Chapter 88
Nicolas
I couldn’t believe my eyes when my two girls walked into my office, Nikki actually ran to me with her long blond hair that was in big locks, she looked so grown up, my heart ached, I missed so much. Then I looked up and saw Nicol, fuck she looked amazing in her knitted dress, her knee length boots and her hair, I’ve never seen it straight like that before, and the blond in her hair she looked so beautiful. Nikki was very persistent on how her mom looked and the fact that I needed to tell her that she looked beautiful and then suddenly she wanted something sweet, the dad in me wanted to take her to the cafeteria myself but the man in me wanted to stay with Nicol and devour her if only for a minute. Nikki made it easy on me she asked that Jason took her, which left me alone with Nicol. I couldn’t help it I had to kiss her as soon as Nikki was out of the office, she was clearly just as desperate for me as I was for her if I went by the kiss she gave me. When Jason and Nikki came back and Nikki said her planned work, I was a bit stunned “And what would that plan have been?” I asked her. “I wanted you to kiss mommy. That’s why I wanted mom to look sexy and that is why I chose those cloths for her and told her to do her hair.” “Sweet pea.” I said on a sigh because I have to find the words to tell her no matter what her mom has on, I would have kissed her in any case but I also have to think about her feelings and all the trouble she went through for this to happen. “Come sit here with me.” I said. Jason could see I had my serious face on so he closed the door and left us alone.
She came walking to me “Did I do something wrong?” she asked a bit scared. “God no sweet pea you didn’t do anything wrong; you look gorgeous and mom looks gorgeous as well, I just want to talk to you.” I could see Nicol was also not very sure of what was going on. When she sat on the coach, I went to sit right in front of her on the table taking her hands in mine. Nicol came to sit right next to Nikki, clearly a bit troubled by what was going to come out of my mouth. “Nikki, I want you to know something.” “Yes?” she asked. “I want you to know no matter how you mom looks if she has bed hair, which means she didn’t brush it yet the morning or if she is in her work cloths or PJ’s I will always think she’s sexy, always and that counts for you to. NO matter what you have on or how your hair looks you are beautiful just the way you are.” “So don’t you like what mom did to her hair or what she has on now?” “No that is not at all what I’m saying both of you looks very beautiful and I’m the luckiest man alive to have the two of you in my life. What I’m trying to say is I love you no matter what you have on or how you look.” I heard Nicol taking in a deep breath and then I saw the confusion in Nikki’s face. “You love us?” “Yes, sweet pea, off course I love you. You are my daughter.” “But you said us that means you love mom as well?” she asked. Yes, I love Nicol, and I’ve always loved Nicol but how do I explain this to Nikki, how do I explain that love is sometimes not enough. I’m not saying it isn’t with me and Nicol I’m just not sure.
Nicol took over while I was still in my head. “Yes, your dad loves you very much Nikki, it’s clear as day. I think what his trying to say is that he loves both of us, he just loves you a bit more at this stage.” That didn’t really make sense to me either. I could see the confuse look on Nikki’s face. “I love both of you.” I blurted out. Nicol looked at me with tears in her eyes. “You love me?” She asked right in front of Nikki; I wasn’t planning on telling her I love her not so soon and definitely not in front of Nikki but I started something and I wanted it to be clear to Nikki and Nicol. “Yes, Nicol, I love you. I’ve never stopped loving you.” She jumped up and threw herself at me and then another pair of arms came around me from the side. “We love you to dad.” I heard Nikki say from the side. “You do?” I asked surprised. “Yes, off course we do, right mom?” Nikki said. “We do Nicolas so so much.” Nicol said with tears streaming down her face. She pulled away grab her handbag for a tissue and wipe away the tears.
“Mom why are you crying?” Nikki asked “Isn’t it a good thing that dad loves us?” “It is.” “Then why are you crying?” Nikki asked again. “I’m just happy that’s all.” “I’m happy to.” Nikki said. I got up from the table gave Nikki a kiss on the forehead and took Nicol in my arms. “I really do love you, Nicol.” “I love you to Nicolas and I know there is still a lot we need to work out.” She whispered in my ear. “But I want you to know I’ve always loved you.” “I’ve always loved you to.” I whispered back in her hair before I kissed her cheek. The next words that came out of Nikki’s mouth was a bit of a shock to me and Nicol, “So if you love mom and she loves you, does that mean you will marry her and we can be a normal family?”