Chapter 20 (1041)
ALEXA'S POV
Sometimes, I wonder where on earth Nolan found the nerve to insult everyone who didn't do anything wrong with him. And the fact he
does it when people aren't trying to pick a fight with him, it makes me mad.
He's a jerk to everybody, except his father. I can't deny I've thought about going up to him and punching him in the face. But it never seemed appropriate in public especially when everyone was staring at me and waiting on me to say something.
I lay in bed trying to push aside the event, taking my phone out of the drawer again to chat up with Jade.
"heyyyy! i'm back!!! im sorry i haven't been answering your messages, i haven't been well recently :(" I read to myself before replying.
"What happened? :o" I giggled at my silly emoji before sending.
"nothing much just had my first serious fight with David... Wish you were here so we could make fun about it :((( ."
"what?! :O i feel so bad :( " My heart hurts just hearing her cry.
"no no it's fine, trust me, I'll survive :) "
"i miss you so much, i can't wait to see you and talk to you..." I said, letting out a breath of relief after reading my message.
"Miss me?" Jade questions.
"Yes, you know I love talking to you. How is your day?" I replied as I let out another sigh, my heart hurting once more at hearing her pain.
"it's been pretty slow... But hey, I'm glad you texted me!" Her words make me smile as she continues to talk.
"Btw, Cody has been nagging about you not giving him attention.. He has been making assumptions out of paranoia recently," I sighed as I read through her message before replying.
"I hope nothing serious happened between you two... Just tell him how you feel," she replies, sounding concerned.
I chuckled at her words, telling Cody how I feel about his temper around me is a big red flag and a general death wish on my behalf.
"So... What else have you been doing with yourself besides eating and sleeping? Anybody interesting you met yet?" She asks, wanting to know about my life outside of working with the employees, but also wanting to know about mine.
I laughed and told her stories about me meeting new people. She was interested in everything I tell her about myself until I mention Nolan.
"Nolan? Is he single?" She chuckles as she waits for my answer.
"Why do you care about him anyways?" I questioned, not really sure why she would ask me about him.
"Just curious. I don't know, he's kind of handsome, I wouldn't mind getting to know him better," she giggled, obviously trying to convince herself she doesn't have a crush on the guy.
I shook my head at her words, I don't get how someone could act that weirdly towards a guy they just met a few days ago.
"Are you sure? You've only known him for less than 24 hours and you already know about him acting all weird towards me, he doesn't seem like the kind of guy to be interested in other girls."
"Well, then let him be jealous. I want you to be happy," she said, trying to persuade me into talking to Nolan and having a conversation with him.
"How long are you working till your dayoff?" I asked her changing the subject, she knows how sensitive I am about Nolan being close to my friends.
"Well, I think I'm going to spend more time here, maybe stay longer..." She replied, clearly disappointed about not seeing me as often as she would like.
" Hey, Alexa, you know you really shouldn't stick around with someone like Cody," Her message had me think for a moment.
Cody wasn't the nicest person to be around with, even the least person to be chosen to love. But, I chose to love him despite that fact. I was willing to endure all the bullying, harassment and harshness. Because deep down, I knew I wanted him to be there for me. I wanted him to love me and be there for me the same way I did for him.
"But I like him..." I texted back and sighing under my breath.
"What was that?" She asked, I shook my head at her response, not wanting to ruin our good mood.
Shutting my phone off, I felt it vibrate on the bed notifying me Jade's text messages. I knew there will be a moment where someone would try to convince me to leave him, Jade has watched me several nights removing bloodstains off my own shirt after he would get in a bad mood. Whenever I had gone off my shift, Jade would make sure Cody would trust her enough to let her walk with me… he would rather have me walk home than to have my other co-workers escort me. His excuses for not picking me up were all the same thing, waking up late, his back hurts, or even the same 'I have a hangover". It just sucks having to endure being by his side and having to apologize in order to get on his good side.
Laying on my back, I stared up onto the ceiling thinking to myself why I cant take up the courage to leave. The reason is simple enough: I'm too afraid to be alone. And if I do get the courage to walk away, who knows what Cody might do in order to have me back by his side. The fear only consumes me every night, yet I still love him despite of it. Do I really love him?
Spending almost all my life with him in and after getting out of the orphanage, I feel like I wouldn't be able to find anyone to know me so deeply like Cody does. But does that measure it? The length of being together?
As I felt messages seizing, I reached over to pick it up until I hear my bedroom door crack open. I spot someone peering their head and realized it was Nolan.
"What the hell are you doing?"