Chapter 68: Violet

As soon as he walked out of the room I flopped on the bed. My heart still raced from our make out session. I don’t know how I’m going to handle much more of that. Every time he kissed me, all I wanted to do was rip his clothes off and let him take me. I stared up at the ceiling. In a matter of hours my life has completely turned upside down. I now had a mate. That was really zero to sixty in two seconds flat. I moved in with this man who looks like a god and didn’t know him at all save from the few details I gathered the last couple days. What am I doing? I really couldn’t drag Simon into my mess. Even when he knew it all, he wanted to be there for me.

My mind drifted to when we were in the car. The look in his eyes when I said I would have been dead if it was a real fight. “I’m so stupid.” I said out loud. He looked so hurt, like he failed me when he didn’t at all. He couldn’t be every place I was at all times. He couldn’t really expect to protect me all of the time. When I hone my powers more, I will be the one protecting him. He was an Alpha, always the one to put himself on the line. Who protects him? No wonder he felt so alone and was so happy to finally have a mate.

“No point on dwelling. Let’s get to work.” I said to no one in particular. I slid off the bed and walked to the closet where Simon put my clothes. It would only take me a few minutes to unpack everything. I would need to get more clothes, maybe see Amy again and she could help me pick out more outfits.

As expected, unpacking and putting my clothing away took no more than ten minutes. I sat on the bed, crossing my legs with my book in front of me. I flipped through the book, looking for the place I left off. Vocare was scrawled on the top of the page. This spell focused on summoning, what, it didn’t specify. You can call into the void and summon what you want most.

It seemed relatively simple. I put my hand out and spoke the words that would summon what I most wanted. Simon flashed before my eyes; he was what I most wanted. I closed my eyes and said the words again. The door to the room opened.

“What’s wrong?” Simon’s voice sounded out of breath.

I opened my eyes and looked at him and smiled. “Nothing.”

“I was sitting down in my office going through my papers and I heard your voice whispering in my ear. I got worried something was happening.” He strode to the bed.

“Sorry. I was working on summoning.” I gave him a half smile. “Didn’t realize it would work.”

Simon let out a breath. “You had me worried for a moment.” He laughed slightly. “Good to see that it worked. But unless you want me to work all night, I need to get back to work.”

I gave him an evil smirk. “I wouldn’t want that.” I bit my lip.

I could hear a low growl come from Simon, his eyes turned dark with hunger, and the front of his pants expanded. “You’re killing me. Do you know that? Always biting your lip.”

I giggled. “I honestly don’t mean to.”

He crawled on the bed and hovered over me leaning close to my ear, breathing softly against my neck sending shivers throughout my body. “I’ll bite that lip of yours, and other places that will make you scream.” He nipped my earlobe, sending a jolt of pleasure straight to my core making me gasp. I could feel my underwear getting damp. He leaned back and looked into my eyes. He was so close but holding his position not leaning in to kiss me or bite me. Normally, I wouldn’t want to be bitten by anyone. But with Simon, I would let him do whatever he wanted to me.

I bit my lip again, staring at him not knowing what to do. My inexperience was showing.

“Such a naughty girl, teasing this big bad wolf.” He licked my bottom lip. “When she knows, he has work to do.” He pecked my lips and pulled away. “You’re lucky I have a lot of work on my desk. Or else I would punish my Luna for teasing me so.” I watched him crawl backwards off the bed in two smooth movements. He smirked and gave me a wink. “Next time.”

He walked out the door as I gapped at him. I exhaled the breath I didn’t know I was holding. My heart thundered in my chest. I sat there staring at the closed door, not sure what to do with myself. I summoned Simon and he made me hot. I fanned myself with my hand. Any normal girl would have probably grabbed him and had her way. I was twenty years old and a virgin. I don’t know how much more of this I can take, without actually going all the way. I sounded like a stupid middle school girl. How we would talk about sex when I was ten not really know what it was---going all the way.

I held my face in my hands. I had to mentally prepare myself for the time when we inevitably had sex. If things kept on going the way they were, we would probably have sex in the next hour. I knew what it was, I knew the process, but I still felt unprepared. I wished I had someone here to talk to about what to expect.

A soft knock came to the door as it slid open. “Hey, how’s it going? Just checking in.” As if I summoned her myself, Greta walked through the door and closed it behind her.

