The Beginning of a New Era
Anxious. I feel this is the perfect word to describe how I am feeling at this exact moment. In my entire life up to now, even before I went to war with the strongest of Alphas, I have never felt this way. My stomach twists as I play with my fingers trying to distract myself from my feelings.
Deimos had left early in the morning for a meeting with the council and I couldn't even express how I felt. He and I have gotten quite close to each other. We spend every waking moment together. I taste his lips when I want to and he touches me as he wishes.
Everything I dreamt of when I first met him has been coming true with each day. He isn't the same anymore. He's different, way more than I expected. His gaze isn't ice cold but warm as it soothes my skin. His touch isn't painful but sweet and hot. My life has changed and for the first time in a long time, I can say... I am happy.
"It's alright, Alpha. You need not worry about it too much." Elriam says softly as I look away from the window to her.
I begin pacing around the room. "You don't understand. This is a big thing. I don't wish to regret anything." I tell her.
"The pack loves you, Alpha. They have wished for this to happen for a long time." Elriam moves closer to me trying to soothe my nerves with her words.
"I understand but it's the crowning ceremony Elriam! I will formally be introduced as the Luna to the pack. What is there are some members in the pack who don't wish for this to happen? I haven't talked to every wolf! What if-." I throw my uncertainty at her as she calmly cuts me off.
"This uncertainty of yours is not because of the pack but something else, yes?" Elriam asks me as I close my eyes and take a deep breath. She sure can see right through me.
"I don't wish to lose my title as Alpha. I have been protecting it for so long. I fought for it with my blood and I... I just cannot seem to let it go." I tell her as I fist my hands tightly.
"Alpha... you can never lose it. It's in your blood. For us females, you will always be our Alpha and our lives are yours." Elriam says softly placing her forehead on mine.
"I cannot seem to tell him Elriam." I tell her.
"Tell him what?" She asks me.
"My uncertainties. My fears concerning this. Deimos seemed happy and excited for today. We have been planning the ceremony for weeks and the day has finally arrived while I am still doubting." I tell her biting my lip.
"Alpha try telling him I am sure he'll understand." She says as I nod accepting her advice. "Speak of the devil." She says pointing towards the window as Deimos's car enters through the gate.
Without saying another word, I sprint down the stairs to the gate, my hair flying all over across my face but I pay it no heed running straight towards him. I need to see him. Deimos opens the car door with a serious look on his face as he speaks to Ragon, his back towards me.
I run faster as Ragon's eyes find me and he points towards me. Deimos looks behind frowning as his eyes widen when they find me. I fly into his arms hugging him tightly inhaling his scent as he shifts backward with the force of my body thrown upon his. Ragon chuckles and I snuggle deeper into Deimos's chest.
"Guess I was extremely missed yes Ragon?" Deimos's husky voice questions Ragon as he chuckles once more.
"Well, I don't know Alpha. Seems like Luna sat by the window and waited for your arrival." He says teasingly as my cheeks burn.
Deimos slowly lifts my face towards his, bending down he meets his lips softly with mine as I fall deeper into him. "I am back, mate." He softly says as I smile my palms lay softly across his chest.
"Welcome back." I whisper as Ragon clears his throat.
"I will head inside first, need to continue the preparations for your ceremony." Ragon says softly heading inside as Deimos and I don't take our eyes off the other.
"Deimos, I have something to tell -." I stop as Deimos's eyes widen all of a sudden as if he just remembered something. Letting go off me he opens the car door grabbing a small batch of papers.
"I have something to show you." He says his tone excited as he takes me into his castle by my hand. We head up to his office as he scatters the papers across his desk. I walk towards the desk slowly curious as my eyes land on several pictures of dress designs.
"I had some wolves design these for your ceremony today. Go through them and tell me which one you like. They are all ready to be worn you can even try them on. Personally, I liked this one, I thought-." Deimos stops as his eyes land on me.
Silence envelopes us as he stares at me and I look at the floor. Deimos walks towards me as I take a step back. His eyes watch my movement as he frowns.
"What's wrong, mate? I keep feeling something radiating from you for the past few weeks. I didn't want to disrupt your space so I didn't ask you anything. You need to talk to me as I cannot read your mind." Deimos says softly as my lips wobble.
"I-I don't want you to get upset with me or think I am weak." I say as I shiver softly. Deimos walks softly towards me placing his hands on my hip.
"Tell me." He whispers.
"I am scared Deimos." I tell him as he frowns.
"Scared of what? Has someone threatened you?" He questions me.
"No nothing of that sort. I feel it towards my crowning ceremony." Deimos tilts his head to the side.
"What is there to be scared of mate? I want you to be my Luna. The pack has been waiting so long for this. I don't understand." He says as I shake my head and move away from his touch. He's making it harder for me to say it. How can I put my feelings into my words?
As I take steps away from him, he pulls me back into his hold once more forcing me to look at him. "Don't move away from me, mate. Let me hold you to ease your fears." He says putting a strand behind my ear giving me time to open up to him.
"Deimos. I... I d-don't want to lose my Alpha title." I say it quickly looking at his chest rather than his eyes. I am scared of his reaction. I feel the shake of his hands upon my body.
"Are you saying you don't want to be my Luna?" Deimos whispers as his voice falters and I quickly clear his misunderstanding.
"No! I want to. Very much but imagine you had to lose your title and become.... someone else. The title and respect I possess I fought for it tooth and claw. I killed my own blood for the crown so I..." I fade away with my words as Deimos doesn't say another word.
Is he angry? I have gone and done it now haven't I? But I just needed to let him know. I know it's late to say this a few hours before the ceremony but I couldn't hide it anymore.
