Chapter 49 THREE WEEKS AND COUNTING
Three weeks before the ceremony, Ironfang had its first proper snowfall.
Not the frost that had been sitting on the training grounds every morning for weeks. Actual snow, real snow, the kind that arrived overnight with genuine commitment and covered everything by morning in the particular silence that only snow produced. The kind of silence that had weight to it, that pressed down on the ordinary noise of things and replaced it with something cleaner and more absolute.
I woke up to it.
The quality of the light through the cracked window was different, brighter than it should have been for early morning, the flat reflective brightness of snow light, the specific way it bounced off white ground and came back into a room with more intensity than it left with. I lay there for a moment just noticing it before I was fully awake enough to understand what it was.
Then I understood.
I got up and looked out the window.
The training grounds were white. The south wall path was white. The forest beyond was white at its edges where the snow had settled on the branches and the tree line looked like something from a different world entirely. Softer, less definite, the permanent dark mass of it gentled by the overnight transformation.
Ironfang under snow looked ancient in a way it didn’t usually look ancient.
Not the academic kind of ancient, the older kind. The kind that predated the academy, that the stone and the forest remembered even if the building itself didn’t. The kind that had nothing to do with wolf hierarchy or pack standing or the careful social architecture of several hundred young wolves learning to navigate each other.
Just old. Just cold. Just the world doing what it had always done.
I stood at the window for a long time.
Ivana said from her bed, eyes still closed “Snow.”
“Snow,” I confirmed.
“How much?”
“Significant.”
She opened one eye, looked at the window and closed it again.
“Kael is going to be on the south wall path anyway,” she said. “He doesn’t notice weather.”
“He notices weather,” I said. “He just doesn’t let it affect his decisions.”
“Same thing,” she said.
It wasn’t the same thing but I didn’t argue because Ivana at six forty five in the morning had not yet reached full operational capacity and arguing with a partial Ivana was never satisfying.
He was on the south wall path.
Standing with his back against the wall in the falling snow, it was still coming down, light and steady, the kind of snowfall that had decided it was going to last the day. With his coat dark against the white of the ground and his face turned toward the forest and his breath visible in the cold air.
He looked completely unbothered by the snow.
He looked completely at home in it.
I came around the corner and he turned when he heard my footsteps crunching on the fresh surface and looked at me with those gold eyes doing their immediate specific thing. Finding me first, then the rest of the world.
“You’re early,” he said.
“You’re earlier,” I said.
“I like snow,” he said simply like it was information I should have.
I looked at him standing in the snowfall with the forest behind him and the academy above and everything white around him and thought I’m in love with this person. Not as a revelation but as a Tuesday morning fact. The most extraordinary thing.
I walked to where he was standing.
He opened his coat without being asked and I went in against his side and he closed it around both of us and his arm came around my shoulders and we stood in the snow together in the warmth of two people who had figured out how to keep each other warm in cold places.
“Three weeks,” I said into his shoulder.
“Three weeks,” he said into my hair.
We stood there for a while just in it. The snow and the cold and the white training ground and the forest and the quality of an early morning that had no urgency in it, that was simply itself, that asked nothing.
“My father called last night,” I said. “After you left.”
“I know,” he said. “He called mine after. They talked for an hour.”
I pulled back enough to look at him. “About what?”
Something moved in his expression. The warm complicated thing.
“Us,” he said simply.
I stared at him.
“Our fathers discussed us,” I said.
“Our fathers have been discussing us since the farmhouse,” he said. “Possibly before that. My father had theories from the moment he understood who you were. He’s been insufferably pleased about those theories being correct.”
I thought about Dorian and his eleven questions and the amber eyes and the I like her said directly to Kael like I wasn’t sitting right there.
“What did they say?” I said.
Kael looked at me for a moment.
“My father said he thought the Ashvorne and Von packs had been moving toward each other for longer than either of us had been alive,” he said carefully. “He said some alliances are chosen and some are inevitable. That the right families find each other eventually regardless of what gets in the way. He said he was glad the right thing had gotten in the way of this one long enough for both of us to be born before it concluded.”
I held his gaze.
“That’s Dorian’s version of romantic,” I said.
“It really is,” Kael agreed. “My father expresses sentiment through historical inevitability. It’s his particular idiom.”
“And my father’s version?”
Something warmer moved through Kael’s expression.
“Your father,” he said, “said he was grateful. That’s the whole thing just that. He said he was grateful. My father said he understood.”
I held that for a long moment.
Grateful. The way my father said the things that were too large for ornamentation, he compressed them down to their essential single word and trusted the word to carry everything.
It did.
It always did.
“They’re going to be impossible at the ceremony,” I said quietly.
“Comprehensively,” Kael agreed. “Dorian is already planning the seating arrangement. He mentioned it twice in the past week.”
