Chapter 36 Sweet Words
By Alejandro
Omar walks into my office to find out what's going on.
I told him that I had sex with Valeria again this morning.
"I don't know what I said, but I convinced her, or it just happened. The first thing she told me was that Emi said she wouldn't agree to be our frontwoman and that she was going to quit. I know I crossed the line yesterday, it happens because she's close and I get desperate."
"But then you had sex with her."
"Yes... she kissed me back and before I knew it, we were on the couch. Damn, I remember it and I want her again."
"Something's wrong."
"Yeah... I know."
I told him about the conversation in the car.
Omar smiles.
"They're young."
"Yes, even though they're 20 and live alone, they spend all their time working and studying."
"That's why you assured her we wouldn't see her..."
"Exactly. At one point, I realized she's afraid of falling in love with you. Valeria is in love with me."
"What a mess."
"No... or maybe, I don't know, but I love it."
"What do you feel?"
"I need her... I told her today so she wouldn't quit."
"That's why you had her."
He says confidently.
"I don't understand you."
"She must have thought you feel something for her."
"No, I told her I needed her as my secretary... and that she drives me crazy, but I always tell her that."
"Try it sometime when she resists you, embellish what you say with sweeter words mixed with the sexual ones."
I suppose he's right, because sometimes I manage to have her, and I don't even understand what's happening at that moment.
"I don't remember what I said yesterday, but I'm sure I didn't say anything like that, though I'll try what you suggest."
"The key is not to promise anything."
"Of course... I'm thinking that when I get a woman out of my bed... it might cause some trouble."
"She doesn't know that you know she loves you. Keep it that way, and she'll handle the situation."
"I don't want her to suffer... since I'm going on vacation in three days, it's best to cool things down. But these days, I'm not bringing any woman to my apartment."
"You think too much about her."
I think, it's true, but not as much as my friend believes.
"She's a fire, good thing she left, otherwise, I would have tried to convince her to come to my apartment, and things would have gotten complicated."
"She's got you!"
I realize I'm drooling over Valeria, and my own actions scare me.
"It's not like that, let's go to our usual restaurant."
I say, to convince myself more than Omar, that what happens with Valeria is just an intense desire, but only desire.
I ended up with a gorgeous woman, took her to one of our temporary lodges, and checked the service and attention.
After three hours, I took the lady home and returned to my apartment.
I didn't want to admit the emptiness I felt when I was with that girl and how it didn't come close to the explosion of pleasure I feel with my beautiful secretary. She is... perfect, damn, Valeria's legs and her breasts and her ass... and her skin...
I'm in my apartment thinking about Valeria, and like a fetishist, I look for the thong I took off her the day before.
I found myself smelling her thong and getting a terrible erection.
Luckily, I'm going on vacation soon, and maybe I'll manage to get her out of my mind.
I put the thong in the drawer of my bedside table.
In the morning, when she walked into my room, I felt a happiness I didn't understand.
It must be because I was afraid she might quit, and seeing her calmed me down.
I think about the possibility of not seeing her and I get anxious.
I shower while she lays out what I'm going to wear.
We start the day normally.
She confirmed the reservation in Switzerland.
We were going skiing with Omar and Gonzalo.
Then we were going to Australia.
I didn't want to ask her anything personal, but I was dying to know what she was going to do.
Valeria didn't make any comments.
Those few days passed, it was the last working day, also for her. She was entitled to two weeks, but I gave her the third week because I wasn't going to be around.
"If you need anything, call me. I don't mind coming to work."
"Thanks, Vale."
That day she was dressed really spectacularly.
She wore a short skirt, a bit shorter than usual. Did she do it on purpose so I wouldn't forget her legs?
Damn, her legs leave me breathless.
I want to kiss them, run my tongue over every inch of her skin.
When she turned and I saw how that miniskirt hugged her ass, I got hard.
I approached her immediately to hug her, to feel her.
"Ale... have fun."
She said, walking away from me.
I want to have her.
I don't understand why she's distancing herself.
I'm searching for some sweet word that doesn't mean too much, to test Omar's theory.
"Vale... I'm going to miss you so much."
She smiles openly at me.
I approach, smiling, because I think my friend and partner hit the mark.
Indeed, she kisses me back, completely surrendered.
We hear the elevator door, and Omar was gone; he had already left the building.
We separate, and I tell her that when she gets back, we'll move the offices from the temporary shelters to the other building.
Valeria leaves my office, and I hear her talking to Susana.
Not many people could come up to my floor.
She came to say goodbye.
Susana asks if she's leaving already and tells her she'll wait for her.
The HR manager is suspecting something, and I wanted to say goodbye to Valeria properly, meaning, by having sex.
"If you're in Buenos Aires, we need to meet with your friend Emi to explain how we're going to manage."
I never thought Valeria would go on vacation, maybe to a beach, to show off her sculptural and perfect body.
Damn, my vacation plans didn't seem so appealing anymore, and I didn't like the idea of cooling down the relationship.
Why didn't I ask if she was going somewhere when we were talking about it?
"I'm calling you."
Vale answers without clarifying anything.
"Okay, I'll wait for you to go down together."
They were in Vale's office.
"I'll say goodbye to Alejandro, then we'll go."
She enters my office.
I'm waiting, anxious.
Her eyes are teary.
"Have... a great time."
"Behave, I'll see you when you get back."
I kiss her again, and she kisses me back. My hands go to her ass.
I'm already desperate to possess her.
"Susana is waiting for me."
She says softly.
"I'm going to miss you... a lot."
She smiles, she's sad, she knows that no matter how much she drives me crazy, I'll really have fun and possibly barely remember her.
For Valeria.
Vacation
She's going on vacation for three weeks, which means he'll be sexually out of control.
Like here, and as always.
Though lately, I haven't seen him with anyone, but one of the days he smelled like another woman.
My sense of smell is incredible; I wish I didn't have that gift, if you can call it that.
What I really hope is that he never realizes I'm hopelessly in love with him.
It would be humiliating if he continued doing his thing, ignoring my feelings.
Now he also ignores me when he's with those women, but at least he doesn't know how I feel, though it's not that hard to deduce, we've made love several times, and why else would I do it if not because I'm in love with him.
Maybe that detail escapes him, not all women who have sex do it because they're in love.
In fact, the ones who sleep with him must only feel desire.
That same desire that corrodes my insides, though I accompany it with love.
When he tells me he's going to miss me a lot, my legs go weak with emotion.
I kiss him back, and when I think it's imminent that we'll end up making love, we hear the elevator.
It's Susana who arrives, and after talking to him, says she'll wait for me.
I don't know if it's better for him to remember me, leaving him wanting more, or if we should make love in that wild way we usually do.
Either way, I know that as soon as he's in the air, he'll be with some flight attendant, and in Switzerland or Australia, he won't remember I exist.
Maybe when he comes back, he'll even want to change his secretary.
Meanwhile, I'll stay here, like a fool, crying over him, dying for him.
Even though we signed the contract for Emi to be his front, and I'm tied to him because of that too.