Chapter 37

Trinity

I couldn’t help it. I loved him. There was no escaping that fact anymore. I couldn’t even explain how much or why; just that I did. I pulled back to look up at him. There was something in his eyes that I couldn’t place, like a little flicker of knowledge that might mean the end of me. I shivered at the thought. The dream flashed behind my eyes.

He nipped my lip.

“It will be too dark to remain out here soon.”

I nodded. “We should…”

Go? Stay? I wasn’t even sure what I wanted to say anymore, but I knew that I didn’t want to be apart from him. Not now when everything was changing.

Not when everything had changed.

“Stay the night with me,” he said against my lips.

The heat in his voice and the desire in his eyes made my legs weak. I worried my lip. I wanted to hesitate, maybe to slow down, but I had lost so much already.

I had hesitated before, so I shouldn’t hesitate now. He led me back to the shore, and we gathered our things. My heart was still racing as I followed him back to the car. We went to a hotel nearby. I was a little overwhelmed with the thought of what was going to happen, but I didn’t want to turn back.

He opened the door to the room.

It was beautiful and it looked more expensive than anything I could hope to afford on my own, like a palace for just us. I bit my lip, considering telling him that I had changed my mind. None of this was making sense. I had never rushed into sex like this before.

Yes, he was more handsome, more alluring than any man I’d ever been with, but there was also an air of danger around him. We were moving so fast. Maybe I was just being desperate and indecisive, but there was something about him that made me want to run ahead and dig my heels in all at the same time.

“Lucian, I…”

Lucian turned me swiftly and pressed me up against the wall. It was almost animalistic.

“Lucian…”

I gasped as he ripped my top off. The sound of ripping fabric made the edges of my world waver. There was darkness and screaming. It was a memory trying to come to the forefront, but I pushed it away, giving into the rush of excitement at how much he seemed to want me.

How desperate was he to have me? I wanted to give him anything he wanted.

I loved him. I trusted him. I wanted this.

I felt the air across my bare body. I felt myself tensing before I felt him pressed up against me. I was dizzy.

I felt my memories and senses swirling around, tumbling with the pleasure and the feverish heat, like in my dream but so much more intense. My heart was racing, but I clung to him. I heard myself gasping. I heard my voice crying out for more, but I was drowning in darkness and a hazy sense of time and space.

I couldn’t see Lucian’s face. I couldn’t see anything for a long time.

When the pleasure washed over me, it pulled me out of deep thought. I didn’t know what to think.

When the haze faded, I saw him. He had my arms pinned above my head as he ravaged my body with soft bites. The mark on my shoulder was burning as electricity ran through my body down to my core. My head tilted back as I moaned his name.

“Lucian”

Moaning his name caught his attention. He paused and stared into my eyes. I wasn’t sure if it was the light in the room, but they were blood red with amber and gold flakes. Heat radiated from his gaze, and it sent pleasure down my body.

Picking me up he walked us over to the bed before throwing me back. My naked body was on display for him and he looked at me like I was a delicious meal that he was about to devour. It didn’t take long for him to undress. He leaned on the bed, prowling toward me and growling with anticipation of pleasure.

He was stronger than I imagined. Grabbing my breasts before devouring them in his mouth. Moving to the mark on my shoulder and nibbling at it. Unsure of why that spot pushed me toward an orgasm, but I begged him to do it again.

Squaring up between my legs I saw his large erection hanging toward me. All I could do was stare. It was the largest I had ever seen and I wondered how much it would hurt. A whimper of pleasure escaped my lips causing him to smirk.

He grabbed my thighs with force and pulled me onto him. Aiming for my core and he slid right in. Hitting me deeply. Making my legs shake, my eyes roll back, and causing me to scream out in pure ecstasy. Consensually, he forced himself into me over and over.

Hitting all of the spots to provoke an orgasm from me. He knew his way around pleasuring a woman, his late wife was a lucky woman. Leaving no spot of my body untouched as he worked his way around different positions. Moving me like I were a doll, but I was willing to take it all.

He grunted and thrust into me, knocking me back into the haze of a dream I couldn’t remember or a memory that my mind didn’t want to remember. Yet, I heard myself calling for him. I heard my voice growing softer and more desperate as the pleasure pushed me farther and farther out of consciousness.

All I could do was hold on and let him have me as he wanted.

And somewhere in the back of my mind, I felt so at peace with that.

I woke up in bed alone. The bed was still warm beside me. I wasn’t in pain, but I was a bit sore. My face burned. How long had we had sex? I didn’t know, and I couldn’t even begin to guess. It was light out now.