“Dorian is planning the seating arrangement for my father’s reinstatement ceremony.”
“He says your father won’t think about it and someone has to. He’s not wrong. Your father’s approach to logistics is to assume they will resolve themselves.”
“Does that work?” I said.
“It works when Dorian is nearby,” Kael said. “Which has been the case for eleven years so your father has never been required to update the assumption.”
I pressed my face into his shoulder and laughed.
Into his coat, quiet and warm, the specific laugh that arrived when something was genuinely funny and also somehow deeply right. The combination of those two things that only happened around people you were entirely comfortable with.
His arm tightened.
His lips pressed to the top of my head.
We stood in the snow.
Pack law that morning had a different quality.
Professor Aldric was covering succession rites, the ceremonies and procedures that attended transitions of Alpha standing, the formal requirements of recognition, the role of the pack council in ratifying a new or restored leader. He taught it with his usual dry precision and I sat in my third row seat and took notes with the particular focused attention of someone who understood they were not taking these notes for an exam.
I was taking them for a ceremony in three weeks.
Sera was two rows ahead in her usual spot.
She glanced back at me twice during the session. Not the social glance of checking in, the specific assessing look of someone who had noticed that the person behind them was paying a different kind of attention than usual and was filing the observation.
After class she waited at the door.
“You were somewhere specific during the succession rites section,” she said.
“I was here,” I said.
“You were here and somewhere else simultaneously,” she said. “The specific somewhere else of someone who is connecting material to personal application.” She fell into step beside me. “The ceremony.”
“The ceremony,” I confirmed.
She was quiet for a moment, the considering kind, the kind where something was assembling in her head with the systematic efficiency she brought to everything she thought about carefully.
“Your father is going to need to address the pack before the formal rites begin,” she said. “Not the council, the pack. The people who have been living under Caden’s authority for twelve years. Some of them chose that, some had no choice, but all of them need to understand what his restoration means before the formal proceedings give it official weight. The address is where that happens.”
I looked at her.
“He knows that,” I said. “He’s been thinking about it for twelve years.”
“I know,” she said. “I’m not saying it for him. I’m saying it for you.” She held my gaze with those silver grey eyes. “You’re going to be standing beside him when he gives that address. The pack is going to look at you as much as they look at him. They’re going to be deciding what heir apparent means. What you mean while he speaks. You don’t have to say anything. You just have to be completely present. Not managed present but actually present.”
I held her gaze.
“Like the rooms,” I said.
“Like the rooms,” she confirmed. “You’ve been doing it here without thinking about it. At Ironfang. You walk in and the room changes. You’re going to need to do it consciously in front of people who have spent twelve years being taught that the Von bloodline is something to be ashamed of. Let them see what it actually is.”
I thought about the practice room.
The gold light spreading to the walls.
The warm ancient thing that had been locked down for eight years and was now simply present. Breathing. Available.
“I can do that,” I said.
Sera looked at me steadily.
“I know,” she said simply. Like it had never been in question.
My father came to Ironfang that afternoon.
Not officially as he wasn’t a registered visitor, wasn’t on any formal schedule. He came the way significant people in my life had learned to come to me, through the gate that Kael knew how to open and the path along the south wall that had no particular monitoring and the purposeful casualness of someone who had somewhere legitimate to be.
I met him in the north courtyard.
Sera’s courtyard, empty on a snowy Tuesday afternoon, the low stone walls bearing their white covering with the patient quality of things that had borne much more significant coverings over the years and were unimpressed.
He was standing when I came through the entrance.
Looking at the sky above the courtyard, the same grey white of the snowy morning, the cloud cover still present, the light flat and even and cold. He turned when he heard me and his face did the thing and I felt the thing it always made me feel. The warmth of being someone’s first look in a room. Of mattering to someone’s eyes before anything else in the space did.
I was still getting used to it.
I thought I might spend a long time getting used to it and that this was completely fine.
“You came,” I said.
“I had something to give you,” he said. He reached inside his coat and produced an envelope, smaller than Lyra’s letter, thicker, the kind of envelope that contained more than one document. He held it out.
I took it.
It had the Von pack seal on the front.
“Open it here,” he said. “I want to see your face.”
I opened it.
Inside were two documents.
The first was a formal council certificate, the kind that came on official letterhead with multiple signatures and the dense language of institutional record keeping. I read it once and then read it again because the first reading hadn’t fully landed.
Formal recognition of Ariana Von as heir apparent to the Alpha standing of the Von pack. Certified by the Alpha council of the werewolf governing body. Effective the date of the formal reinstatement ceremony.
Official.
On record.
My name in institutional language with the full weight of the council’s authority behind it.
I looked at the second document.
This one was handwritten.
