Hallucination

I can't believe I had that kind of dream.

I let out a deep breath. After dressing up, I looked in the mirror. I fixed my disguise, I looked at my face, adjusted my mole, and stared intensely at the mirror. Maybe if I suddenly stuck this annoying mole on my left cheek, Rozzean would notice the change again. He's very observant.

"The eyes of that jerk are so sharp."

"Tali..."

While fixing my mole my eyes widened and I felt shiver down my spined when I suddenly heard his voice moaning my name.

"Thaliana, focus!"

I slapped both of my cheeks and then looked intensely at the mirror. I adjusted my fake freckles. I hope these won't cause a break out.

"You need to forget what happened. It is just a dream, and it will never happen in real life okay?"

Okay!

Once I was sure of my appearance was okay, I grabbed my reading glasses and put them on. I turned briefly to the mirror again. Then, I looked at the clock and sighed. It was 5:40 am. Time to go down and prepare breakfast.

"You taste so good, Tali..."

"Ahhh!" I covered my mouth and shouted as I kept on hearing his voice inside my head. I remembered my dream again. I tapped both my cheeks. Maybe what happened was because I thought about what Rozzean did last night. His hand caressing my head didn't leave my mind right away.

They say that if you are thinking about a person too much there is a possiblity that they will appear in your dream. And Rozzean happened to appear in a... different yet pleasurable way.

"But serioulsy, he has a good side. Even though he can be so grumpy."

I can't deny that fact. When I heard from him that he helped Manang, my heart softened. Indeed, Manang has a good life now, and I don't have to worry about her. Manang hasn't said anything bad about Rozzean either. After all the years they've spent together, she knows him well.

Also, I've never heard Rozzean shout at Manang.

That is a good relationship, actually. I am seeing a different side of him. However, my perception of Rozzean is slowly changing. This is not good for me especially after that wet dreame. Liking him or desiring him is not the reason I put myself in this dangerous situation.

"Enough, Thaliana Tangi. You are Tali 'The Maid' right now, so don't forget that. Go downstairs and prepare your boss's meal."

I sighed and left my room. But I glanced at the stairs leading to the third floor. I quickly walked downstairs. Maybe I'll run into Rozzean later. I'm not ready to see him after my dream.

I wondered, why did I have that dream so quickly? Was it because I've seen Rozzean shirtless several times? And then I saw his hotdog on my first day here?

I sighed again. I just couldn't accept what happened that I gave in. I even enjoyed what he was doing to me. Inside my head, I was expecting for more. Am I really that needy of a man's touch? I don't even know I am attracted to men, is this what a twenty-nine year old virgin woman felt like?

I think I should ask Thes next time. I know that friend of mine is also a virgin even though she always speaks dirty and talks about sex.

"Good morning, Tali."

When I arrived at the kitchen, Manang greeted me as soon as she saw me. She already had her coffee prepared and was holding a newspaper. She always woke up early, and it feels good to be greeted by her this early.

"Good morning, Manang," I greeted her with a smile, then went to the kitchen cabinet to get a cup. I was going to make some milk since I don't drink coffee.

"It looks like you had a good sleep, Tali. Care to share what dream you had?"

I almost choke on my own salive after I heard it.

"O-Oh..." I was surprised by Manang's question. I was still pouring hot water. Thankfully, I didn't spill any and burned myself.

"Why do you say that, Manang?" I said, feeling nervous and embarassed because I remembered my dream again.

"I looked normal like before," I added while stirring my milk. I sat down across from her. She smiled at me.

"Because your expression is different, as if something good happened to you. I just noticed," she answred.

Manang always seemed to be teasing. I grimaced and sipped on my milk. I have no intention to tell her my dream! never! I will bury it deep!

"I just had a good sleep," I replied.

A really good sleep and if I didn't fell from my bed and woke up maybe I reached heaven.

Darn.

"Yes, I noticed that too because you usually come down at exactly 5:30. I thought to myself that you must have had a good sleep, and besides, you did a lot of things last night, you get tired it is given because the house is huge for the both of us to clean."

I took a sip of my milk again and just nodded. It seemed like I didn't want to overexert myself; I was having strange dreams. When I saw her went to the cabinet and started to make coffee I was about to stand but she stopped me.

"Oh, continue drinking."

I just watched her and after she's done, Manang excused herself, saying she would bring coffee to the guards outside, and I told her I would prepare breakfast for our boss. I need to hurry, I don't want him to meet this early.

"What should I cook for that grumpy boss?"

I opened the refrigerator and looked at what I would cook. I saw bacon, ham, and... hotdogs. Even this food made me feel different now and it's that man's fault! I shook my head and get one piece.

"Hotdog... this hotdog is big, but the one from last night was even bigger-"

"Do you like hotdogs, Tali?"

Holysht.

I turned to the voice and saw Rozzean smiling at me. My eyes widened as I stared at him. He was biting his lower lip sexily! When I was about to speak, he suddenly disappeared.

My eyebrows furrowed.

"W-What the... what was that?"

I shook my head. What's happening? am I hallucinating?

"Wake up, Thaliana..." I slap my face.

I put back the hotdog on the fridge and I took out some tocino, bacon, and sausages. My hands were shaking. I can't believe I'm imagining Rozzean right now. Am I going crazy? Is this the effect of that wet dream? Oh my goodness.

"Focus, Tangi, focus, okay? Just think about why you're here in his house, all right? It's for your fur babies, for your peace of mind, for the life that you-"

"Why? Don't you want to be with me? I can make you happy. I will be a perfect husband for you, I can make you scream in bed. I can do many things that will please you."

I felt like I was going crazy when I heard his voice again. I turned to see him sitting on the island counter now. When I approached, he suddenly disappeared. I pinched myself and removed my glasses.

This is horrifying. I went straight to the sink and splashed water on my face, my breathing ragged.

"Am I still sleepy?"

"What's happening to me?"