my eyes always lowered.
"Good," he would say, watching me work. "You are learning."
Yet the memory of his grip was a constant, cold weight on my skin, a painful reminder of the thin line between compliance and death.
On another occasion, he returned home earlier than usual, the sound of the iron gate slamming shut echoing my own internal alarm. He found me in the kitchen, in the midst of preparing dinner. The air grew thick and heavy as his presence filled the small room. There was something different about him today, a restlessness in his movements, a sharpness in his gaze.
"What are you making?" he asked, his voice tight.
I did not answer. I kept my eyes on the pot, stirring slowly, as if I had not heard him.
"Saintilia." He said my name like a command. "I asked you a question."
Still, I said nothing. The silence between us stretched, growing heavier with each passing second.
His demeanor turned aggressive, his presence a sudden storm in the small, warm room. He grabbed my arm, his grip tight and painful, clearly intent on provoking any reaction at all. Despite his efforts, I maintained my silence, my eyes fixed on the bubbling pot on the stove, resolute in my decision to remain unbroken.
Filled with a rage that was almost childish in its impotence, he forcefully dragged me from the kitchen, away from the false comfort of my task. His fingers dug into my flesh as he pulled me toward the main room, his face contorted with anger.
"Why is dinner late?" he demanded, his voice rising. "I asked you a question. Why is it not ready?"
We both knew that was an excuse. The dinner was not late and I had been preparing it at the usual time. I understood that this was merely a pretext, a desperate attempt to compel me into a conversation he could not stand to lose. It had become evident that he could not tolerate being ignored, and in that moment, I decided with chilling clarity that I would stick to my decision of never acknowledging him, regardless of how he treated me.
This choice marked a turning point. I recognized the true power I held by refusing to engage. By refusing to give him the acknowledgment he craved, I was refusing to let him exist in the way he desired. I was denying him the one thing he wanted most: my reaction, my attention, my submission to his will.
Roughly three months had bled into one another since he uprooted me from my home. Adapting to life with Emilio felt unimaginable, a daily act of survival in a world I never chose, but I had no immediate way out. Therefore, my goal became a dangerous performance: to cultivate the perfect illusion of acceptance. I was playing a part, and the stakes were my freedom if not my life.
I analyzed his routines, his expressions, his predictable tantrums. I learned to mimic compliance, the quiet placement of a pillow, the silent preparation of his favorite dish, the immediate retreat from any space he entered. I learned when to disappear and when to be present, when to speak and when to stay silent. My submission was not surrender; it was a highly calculated shield.
Crucially, this mimicry extended to the most humiliating aspects of my captivity: I had ceased resisting his invasion of my body. I lay still beneath him, my eyes fixed on the ceiling, my body limp and unresponsive. I never screamed. I never fought. I never pleaded. I simply endured, waiting for it to be over.
My forced submission, however, carried a silent cost. Though I never screamed or fought, Emilio eventually became conscious of the repulsive, dead look that fixed itself on my face every time he bedded me. My eyes would grow distant, my features slack, as if the woman beneath him had simply gone elsewhere. This silent, intense aversion, far more potent than any spoken argument, eventually led him to stop seeking my bed altogether. My submission was a desperate sacrifice that bought me distance and, critically, time.
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