My father’s handwriting, the slightly uneven quality of someone who had been out of practice and was finding the muscle memory returning imperfectly but genuinely.
It was short.
Ariana, this is yours. It has always been yours. I am simply the person who gets to tell you that officially now. Everything I have spent twelve years trying to get back, I got back so I could give it forward to you. I can think of nothing better to do with a restored name than put it in the hands of the person who deserves it most. Your father, Marcus.
I stood in the snow covered north courtyard and held both documents and felt the warmth in my chest press outward against every surface it could reach.
My father was watching my face.
I looked up at him.
“You’re giving me the pack,” I said quietly.
“I’m giving you the future of it,” he said. “There’s a difference. The present is still mine to manage, there’s a great deal of work to do in the present. But the future…” he held my gaze. “The future has always had your name on it. I’m just making the paperwork match.”
I looked at him for a long moment.
At the grey in his hair and the scar on his hand and the jaw that was the same as mine and the twelve years of hiding in the lines of his face alongside the twelve years of thinking about me every day.
“The eggs were exceptional this morning,” I said.
He blinked.
Then something happened to his expression, the surprise of it, the complete genuine surprise of someone who had been prepared for a significant moment and had received something entirely different, followed immediately by the warmth of it, the warmth of understanding exactly why his daughter had said that and loving her for it completely.
He laughed.
Real and warm and sudden, the specific laugh that arrived without planning, the one I had been collecting since the farmhouse kitchen.
I folded the documents carefully and put them inside my coat against my chest.
Beside Lyra’s letter where it lived.
The two of them together now.
Her words and his.
Both of them saying the same thing in different languages.
Yours. Always yours.
“Walk with me,” I said.
He fell into step beside me.
We walked the north courtyard in the snow, the low stone walls white around us and our breath visible in the cold air and the academy above doing what it always did and I told him about Sera’s observation about the address and the pack and being present rather than managed present and he listened with the full attention of someone who was also learning how to listen to his daughter and was finding that the learning was one of the best things he had done in a long time.
“She’s perceptive,” he said. About Sera.
“Comprehensively,” I agreed.
“I’d like to meet her properly,” he said. “Before the ceremony.”
“I’ll arrange it,” I said.
He looked at me sideways. Something in his expression, the pride again, present and not trying to be smaller.
“You arrange things now?” he said.
“I’ve been arranging things for six weeks,” I said.
“I know,” he said. “I’m still getting used to it. I spent twelve years imagining who you were and I got most of it right but I didn’t imagine the specific quality of how you move through situations. The particular way you assess and then act. It’s more than I imagined. It’s better.”
I held his gaze.
“The eggs,” I said again.
He laughed again.
The same laugh. The real one.
I stored it alongside all the others.
Kael was on the south wall path when I came around the corner at four.
He looked up from whatever he had been looking at and his eyes found mine immediately and whatever he saw in my face made him straighten slightly not with alarm, with attention. The specific attention of someone who has learned to read a face they care about.
I walked to him out the documents without preamble.
He read them.
Both of them.
Set them carefully back in my hands.
Looked at me.
“He put it in writing,” Kael said.
“Yes, he put it in writing.” I confirmed.
He was quiet for a moment.
The gold eyes warm and steady and doing the complicated thing and the uncomplicated thing simultaneously, the tactical mind processing the implications and the person who loved me receiving the significance of it and neither of those things canceling the other out.
“Ariana Von,” he said quietly. “Heir apparent. Formally. On record. In three weeks, in front of your pack.”
“In three weeks,” I said.
He held my gaze for a long moment.
Then he cupped my jaw in both hands, the full version, both hands, the deliberate gesture of someone who has decided that something requires their complete attention and is giving it and kissed me in the snow.
Properly.
The way he had kissed me in room 307 with the lamp on and my mother’s dress.
Long and warm and certain and carrying everything, the three weeks and the ceremony and heir apparent and Marcus’s handwriting and Lyra’s letter pressed against my chest and the south wall path and the gold light and all of it, all of it, assembled into a single moment on a snowy Tuesday afternoon on a path that had held more of our significant things than anywhere else.
When he pulled back he stayed close.
Foreheads together.
Snow settling on both of us, completely indifferent.
“I love you,” he said quietly. “In case the morning one didn’t cover the afternoon.”
I smiled, into the small space between us.
“It covered it,” I said. “This is just additional.”
“Additional is good,” he said.
“Additional is very good,” I agreed.
He kissed me once more, brief and warm, the punctuation kind, the one that meant I’m here and I’m staying.
Then he put his arm around me and I leaned into him and we stood on the south wall path in the snow with three weeks on the clock and the formal documents in my coat against my chest beside my mother’s letter and the warmth in my chest doing its full edgeless enormous thing.
The quiet things kept growing.
The snow kept falling.
Everything was exactly what it was supposed to be.