Chapter 156 156
Two days have passed, but for me, it feels like a year has gone by... Time runs slowly when you're grieving, when you're suffering, when you're having a hard time... It feels like time enjoys seeing me suffer like hell.
"Crescent, are you sure you're okay now?" Aiden asked, worried.
"I'll take care of her, Aiden. Staying here would only make things worse for her," Ivana answered for me.
The two of them talked more, but I didn't understand any of it. I just held my stomach, still hoping that my baby would come back to me, even though it's impossible.
"C-Crescent."
Ivana and I were stunned when Luca appeared in front of us as we were leaving the room. He clearly hadn't had any rest or sleep. He also stayed here for two days, but I don't care. I just pushed him away every time he tried to talk to me... He looks pitiful, but I feel nothing. He deserves it... It's not even enough for what happened to my child.
I just pulled Ivana away from him. Ivana and I quickly left the hospital; we felt Luca still following us, but I didn't mind it... I don't care about him anymore.
"That's right, Cres. Just forget about that asshole. You deserve so much better... Please prioritize yourself now," Ivana said when we finally got inside her car.
I was still quiet until we got home. I just stared at the floor while sitting on the bed. Ivana just sighed and sat beside me, then put her arm around my shoulder.
"Ivana."
Ivana looked at me. "Hmm? Do you need something? Just tell me."
"I-I want something to eat... C-Can you buy some food?" I asked in a low voice and looked at her.
"Of course! What do you want me to buy for you?"
"Anything," I just answered and gave her a small smile.
Ivana immediately stood up. "Okay, wait for me, hmm? I'll be quick," she said before finally going out of the room.
When I made sure she was gone, I immediately stood up and got the big bag from under the bed. It was all dusty, but I don't care anymore. I immediately took my clothes from my drawer and some of my important things and put it all in my bag. After I finished packing, I immediately went out of the room, but I was stunned when I saw Luca there. His eyes went down to the bag I was holding.
"C-Crescent... Are you leaving?"
I didn't mind him and just walked past him. I was about to go out, but he immediately held my arm to stop me.
"C-Crescent, please talk to me first--"
"What else do we have to talk about, Luca?! Will something happen if we talk? If we fix things... Will that bring my child back?! Huh?! Tell me, Luca! Will anything change?!" I snapped and pushed his chest with all my strength.
Luca looked at me again with those pleading eyes. "I-I'm sorry, Crescent... b-but please, let me do something for what I did... A-Anything, I'll do it, p-please... L-Let's not end it like this."
"Give me back my child," I said firmly. "Can you bring my child back to me? Huh?! Can you bring him back?!"
He fell silent from what I said and looked away. "C-Crescent."
"N-No matter what you do! Even if you kneel, cry tears of blood, even if you die right now, I don't care because that won't bring my child back!"
I know that my words crossed the line, but I don't care about it anymore. My emotions are ruling over my system, and I'm letting them... I don't want to forgive this man in front of me... I don't want to give him a chance. I want him to suffer even more.
"I regret that I loved you, Luca... I-I also get annoyed at myself when I think that I loved you... So please! Don't ever show your face to me again, ever! I don't want to see your face anymore; I don't want to hear your voice; I don't want to feel your presence! I hate everything about you!"
Luca looked at me. I was briefly stunned when I saw him crying while walking closer to me, but just like before... I didn't feel any pity or anything. Even if he cries tears of blood, my anger towards him will never go away.
"I-I love you, Crescent," he whispered while staring at me.
I gave a bitter smile... If he had said that before, my heart would probably be jumping with joy.
"W-Why are you saying that? Do you feel guilty? Are you saying that to make me feel better, huh, Luca?" My hand clenched into a fist.
"C-Crescent, I really love you... T-That's what I was supposed to tell you--"
"I don't care! Whether you love me or not, I don't care even a little bit! So, for goodness' sake, don't you ever show your face to me again... If I see you again, if you try to find me, if you follow me... I'll kill myself, Luca."
He was obviously stunned by what I said; it was as if he was doused with cold water. He cried even more; it was as if he wanted to get closer to me but was just stopping himself.
"C-Crescent, please..."
I immediately went to the kitchen and got a knife there, then faced Luca again. His eyes widened when I pointed the knife at my neck.
"C-Crescent... P-Please, I'm begging you." He slowly kneeled in front of me. Right now, he really looks defenseless... and weak.
"I'm telling the truth, Luca! Just try to follow me and show your face to me again. I won't hesitate to stab this into my neck!" I said angrily. "So don't you ever show your face to me again... All the love I felt for you... it's all hatred now! I-I hate you, Luca Falcone."
After I said that, I immediately turned my back on him and went out of the house. I walked and ran to get away from there, and tears escaped from my eyes... I didn't even turn my back at him... I don't care, even if he's crying, suffering, grieving... I just don't care anymore.
I was just sitting quietly and staring into space while inside the bus. I couldn't even remember how I got here; I don't even know where this is going. I just want to get away. Get away from Luca, from everyone... from everything that will remind me of the loss of my child.
I sighed and took my phone from my bag to text Ivana. I know she will be sad. But I really want to be alone for now. I don't want to involve her in my problems anymore. She has already done a lot for me...
Ivana, I'm sorry for leaving without saying goodbye. I just need some time alone. Thank you for everything. I love you.
I was stunned when I saw Aiden's text. Even though I wasn't in the mood, I opened the message and read it.
Aiden: Crescent, please don't do something reckless.
I immediately replied to him.
Me: Aiden, I just want to get away for a while. Let me get away from everyone... I'm sorry if I involved you in what happened to me. Thank you so much for all your help.
Aiden: Can you tell me where you're going?
Me: I want to be alone, Aiden... I'm sorry if I can't tell you. This is the last message you'll receive from me. I'm going to throw away my sim card.
Aiden: It's okay... I'll just look for you. Please wait for me.
I just sighed and leaned my head on the back of the seat, then closed my eyes. I just bit my lower lip and held my stomach when I felt nauseous. I just shook my head and was about to remove the sim card from my phone when Aiden texted again.
'Crescent, please take care of yourself... your baby is alive.'