Chapter 16: CHAPTER SIXTEEN: I want to go home

Ariana’s POV.

My hands trembled as I took the pills from

his hands. I stared at the pills in my hands for a while, I could feel his gaze boring into me. If I refuse to take this he would definitely suspect me and it would call for trouble. There's no way I would want that for myself.

I gave him a smile as I collected the pills from him. I put it in my mouth and hid it under my tongue and took the water from him and closed my eyes while drinking it. I handed him the cup and he dropped it beside me smiling.

“We have to be on a safe side, hope you understand?” He asked me.

“It’s fine,” I lied. How can I explain to him that there’s no need for all this, I am pregnant now. I let out a weary sigh waiting for him to leave the room so I can remove the pills.

But to my surprise he laid down beside me, smiling. “Let’s cuddle tonight,” he said and I swallowed the lumps in my throat trying to hide my disappointment.

I stared at him, my heart beating as he drew me closer to him, wrapping his arms around me and I placed my head in his chest. Why had he chosen today of all day to cuddle with me. I needed time for myself to decide what I want to do with my life but now I was trapped in his arms.

“Ariana,” He called my name.

I closed my eyes immediately, pretending to be asleep. He shifted slightly and after a while he began to stroke my hair and I remained there stiff hoping he would just stop and start sleeping. But he kept on stroking my hair, his hands gentle.

His hands stopped and relaxed in my hair and I could feel his heart rising and falling. I slowly removed his hands from my head and I stood up trying to be careful but he pulled me down.

“Where are you going?” He asked his voice gogrily.

“Uh…I want to pee?” I stuttered hoping he would let me go.

“Stay here with me for a while,” he mumbled, drawing me closer to him. Holy shit how do I leave his embrace, there’s no fucking way I can remove this pills inside this room.

I laid there staring at the ceiling, Brian’s hand rubbing my stomachs and I pressed my hands with his. I wish he could feel this pup inside of me, I wish he could accept the life that was growing rather than hating on himself.

His breathing became heavy and then I slowly dropped his hands from mine, I stood up and held my breath. He moved his hands searching for me and I gave him a pillow to cuddle with.

I began to move slowly, my hands hanging in the air, my heart beating as fast. After what felt like eternity I pushed the door opened carefully not to make a noise.

I let out a breath as I succeeded in entering, I opened the closet and removed the pills from my mouth and flush it. I spat out, leaning my head at the wall. I tried to steady my breath, I wondered how I moved from being happy to being depressed.

I have seen a lot of people always jumping in happiness when they are pregnant, eager to tell their partners about it. But mine as usual was always different, I can’t even think of telling him cause I would be dead.

“Ariana,” I heard my name. I arranged my hair as I stepped out plastering a smile on my face but deep down I was crumbling.

“Went to pee,” I muttered, as I climbed the bed and laid down beside him. His gaze was probing at me and I closed my eyes trying to avoid his gaze.

After a while, I opened my eyes and I swallowed the lumps at my throat as I caught Brian staring at me. I gave him a smile that never reached my eyes, and I closed my eyes back.

I wonder whether he was suspecting me, I tried to sleep but I could not. I felt very tired and restless but I could not roll on the bed.

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The early morning sun shines directly at my eyes, making me roll and I stumble into something hard. I opened my eyes slowly, blinking my eyes as I looked up to see Brian fast asleep. He was very handsome, unconsciously my hands began to trace circles in his chest. I wished our child would look exactly like him, for some weird reasons I crave to have a baby boy.

Suddenly he caught my hands and his eyes fluttered open, and I felt embarrassed. I wish the floor could swallow me right away.

“You know it’s a crime to wake someone up,” he said, flipping me and then he was on top of me and my cheeks became reddish. He removed the strands of hair from my face, caressing my cheeks.

“Tell me why did you wake me up?” He asked, his voice low and husky.

“I…I…did…nt.. mean…to,” I stutter, my heart beating fast.

“I do not like it when someone interrupts my sleep,” he said, leaning close to kiss me when the door burst open and I quickly pushed him from me making him fall hard on the floor.

I bit my lips trying to suppress my laughter, I quickly wrapped myself with the blanket as he let out a groan standing up rubbing his back hard.

“How dare you enter the room without knocking,” he roared, his eyes blazing with fury.

The maid flinched, I saw her hands trembling. I actually pity her but then she has to deal with the consequences of her actions.

“Am so sorry Alpha, I didn’t mean to just barge in,” she said, her voice quivering.

“Let it slide Brian,” I said, and he looked at me, his eyes widened.

“Seriously?” Don’t tell me you want to defend her,” he said his voice tinged with disgust.

I didn’t say anything. I gesture for the maid to drop the food. “You may leave,” I ordered.

He bowed down and walked away hurriedly. “Ariana, that was wrong,” he muttered.

“It was just an honest mistake,” I said standing up and I opened the food, immediately I began to feel dizzy, my stomach twisting. I clapped my hands over my mouth as I ran to the bathroom.

I poured all the contents in my mouth, and I splash water on my face trying to balance. I looked up to see Brian looking at me, his eyes a little bit cold and I knew I needed to act fast.

“I want to go home,” I blurted out.