“Good.” I looked down at my book. “Just getting some studying in.”

“You look like you have seen a ghost.” She sat on the end of my bed and stared at me.

This was my chance. “Ok, you promise you cannot laugh or breath a word of this to anyone. Jared or Simon. Especially Simon.” I pointed my pinky finger at her waiting.

“I promise.” She grabbed my pinky with hers and we linked them together like we did when we were kids making a promise.

I took a deep breath and let it out. “Ok. I’m a virgin.” I paused for her to react but when she didn’t, I continued. “And with the way things are going with Simon I feel completely unprepared for what to expect and I have no one to talk to about it. I don’t want to disappoint him, but I have no idea what I’m doing. When my mom was alive, I was too young to have these conversations. But now, I’m just… I’m just…” I let out a soft yell, showing my frustration.

She smiled at me in a comforting way. “First, that’s not a big thing. You’re lucky that your first time is with your mate. Fucking around with a loser your first time is so not the way you would want to lose your virginity. Second, you have me. That’s what I’m here for, even though we haven’t seen each other in almost a decade I’m still your best friend.” She grabbed my arm and held it. “What is freaking you out the most?”

My eyes started to burn with embarrassment. “Does it hurt?”

“Only for a little bit. Then you’ll be a little sore after but nothing terrible. What else?”

“I don’t know what I’m doing, and I don’t want to disappoint Simon.” I bit my lip. My mind wandered to when Simon was staring at me, eyes dark with wanting me.

“No one ever knows what they are doing the first time. But my tip to you is to just let your body take over and find its rhythm. And don’t overthink it, that’s where you are going to get into your own head and cause problems. Our Alpha is very understanding, and he knows what he’s doing. So just follow his lead and you will be fine. And you couldn’t disappoint him. He’s super ecstatic that he finally found his mate. Even if you are terrible, he will love it.”

“Gah.” I shoved her slightly.

“Hey! I’m just saying you could probably poke him with a stick, and he would cum and be overjoyed. Fucking random people is good but when you fuck your mate it’s a whole different ball game. Like fireworks exploding, toes curling, pure ecstasy, wanting to climb on them every chance you get kind of fucking. Like even fucking on the floor of a dirty gas station bathroom.”

“Please don’t tell me you fucked Jared on the floor of a dirty gas station bathroom.” I laughed under my breath.

“Maybe.” Greta said trying to keep her face straight until we both busted out laughing. When we finally calmed down Greta asked, “What else are you worried about?”

I pursed my lips. “His body is perfect, every muscle, every hair is in the perfect position. My body is scarred. He already almost flipped a shit when he saw my back yesterday. And those were just on my back. What happens if he takes one look at me while we are doing it, climbs off and throws me out.”

“Take it from me, you’re hot. A few scars are not going to scare Si away. You two are mated, it’s kind of a better or worse situation.” Greta shrugged. “He’s not going to care. As soon as you show him those huge jugs of yours, he’s going to pop off.” She poked my left breast.

“Hey! Hands to yourself!” I pushed her hand away.

“But in all seriousness. Just tell him you’re a virgin and he will take it slow. Even if it kills him. He wants to make sure you are happy and comfortable. That’s how mates work. He wouldn’t want to do anything that you wouldn’t be in to.”

“Right.” I would have to tell him I was a virgin. He will probably laugh in my face. He had so much experience. And I had none. When I was in my room, back in the coven, when the mood struck me, I would finger myself but beyond that nothing.

“Stop overthinking. I can see your gears running a mile a minute. When you’re ready it’s going to be great. And then you will be fucking each other like bunnies.”

I gave her a weak smile.

“Plus, once you just bite the bullet, we are probably going to catch you fucking all over this house. It’s going to be so annoying.” She laughed.

“Right.” Was all I could say again.

“I’m going to leave you to it.” She patted my shoulder and stood. “Remember, don’t over think it. Everything will be all right.”

“Thank you.” I looked at my friend. Even though she hid behind humor, she had her serious moments, and I could trust her.

“Don’t mention it. I’m your Beta. When you need something, I’ll always be there for you.”

“And I’ll always be there for you.”

“See ya later.” She turned and walked out of the room.