Chapter 44
Saying goodbye.
“Nix, if what happens now?” I ask Watching the antics of Tennessee as he begs the prince to bring Skky back over and over again so that he can kill her. The third and fourth time was very creative but I have lost count with how many times he continues to entertain Tennessee. Tennessee doesn’t look like he is willing to give up anytime soon. Turning to look at Nix I tip my head to the side and ask without words that we step away and have a much-needed talk.
Nix nods her head and closes her eyes while taking us into her personal space.
“Nix, you didn’t answer my question what happens now?” I ask
Looking around her space I can tell that she is hesitant to have any discussion.
“We meet again in a few months you can give me your answer and either we will part ways immediately or we join” Nix says solemnly
“What happens if I give you my answer now?” I say.
“Um, you could do that. But we made a promise that you give me time to discuss what I wanted and lend your body to me for a bit and then I would give you back control and on your twenty-third birthday you would give me your decision then” Nix says.
“Yes, we did agree to that. But I have been thinking about it and I want to give you my answer” I say looking at Nix.
I can see the fear and doubt in Nix’s eyes, she isn’t sure that she wants to hear the answer but at the same time she wants to get the answer so she will know whether she will be free to live her life in the after or be stuck here.
I want to tell her that she is ok, that everything will be ok. But I don’t think that I have the stomach to go through with this and I am not sure that I want to. It is such a big ask and after everything that my family has already gone through, I really don’t want to put them through more trouble than I am worth. For the last twenty-three years they have protected me and wanted me to be safe. If I do this, I won’t be safe I will be hunted and so, will they and I don’t want that for them. I want them to be happy and live their lives with their fated mates if the goddess can bless them with one. Jameson doesn’t need the grief and he deserves more then any of us to be happy and live a great life.
As for Nix she deserves the absolute best, with every pain and every moment of suffering that she has been through Nix above all else deserves freedom and peace and if that means that I let her go and let my family go then I am ok with that. I am ok with dying if peace comes to my family.
“You don’t have to give me your answer now” Nix says miss reading the look on my face.
“But I ….” I start to say before Nix cuts me off.
“You Hennessy are good, caring and kind you are what a other should be. You want to protect those that you care about and while I understand that I also know that you don’t want to be a burden, you don’t’ want to cause more pain. But Hennessy, if this is the last time that we get I need you to know something and whilst you may not believe what I am going to say this is the absolute truth. You aren’t now nor have you ever been a burden and I you should know that your family loves you so much that they are and will do anything thing for you. You won’t have to ask you won’t have to say anything they will be there because they love and care for you and above all else you are worth it. So please believe in them and yourself that you can and will do anything that you put your mind to. So, I hope that when you make your decision that I hope you understand that you are so much stronger than you think you are and that you have done amazing things” Nix says with a stuttering breath.
Taking a deep calming breath, I look Nix in the eyes but they are blurry due to the tears gathering there. While Nix’s words were nice, they also hurt to hear. They hurt because what happens if they are true. What if my family really would sacrifice everything. Did I want that? Do I want to sacrifice my family? No, the answer is no but I would sacrifice for my family and if that meant that life for me ends at twenty-four years of age then please goddess make it happen.
“Hennessy, I will leave you now and I will see you again in a few months so that we can have the answer and go from there” Nix says starting to fade into the black.
The deep sadness that I feel as Nix begins to fade, I shout and take a running step towards her the look of shock on Nix’s face as I grab hold of her arm.
“You can’t do this” I shout.
“I must maintain my promise” Nix says with a sad smile.
“We haven’t finished talking” I gasp out as I try to hold onto her arm.
While I thought that I would be ok with Nix leaving it feels wrong part of me couldn’t let that happen.
“Please we have to finish talking” I beg looking at Nix desperately
“Oh, well this isn’t the right time. A promise is a promise.” Nix replies.
“I Hennessy wish to fulfill the prophecy and accept you Nix as my super” I state. Looking at Nix in her eyes to make sure that she understands that I mean this with every fibre of my being.