Chapter 38 CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
MAX’S POV
I paced around my office trying to wrap my head around the reasons why the Bloodmoon pack would come after my family and me.
The thought of my mother's lifeless body in my arms flashed back to me, reminding me of the day I lost my sister, a very dark moment for me.
“Fuckkk!” I growled, smashing the glass of scotch on the wall, allowing the shattered pieces to fall to the ground.
“You need to calm down, Max. We would get to the bottom of this, I promise you,” Raymond assured, as some maids rushed into my office to clean up the mess.
I took a seat opposite Raymond and looked at me, “My father died in their hands, after that they called in for a truce, I accepted. Only for them to kill my mother!” I yelled, making a fist. The need to punch someone was increasing every minute.
“We aren't sure it's from the bloodmoon pack, where the hell would their tyrant Alpha get Tafana from, he is too dumb to think of that” Raymond explained, looking through some documents.
I know his next target would be Zaria. I would never forgive myself if anything happened to her. She might hate me, but I had to do what was best for both of us. I am not the type of man she needs, even though I hate to admit it.
I continued pacing around the office, when I heard a knock on my door, I wanted to ignore it but it came again, louder this time.
“Who the fuck is it?” I snapped, and Zaria walked in, with a frown on her face.
“I know I'm the next in the bloodmoon’s target, but I need to see my best friend and you have no right to prevent me from seeing him” She snapped at me, folding her arms underneath her breast.
For the first time in my life, I was nervous in front of a woman. I looked to the floor, waiting to gather courage. She hates me right now, and I didn't want to add to her hatred for me.
“I am listening, Max!” she growled, glaring at me.
It was then I saw a scarf around her neck, she was covering the mark, it hurt to watch her cover it, cover the only connection we had, but I deserved it.
“I can't let you leave the palace, until the killer of my mother is found and apprehended, it's for your safety” I said coolly, with a hard gulp.
“I am sorry for your mother’s death, but I have to go and see Ethan” She said, turning to leave.
I grabbed her by the arms, and turned her to face me. She pushed my hands off and waited for my reply.
“Look…what happened in my mother’s place…”
“I don't care Max!” She snapped, not allowing me to complete my statement. “I just want to see Ethan”
“So Ethan was your backup to me huh?” I growled rudely, as my eyes searched hers.
“You know what Max?” she huffed. “I finally believed you”
“Believe what?” I asked, confused.
“I finally believe that you are a fuckkmg coward” she growled, and I clenched my jaw hard.
“I think I would leave your two” Raymond stood up, after sensing the tension.
Soon we were alone, I kept watching as she glared at me, reminding me of how much of a coward I was.
“You are too scared to love me, and I deserve someone better” She shrugged.
I listened with a heavy chest.
“I need someone who knows I am worth the fucking risk!” She yelled, pushing me to the wall.
I didn't react or retaliate. “That isn't fair” I whispered with my head bowed.
“No” she shook her head. “What isn't fair is that I let you in but you make me a laughing stock in front of everyone”
“So Ethan is the one you love?” I huffed, staring at her, wishing she could see my heart, how I'm helpless with her.
“This isn't about Ethan!” She cried. “It's about you being an asshole and I'm tired of having it” She yelled before leaving my office. Banging the door behind her.
I watched her leave with a tight chest. When the door closed, the wall began to close with me in it.
I poured myself another glass of scotch and began to sip it as I stared outside the window.
“Seems you and Zaria are having another lovers’ quarrel” Raymond teased as he walked back into the office without knocking.
I didn't respond, he would have heard the rumours of how I treated her badly this morning, but chose not to believe it.
“Don't tell me that the rumours of you treating her like some whore were true” He growled, when I didn't give him any reply, he took that as a confirmation.
“You are a fucking piece of shit, you know that right?” He added, snatching the glass of scotch in my hand and dumping it on the table.
“Come on! We were never going to work. I just put an end to it before we get too involved” I rolled my eyes. “She deserves someone better, not someone who is always in grief. I don't want to drag her with me in my grief besides she is exposed to more danger if the enemies find out about how I feel for her”
I don't want Zaria to be my weakness, the enemies would easily get to me if she were. I have to do what's best for her and the pack.
“Is that what you are telling yourself?” Raymond huffed.
I stayed silent and stayed outside the windows, watching Zaria’s carriage leave. She was going to meet Ethan, it may hurt but she deserves it and if Ethan is who she wants,I won't stop her.
“Dude, you undeniably love this girl and you would let her go all because of what?” He snapped at me.
“It's for the best Raymond!” I growled.
“Well, I love to see you mess up your life and become an alcoholic Alpha, just like the tyrant Alpha of bloodmoon pack” He scoffed and my eyes rose to meet him. “At least, you two would have something in common.”
“Watch your tone, Raymond,” I warned and he just rolled his eyes at me.
“The killer of your mother has been found, we need to drill him to give us information about who the mastermind is” He said, and walked out of the office.
“It's about fucking time” I growled and walked behind Raymond, ready to murder the criminal.