Chapter 99: Fighting

I stared at the cup of coffee in front of me and swirled my spoon watching the liquid move around it. I never seemed to stop moving always changing and flowing in different directions because of forces that were outside of it's control. It had no choice in where it was going or what was going to get in its way that would trip it up on purpose. "Carter, breakfast is ready do you want to dish your plate or should I?" My mother asked me and I didn't bother to look up from my coffee. Elinn had been missing for a two days now and I had no idea where she was. My wolf couldn't get a hold of her wolf and we didn't know why. We didn't know how she was doing or how injured she was because she was definitely injured that much was certain. The real question was whether or not she was holding out against the onslaught of pain. I wondered if she was thinking about me, because I hadn't stopped thinking about her. All I could ever think about was where she was and what she was feeling. Had she eaten today, was she hurting at this moment, did she know that I was looking for her. All I could do was speculate never having any firm answers about my mate. A plate of food was set in front of me but I was in no mood to eat anything. How could I when I was certain that Elinn hadn't been given a scrap of food since she had been taken. Just as we were finally getting some meat onto her bones she was snatched away and most definitely being starved. I wished that if I ate something I could somehow transfer those nutrients and vitamins to her. I pushed the plate away not wanting to think about what was happening to my mate. I couldn't stop, no matter how hard I tried all I ever thought of was her and what was going on with her. Sometimes I had a hard time remembering where I was because I was so focused on her. "You have to eat something! Are you even listening to me?" I looked up suddenly realizing that my mother had been talking to me. "Have you heard a single thing I've said?" Mom demanded and I continued to stare at her dumb founded. "You have to eat! Carter this isn't okay, you haven't eaten anything in two days this isn't healthy." She had tears in her eyes and I could see the stress rolling off of her. "I can't eat Mom….I just….can't," I couldn't explain this feeling to my Mom it just was exciting. I didn't think that she would understand what this felt like to be in this situation. "I know what this is like Carter. We are all feeling the loss of Elinn right now and none of us are doing well. We all need her, it's not just you who is suffering," With that I exploded. "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! You're mate is here! He is just fine and he's sitting in the other room. My mate is gone, SHE WAS KIDNAPPED! By a man who we know is most likely torturing her right now, who is cutting her open inch by inch, and what am I doing? I'm sitting here in a nice warm kitchen with a large plate of food in front of me and she probably hasn't eaten since she's been gone. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW THIS FEELS! My chest is constantly hurting causing me to want to pull my heart out of my chest. I can feel the distance between us and it's killing me, I can't focus on anything! All I can think about is her and what she is going through. So no, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!" I burst out and threw the plate on the floor. I was breathing hard and I was just so mad and I couldn't breathe. "What's going on in here!" Dad yelled as he ran in and looked around. My plate of pancakes was smashed on the floor and syrup was everywhere and Mom was balling. She was crying because I had just yelled at her, yelled at her because she was worried about me. "Kayla are you okay? What happened?" He pulled her into his arms and tried to comfort her. She just began to cry harder and tucked her face into his neck and it reminded me of Elinn. She used to do that when she was upset, and now I had made my mother cry. "Mom, I'm sorry I shouldn't have….I didn't mean to….I'm sorry." I stuttered and I could feel tears start to well up in my eyes. I was a horrible person who had just caused my mother to cry. I hadn't meant to snap like that it had just sort of happened. It had only been two days and I was already going crazy. "YOU DID THIS?" Dad yelled at me and stormed over grabbing my by the collar. I was getting ready for a beating that I knew was evident, but it never came. "Kent it wasn't his fault, he was just upset because Elinn's gone. It's just the anger and he just yelled it wasn't bad." She was trying to calm him down but he wasn't having it. "If you ever do something like that and make your mother cry I will skin you and hang your hide on the wall. I don't care if you are my son you will respect your mother and the things she has done for you. I will not let you hurt my mate just because yours is missing. We will find her but it won't happen if you wont pull you head out of your ass and get moving! You aren't even trying to find her" My father growled at me pushing me back into the wall. That made my wolf mad, did her seriously think that we weren't trying to find our mate? "We are trying to find our mate, what are you talking about?" I glared at him and I knew he could see the challenge in my eyes. He smirked down at me as he continued. "You're to busy worrying about what's happening to her to try and fix it. You sit here and whine about how she has no food to eat, well whose fault is that? Who hasn't been a part of any of the search parties yet? Who hasn't gone to the cabin and tried to track where the scents went? All you ever do now is mope around and that isn't helping anyone. You want her to have food then get up and go out and bring her home. Instead of sitting here throwing yourself a pity party. Your mate is suffering and you are just letting it happen!" My wolf snapped this time and lunged at my Dad. We didn't care who he was, he had no right to say things like that. He may be our father but he was about to learn that he wasn't allowed to say things like that and get away with it. To insinuate that we didn't care about our mate and were content to leave her with that monster. Kent rolled out away from us shifting as he went landing perfectly on four feet. His wolf seemed to be excited for this fight while mine was raging. He was in for a good date with the dirt and a lesson on not to mess with us. It was only then that we realized we were outside. Somehow while he was accusing us he had managed to move us out of the house and into the woods. This made me even more mad, we had been so oblivious as to what was going on around us. We leapt at Dad latching onto his shoulder without teeth and biting down hard. He growled at us and rolled knocking us off his back but we were up before he was and lunged again. THis time we swiped at his hind leg leaving a deep scratch down it that caused his wolf to snap at us. His wolf jumped and slid so he went underneath me using his claws to rake down my stomach causing pain to explode through my abdomen. When his head went under us he reached up and took a bit out of our stomach ripping off some flesh and fur with it. I howled in pain but continued to fight him. For another five minutes we jumped, swiped, pawed, snapped, and tore into one another until Dad end up on top of me with my neck in his mouth. I tried to buck him off and wiggled around but he didn't budge. Eventually my wolf and I gave in and thrust our neck up as best we could, which wasn't much. As we shifted back into our skins I realized that Dad was right. I had been spending all of my time focusing on what might be happening to Elinn instead of helping her. We had been looking at our emotions and how we felt as opposed to finding answers. "I'm leaving to go to the cabin, I'll be back when I find something." I said to him then took off for the cabin