Ch.42 Like A Queen
Ayanna's POV
" I just want you to be there, I want you guys to come, I can't do this without you. It would mean a lot to me if you guys come please." I begged and I could see Travis relaxing a bit.
I was actually going to tell my family but knowing what they will think of me stopped me and also I wanted to taunt him. I wanted them to come because this was going to be my first and last wedding, I wanted them to be part of it.
"Please leave Ayanna and please don't come back except he's gone." he opened the door wide for me to leave and I could see the tears slip from my eyes.
"We'd leave but I'd love for you to come, if not for me but Ayanna, it would mean a lot to her." he took my hand and I just let him take me out. I was shattered.
As soon as we got to the car I started crying. I hated this whole thing, I hate the deal. I hate that I'm getting married to Travis, I hate that my mother and brother don't want to come and probably hate me. I hate my life and it's all because of Travis. I wanted to kill him.
I was crying hard, I was so sad, frustrated, angry but mostly hurt. I wanted to blame it all on Travis but it was my fault too. I was stupid then and now, stupid enough to agree to the deal and to sign it. To think that I did all this because of my father, for his surgery. For them to have a better life now look at how they treated me.
A hand was wrapped around me and I was shocked because I know it was only Travis that was there.
"Let me go." I sobbed hitting and pushing him away but he held me tighter and it tugged my heart a little. It didn't help that his touch was exhilarating and he was moving his hand on my back.
"Just let me go, it's all your fault." I cried repeatedly hitting and pushing him away but he didn't budge.
He said nothing and just held me as I kept on hitting him. I wanted him to shout at me telling me to stop, push me away from him. I got tired of hitting him and just rested my head on his chest crying as his hands were around me stroking my back and hair. I had no idea why he was doing this
or why I let him but I was too tired to fight him off and just cried.
Once I was done I removed my face from his chest and his cloth was soaked. I looked up at him but his face was neutral, couldn't he shout at me for soaking his shirt? I got into the car, I had done something I promised myself not to do. Most especially in front of Travis.
"I meant it when I said I can't do this anymore," I said turning to look at him.
"What do you mean by that?" he asked coldly
"I can't marry you, I can't do this, I've always been a bad liar, I can't pull this off."
"A bad liar? You're a very good liar and actress Davies and it's not a compliment." he coldly stated. "I don't care Sinclair, I can't marry you."
"You signed the contract Ayanna," he shouted hitting the steering as he drove.
"You can sue me, take me to jail, do whatever you like but I just can't do this. My family is all I have, I don't want them to turn their backs on me." I pleaded
"There's no going back Ayanna, the deal is final, we're getting married this Saturday." he firmly stated.
"I can't marry you Sinclair, I wouldn't," I said shouting out of frustration.
"What do you want, how much more do you want?" he asked calmly.
"Nothing, it's not about the money Sinclair. I'd return it to you all of it, let's just end this. I'm lying to my family and I don't like it."
"What would make you change your mind?" he said calmly but seriously.
"I want to tell my family that the whole thing is fake."
"That is not possible." he angrily stated
"Then the marriage isn't possible. Your mother knows so why can't mine know?"
"Because I don't want them to know, this is the end of the discussion. Don't make me tighten the security throughout this week."
"It's fine, don't worry. I wouldn't miss the wedding."
It was the day I've been dreading, my fake marriage, how fantastic. This whole week had been exhausting, cake tasting, wine tasting, dress fittings and every last minute check-up. I also had a bachelor party with Naomi, Jenny, Linda, Rachel, and Bella. I had invited Daisy but she said she wasn't in town. I didn't know if it was true or an excuse but I chose not to dwell on it. I called my mom and brother after the day I visited them and we had a very long talk with me trying to convince them but they were hell-bent on not coming so I was going to be walking down the aisle alone. I just wonder how it would have been if I was getting married to someone I loved who loved me in return. I'd have been happy and today would have been the happiest day in my life just like any other girl's wedding but I hated today. I was even getting a dream marriage any girl would wish for but I wasn't happy because I knew what this was and Travis wasn't someone that could make me happy.
"You look beautiful." Jenny squealed and I smiled muttering thanks.
My hair was tied in a bun with several hair accessories which were pink, I even had a tiara to go with my gold gown. My make up was expertly done and I could say I looked like a queen.