"Have you been holding all this within you for the past months? I understand, mate." Deimos says softly as my eyes snap to his. "What you must know is that you will always be an Alpha. The pack will respect you as such and so will I. Luna be just for namesake to please the council and if anyone treats you less than your worth, I will end them."
As Deimos calms the storm that was brewing within me, I smile my eyes filled with tears. "Thank you, my male." I say softly to him as he shakes his head.
"No. Thank you, my female." He says softly as I cry upon his chest. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted within my chest. I guess all I needed was his understanding.
After our conversation, I sat across Deimos's lap looking through the dress designs as he drowned himself in work. He wished to have a peaceful night with a free mind and heart.
As the sun set, the chatter and excitement grew. I am currently prisoned in my room where my females are preparing me for the ceremony while the pack is finalizing the decorations and the feast.
"Lavender or Rose?" Elriam asked me clutching two small bottles in her hand.
"What is that?" I ask her scrunching my nose in distaste to the smells emitting from the bottles.
"It's scented oil. We need to apply this to your body and hair." Elriam smiles at me teasingly. She knows my hatred towards cliché things for females. Back in my pack, our ceremony was way different from this. Deimos pack's traditions are very feminine.
I was going to say no but the excited stares from the females from Deimos's pack made me change my mind. "Of course. Rose please." I say closing my eyes tightly already knowing I will be regretting this.
After the females rubbed my skin and scalp raw with the oil, I sat dressed in my undergarments as they messed with my face and hair. Trying on different colors and accessories and removing them quickly when it didn't fit me.
My body shakes with utter irritation as I clench my mouth tightly shut not wanting to command them using my Alpha authority to stop. Elriam notices my inner war with myself as she chuckles and walks up to me.
"You will not be wearing shoes." She whispers the good news in my ears as my eyes snap to hers and she nods smirking.
I punch my hand up into the air with a huge smile as Elriam laughs and the females look at me confused. Finally, something for me to enjoy during the ceremony.
After a while as I begin dozing off to the soft touches of the females. Elriam softly nudges me and I look at her tiredly. "Please tell me the torture is over. I think I am going to cry." I whisper as she takes me by my hand towards the mirror.
My eyes widen when I look at myself head to toe. My hair is neatly rolled into a bun and my white sheer lace dress flowed down from my hips. My face looks very natural making me happy. I look.... ready.
"Alpha." Elriam calls out with tears streaming down her face. I move towards her but the sobs of all the females in the room stop me.
"We are so happy. This is the moment we have been waiting for. The time has finally come." My females say as they bow their heads to me.
Smiling I say, "Without your presence, I wouldn't have been able to do anything. Thank you for always being by my side." My females rush towards me as I greet them with my forehead on theirs.
"Alpha, it is time." Elriam calls out wiping her tears as I nod. As the full moon shines brightly in the dark sky, we walk towards the stage set up in the center of the pack land. As soon as we reach the spot the females cover my vision forming a circle around me holding candles in their hands with me in the middle of the circle and Elriam leading us.
The soft music begins to play and I cannot see anything. I can only hear the soft whispers of the wolves. The females lead me slowly towards the stage as I hear the music getting louder. Then the music stops suddenly and the females move away quickly as the spotlight falls on me.
I flinch and close my eyes reacting to the bright light. As I regain my vision my heart picks up its pace when I see Deimos on the stage. He stands proudly with a soft smile on his face. He lifts his hand palm towards me.
I bite my lip, picking up my dress I climb up the stairs and walk slowly towards him. As I reach him, I place my cold shaking hand in his large one. He clutches it tightly immediately spreading his warmth to me as he calms my nerves.
I look forward as the pack watches quietly. "Today is a special day for us, for my mother's crown has finally found its next rightful female. Tonight, shall be a joyous and peaceful occasion for us. The night we have all been waiting for." Deimos speaks his voice strong and loud as the pack listens and nods.
Deimos turns towards me. He places his hands on my shoulders softly pushing me to a kneeling position. I look up at him as he slits his hand open with a knife pouring his blood into a cup.
Looking at me straight into my eyes he asks me, "Do you pledge your faithfulness and loyalty to me and your pack?"
"Yes." I reply without hesitation.
"Do you promise to put the pack first. Even before your own needs?" He questions.
"Yes." I speak.
"Do you acknowledge me as your mate and Alpha?" He asks.
"Yes...always." I whisper softly as he smiles softly to my answer.
"Do you pledge to give your life to and for the pack?" He asks me his final question as I look towards the pack members.
"Yes." I reply smiling towards them as he lifts my palm quickly and slices it pouring my blood into the cup holding his blood.
Deimos picks up the crown and softly places in upon my head as my body shakes. The weight of it sparks a new feeling within me. He bends down to me and softly kisses my forehead. "You are worthy, my female. My Luna." He says as my lips wobble and tears brim my eyes. The words I have waited for finally left his lips.
As our blood mixes with each other within the cup Deimos it high into the air towards the moon and screams. "May the Goddess bless the birth of our Luna!" The growls of the males and the loud sobs of the females reach my ears.
As Deimos leads me down the stage, wolves on both my sides kneel and bow down with their foreheads touching the grass floor as Deimos lets out a loud deep growl that grew from deep within his belly to his chest. It pierces the air slicing through the pack lands.
As the moon blesses me with her light I look towards Deimos as his eyes scan the pack. Eyes black as the sky, fangs piercing his lip, fists clenched tightly with his chest puffed. The pride of an Alpha male. I look back towards my pack members as their happiness and excitement glowing within them creates a beautiful aura that engulfs me safely.
It has finally arrived. The beginning of a new era is here.