Chapter 48: Today will be an hell of a day

My eyes slowly open. It was morning already. My face frowns, hating it was. I was not ready for today. I was nowhere ready to handle what will be happening.

I remain to lay on the bed. I didn't want to get up. I turn onto my side not wanting to see the bright morning sunlight, seeing it was reminding me that I had to get up and get ready for work soon. It was giving me a really bad mood.

It was quite foolish being upset with the sunlight but having a day like mine, who wouldn't. I was in a tight spot today. A very tight spot that I can't seem to find my way to get out of.

I heard a gentle knock on my door. Immediately I covered my head with my pillow knowing who it was. I pretend as if I was sleeping while I waited to hear my mom's footsteps leading from my bedroom door.

Again, she knocks on the door, and again I didn't answer.

"Nala," she begins to call me softly.

I closed my eyes and squeezed the pillow hard against my head, trying hard to block away every sound that came from her. Her voice and knowing that she was at my door had started to haunt me knowing what she wanted. She was here for an answer. A decision of here's she wanted me to make but I couldn't now. I had to see if the alpha agreed with my change in his agreement.

I throw the pillow from my head allowing it to fall against the floor behind me. My body had started to feel like I was carrying a heavy load. I too was becoming miserable, and breathing was becoming heavy for me.

"Nala are you awake," my mom continues to call me while she gentle hit my door.

I sat up and drop my face within the palms of my hand and started to cry. My day hasn't started yet, and I was having a hard time already.

I heard my mom walks away from my door. I moved my hands from my face. My hands and face were wet by my tears. I sat in the middle of the bed for minutes in silence until it was time for me to get ready for work.

I got into the bathroom and took a shower. I got out of the shower wrapped in a white towel and went before the mirror to brush my teeth. I stare at my reflection. I hated seeing my reflection within the mirror of sad I was. Tears fill my eyes seeing the sadness against my face. It was hard not to look at myself and not cry.

My long brown hair was a mess. Seeing it, it pains me how long it will take me to get it into a ponytail. I decided not to and to just brush it down letting it loose. I wasn't in any mood to dress all perfect for today anyways. I brush my teeth and get out of the bathroom right away.

As I return to the room. I begin to search for something to wear to work. Clothes that were easy to get in. I found a simple red dress with a zip at the back. It looks formal and wasn't too much. It suits my mood. I put on my underwear and bra before putting on the dress. I then pull down the zip and went into the dress.

The dress lied on my body showing every curve of my body. It was like my second skin. My second red skin. It wasn't tight nor did it feel uncomfortable. It felt quite easy to move around in. I went over to the large standing mirror within my room and stood staring at my reflection. I loved the dress, it too helps me to appear as if I had nothing worrying about like my life was completely perfect, which was not at all. I was in a hard place than the wolf who lives in the street, having no home. They had a choice, but it seems like I didn't, at all.

The dress was unzipped, and I couldn't do it on my own. I had to call my mom. A bad feeling runs through my entire body knowing what she will say to me the moment I call her inside my room. I decided to wait and ask her when I was going straight from the house. I begin on my hair by brushing it down. My beautiful curly hair lays on each side of my shoulder. It brightens the beauty of my face that made me begin to think if I was overdressed for work. I was starting to think that my dress and hair were just too much. I didn't want Mr. Bates to think I was seeking attention, for the way I look now says, yes Mr. Bates I accept your agreement now take me. I wasn't looking for that. I slowly turn my head, staring at the closet where my other clothes were. The thought of undressing and searching for other working clothes drains any energy I had for today and so I decided to go to work this way. I was not going to let the way I attired bother me. I have bigger fish to fry.

I went over to the bed to put on my red heels and grab my handbag leaving the room. I slowly open the door first checking to see if Dr. Charles was there. I didn't want him to see my bra from behind and my naked back.

There was no trace of him. I immediately got out and walked sideways across the room like a crab with my back turn to the wall, hiding my back if I should ever meet upon, Dr. Charles.

"Mom," I call as I stop at the side of her bedroom door.

Immediately, she opens the door. It's like she was waiting on me to call her all along.

"Please zip me up quickly," I told her swiftly.

She exits her room immediately and zips me up.

"You look beautiful," my mom told me as she finishes zipping my dress and tap me gently against my back.

My eyes close and reopen feeling irritated by her now. I didn't want to deal with her right now.

As she helps me with my dress I walk away from her heading to the stairs.

"Nala," she chases behind me, stopping me.

I stood still not turning to look at her.

"Did you think about what I asked you last night?" she asked me. The question I have been trying to ignore within my room.

I closed my eyes preventing myself from becoming angry and yelling at her.

What is happening to you is not her fault, I spoke to myself within my mind, calming myself down.

"I'll tell you when I get home," I told her quickly as I open my eyes that the sentences that came from my mouth sounded like one big word.

"Okay," she answers me softly. Within her voice, I could hear disappointment.

I started on my way heading downstairs.

I begin to hate how I was treating her from morning. I stop at the last step and turn to face her.

She was still where I left her at the first step upstairs as if she was glued to it. She stares at me sadly.

"I love you mom," I told her.

She smiles at me. I then begin on my way heading to the front door to leave the house.

"Aren't you going to eat something before you leave?" I heard my mom.

I raise my right hand allowing her that I wasn't hungry and open the door leaving the house.

I close the door behind me and stop for a minute taking a deep breath before I head to the alpha's home.

"Today is going to be a hell of a day," I said as I started on my way along the road to the alpha's.