Chapter 22
Hennessy
My body shivers and I feel instantly sick, I don’t want to experience the pain and the suffering that was Nix’s lives before me. I can barely tolerate the thought of such an experience let alone live through it. But there is something that Nix eyes that makes me unable to look away. I look at Nix's eyes again and see that her swirling fire are resolute so I take a deep breathe and ask what I dread the most.
“Tell me,p...please t..tell me the rest” I say staring into Nix’s eyes so that she know that I am serious.
“Why, I have known you for the last twenty-two years and I know that you are scared and unwilling to experience my thoughts. Why do you want to know? Why do you want this information now and not in several months when you are of age? What makes now the right time?” Nix asks bitterly.
I take a minute and really look at Nix, yes she is beautiful, beautiful flame hair, her eyes are almost like liquid silver and molten lava joined together, Nix has high cheek bones and dimples when she smiles, but it’s the full cupid bow lips highlighted by the dimples that makes her magnificent, but her eyes hold pain and suffering and that is something that I don’t feel she should shoulder alone so taking a page from Tennessee about pulling up my big girl panties and if that means listening to something horrible and painful that is the least I could do.
“Because this is us, right? This is our life” I say simply. Make sure that my words, face and whole body is radiating my need for what I asked for
“Ok, but it won’t be easy and you are not going to like some if not most of what I have to say. But you can’t leave this place yet and I still have to finish the conversation with the Sib’s so all I ask that once we have finished telling you allow me to go back to them and explain what I have to and then I will allow you to have control again.” Nix says.
‘Why does it sound like you are saying goodbye Nix” I demand as I watch Nix take a seat in front of me.
“Because in a way I kinda am, if you hear everything and then decide not to accept me when you turn twenty-three then that is it. Normally I would wait until you are the right age and that is normally at the age of twenty-five when all phoenix supers get us but you have a destiny that need fulfilling and that can only happen one or two ways. Firstly, you hear everything and decide to fight and overcome the challenges and then you accept us, or you go option number two and hear everything I tell you and renounce me then you will die and then bam I will be recycled to the next other when ever they are born. But since I have been present for all of your life, I can tell you that only three people have ever accepted me and then they experience whatever it is to become a Phoenix I am not sure what that is as I have already been through it to be me. Does that make sense? Anyway, I will tell you.” Nix says as she looks at me with hesitant hope.
“Ok, buckle up Cinderella things are about to get real” Nix says while chuckling.
“Will anything happen straight away? I mean am I going to be a Phoenix straightaway if I hear what you want to know?” I ask hoping that it doesn’t and does at the same time. It really is like the humans say ‘sitting on the fence’ or another fav ‘between a rock and a hard place’ but there is this feeling inside of me that makes me feel like I have to know everything but there is still apart of me that doesn’t want to have anything to do with this. How can a super come at the age of twenty-three though didn’t Nix say that Phoenix supers don’t get their beings until age twenty-five does that mean that I would have had three more years of hell.
Three more years of hiding and running and dodging the Royals, the thought made me sick I didn’t want to hide anymore I just wanted to be super. To be able to move around with the supers and not have any fear to be able to have friends as well as to find love and experience love for the first time, though I didn’t want to have an experience like Jameson, I didn’t want to love and experience the pain of loss I really don’t want that. Though now that I think about it, I am sure Jameson never wanted that either.
While I continue to look around the dark space I notice that there are small balls of fire dancing around the space lighting up different bits and pieces but never staying in one spot for to long. As I stared at the balls of light, I notice that with the brief bits of light there were pictures but I couldn’t see them well enough as the light doesn’t stay still for too long.
Looking back at Nix, I can see that she is also staring at the small balls of light as well, there was a deep sadness in her eyes that made my heart break, it was looking at a child that had just lost their favourite toy and at the same time have been told that their life is now going to be forever changed it broke my heart.
“What makes you so sad Nix?” I ask.
“You girl, you are making me sad” Nix replies.
“Ok, I am ready telling me the story please” I say
“Ok, but I am going break your heart Hennessy” Nix replies.