He sat on the side of the bed, coming in from the balcony and gazing at me.

“You’ll need new clothes.”

I blinked and turned my head towards the floor, where my clothes from the night before were scattered in pieces on the floor. I pulled the blankets up over my chest, feeling oddly shy. I couldn’t remember most of last night. My mind had simply retreated. Had it been good for him? I wanted to ask, but I was too embarrassed.

“O-Okay.”

He offered me a pajama set. “Get dressed, and we’ll go.”

I nodded and got dressed before following him out and downstairs. The driver opened the door for us. I climbed in, and we headed to the shopping mall.

“Pull over here,” Lucian said.

The car pulled over, and he lowered the partition. “Leave us for a moment. I will call when you should return.”

The door opened and closed as the driver left. He turned back to me, dragging his gaze over me. My face heated.

“Lucian?”

He pulled me close and pushed me down until I was laying on the seat, pulling off my shirt.

“But people are outside.”

“The windows are too dark.”

He hit the door’s lock and pulled the pajama pants off. My heart was racing. It was exciting and a little crazy. I saw people walking past the window and tensed. He pushed into me with one smooth thrust that was almost too much. I trembled as he started to thrust into me, holding my hips and thrusting wildly.

“Oh, Lucian” I moaned.

As if last night weren’t enough, he was hungry for my body. He was kneeling on the floor and used his large hands to hold my butt off of the bench seat. I leaned forward to unbutton his shirt, his pants pulled down slightly to allow him to thrust into me.

His body glistened in the light coming in the window. Each of his muscles tensed with each thrust. I wasn’t able to see how toned his body was last night. The light created a ripple of shadows down the front of his body. His arms were larger than my legs and his hand could almost grip my whole thigh.

The grip he had on my hips was firm as he pulled my body toward him as he thrust forward into me. I wanted to scream his name, but I was scared to get caught by someone passing by. The look on his face while he pleasured me was full of possession. He was owning my body and he knew it.

His thrusting increased and became more intense as if he were in a race to see how many times he could make me orgasm before he did.

Was the car rocking? I wasn’t sure. People didn’t stop to look at the car, they didn’t seem to notice, but I saw them all and I couldn’t stop tensing every time they went past.

Lucian didn’t seem to care that, at any time, someone could call the police on us.

It seemed that I had come so many times before he finally went still and shuddered through his orgasm.

I panted as he pulled out of me, and pulled my pajamas back up.

He opened the car door, and I squeaked, ducking away from the light. He climbed out and pulled me out. I glanced around nervously as he took me to the nearest store for clothing. He bought at least a week’s worth of clothing for me before we got back to the car.

By then, the driver had returned and was as silent as ever. He drove us back to the hotel. I thought we would check out, but he dropped the bags just inside the door and started to pull off my clothes.

“Lucian, I… I love you so much.”

He threw me on the bed, kissing me deeply. He might not say it. He might not be ready to say it, but I had to make him understand. I wanted him to know how much I loved him with everything I had.

We had sex for most of the rest of the day. He ordered room service when I was hungry, but it was just a break in between rounds of sex. I was amazed and overwhelmed by how much he wanted me and how much I wanted him. I felt dizzy with it.

On the fourth day, my phone chimed with a text from my dad asking when I was coming home and if I was okay.

“Today,” I said.

I wanted to protest, but I didn’t want my dad to worry. I texted him back and got dressed in something Lucian had bought me. We ate and drove back to Mark’s house.

He walked me to the door and lingered there with a gentle hand on my face.

“Get some rest,” he said.

“I love you,” I said. His lips twitched, and he pressed a kiss to my lips.

He pulled away and returned to the car as I went inside. My dad smiled, waving from the couch.

“Had a good trip?”

I nodded. “I’m a bit tired, though. Do you need anything?”

He shook his head. I kissed his cheek and headed up to my room. I put everything away and took a shower before crawling into bed. I had a lot of bruises from Lucian’s grip and marks on my skin. I felt possessed. I felt owned, and my heart was full of love.

I climbed into bed and relaxed. Soon, I was plunged into darkness. I was running through a dark forest. My body hurt. My eyes burned. someone was laughing, chasing me. I didn’t know what it was, but I knew I had to get away. Red light pooled in random pockets around me, but I didn’t seem to be going anywhere.

Then, I saw Lucian. His burning gold and red eyes looked at me and I ran to him. I felt so safe even as the darkness wrapped around us. I lost sense of where we were and what time it was.

I passed the rest of the night in a peaceful dream.