Chapter 43
Tom - I love you and Annie no one else Alice and you still love that jerk - clearly jealous
Alice - Tom I don't know how you feel about Kirstin, we never saw her again, and I know she destroyed your heart and way of loving, just like that jerk did to me, no I don't love, I hate and I hate that he showed up to mess up our lives. And I know you love me and you love her too, but Annie deserves more than crumbs of love, more than a broken hearted person. Do you know why we get so hung up on her?
Tom - because she is a wonderful woman and person?
Alice - she may be that, but not only that, she is light, she is love and joy all that we can't allow ourselves without her or our daughter we are darkness Tom. I know that I am an idiot, that I am a terrible mother to my daughter and a terrible wife, but that doesn't mean that I don't love you. But I don't think I deserve you and Luna, it hurts me so much every time I see her, I remember that jerk the way he cheated on me and all the suffering he caused me. What kind of parents did I have, Tom? I was abandoned when I needed them the most, if it wasn't for you, your mother and Annie I would be nothing. I wanted so much to deserve you, but I don't deserve you. I'll never be able to thank you for everything you've done and are doing for me until now and I'll never stop loving you in my own crooked way, but I love you.
Tom - I'm sorry if I was never able to love you as you deserve, but let's try to make this work? for us and for our daughter?
Alice - Let's
Tom - Let's try to be a normal couple and you will have to be better with Luna and people no one - especially not our daughter - is to blame for everything that she has lived through
Alice - I'll try
Tom - YOU WILL DO IT, NO MORE TRYING
Alice - OK
Tom - let's go to couple and individual therapy as well this will help us and if by any chance you find out that you still have feelings for Luis you will tell me
Alice - I don't like that idiot, I hate him, but the rest is ok
Tom - done, next week is Christmas at the Beckermann mansion, we have to go anyway? can't we invent a family trip?
Alice - I would love to, but it can't be helped, she will realize that we are running away from her and it will be worse. But yes, we can arrange a family trip after the holidays, will you organize it?
Luna - I heard family trip?
Tom - Daughter, I am glad you are here, has it been a long time since you arrived?
Luna - no daddy, I just arrived, where are we going mommy? - kisses daddy and me
Alice - Do you want to choose?
Luna - Really?
Alice - Very serious, you can choose, and together with daddy organize
Luna - BRASIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIL
Alice - laughing - ok, Brazil, we have always wanted to go there, haven't we darling?
Tom - yes, then Brazil is the destination, we'll organize everything, my daughter?
Luna - yes, aaaaai I am so happy, mommy is finally going on vacation
Alice - yes now that I will share the presidency I can take my vacation, I promise to try to be a better mother daughter, but be patient with me, you know how I am
Luna - oh this is the best day of my life - she jumps into my arms and kisses me, I don't know how to react and Tom notices, so he helps me
Tom - daddy gets nothing ne?
So that was the night, the three of us stayed there, until it wasn't bad to have a moment with my family, I just didn't know how to deal with the situation and my head was racing knowing that I would have to live with Luis every day and besides the pressure from Alexandra and Annie's departure, out of nowhere so many changes and now the demands how I was going to get rid of my stress without my trips to the club just by having sex with my husband. Just thinking about Christmas makes my stomach hurt. I have to agree with him, I can't be without him or my daughter, I have to fix all of this.