Chapter 84

Nicol

Both Nicolas and I woke up with a shock when his alarm went of at 6 am. I was shocked that I slept in his bed the whole night. I jump up “Shit Nicolas.” Was my first words. He got out of the bed like nothing was wrong. I was trying to get my cloths on, while he walked over to me and pulled me to him. “Calm down Nicol, Nikki is still sleeping.” “But what if she wakes up earlier.” “Then we will explain it.” “We can’t give her false hope Nicolas not until, you are sure.” “I know but I love sleeping next to you, it was the best nights rest I had in days.” “Me to Nicolas it’s like I’ve never been away but the fact is you are not sure about us yet and I don’t want to give myself false hope as well.” He pulled me to him and hugged me and kissed me on the forehead. “I’m getting their angel just give me a little more time.” “I’ll give you all the time in the world just don’t give me false hope.” “I won’t I promise.” He gave me a kiss as I walked out. I tip toed past Nikki room and quickly went to my room and rolled around in my bed just making sure if Nikki comes to my room, it will look like I slept here the whole night.

I couldn’t sleep again as I got into my bed, I missed Nicolas. I was just lying in bed looking at the ceiling thinking about my life and what I want out of it. If I have to be dead serious about what I want it would be Nicolas and more children with him and then being a stay at home mom giving my other children what Nikki didn’t have, yes, a dance school was my dream but now, after I’ve seen I won’t become what I wanted to a ‘Broadway Ballet dancer’ I realized dreams could change and that is what I wanted the only problem with this new dream of mine is it doesn’t only depends on me. I mean Nicolas should first decide he wants me back as his real girlfriend or should I say maybe his wife and then we can talk about children. I don’t even know if Nicolas wanted more children. There was a small knock on my door, I knew it was Nikki. “Come in angel.” She ran in and jump on my bed and got in, curling herself up next to me. “Morning mom.” “Morning angel. How are you feeling today?” “I’m okay.” “Just, okay?” “Probable better than okay I mean I’m not going to school and we are going to a hair salon to do my hair, that is so exciting.” “It is.” “Are you going to do something with your hair as well?” “Where did that come from, I’m not going out tonight am I?” “No but maybe you can do something different with your hair.” “And why would I want to do that angel?” “I don’t know maybe surprise dad?” Oh, that was where she was going, trying to push us together. “I’ll see angel.” That got her quiet. She was just lying there next to me also looking at the ceiling, I wanted to ask her what she was thinking about but I was actually scared to hear what it was. “Mom?” “Yes angel?” “Can you do my make up tonight.” “Angel….” She interrupted me “Mom please I know you don’t like me wearing make-up but tonight is special please please please” “Your dad said we can go to a make-up artist to do your make-up.” “Really?” “Yes, Nikki but we not going to do the make-up thing a lot okay you still to young.” “But mom I’m almost 12.” “Yes, I’m well aware of your age but angel please let’s keep the make-up at a minimal for now.” “Okay fine but tonight I can go all out?” “Yes angel, you better go and thank your dad for that.” “I will.” She said as she jumped up. I followed her to the kitchen I was sure Nicolas will be in the kitchen already eating his breakfast.

Nicolas

When Nicol jumps out of bed, I was actually sad, I wanted to cuddle with her a bit longer, I loved having her in my bed, my home, my life. Maybe I should just stop being so scared and just admit I want her in my life, but I wasn’t ready for it yet. I was drinking my coffee, eating my toast and reading the paper, yes who said men can’t multi-task, when Nikki ran into to kitchen. “Morning dad.” “Hi sweet pea, how did you sleep.” “Good thank you.” I saw Nicol entering the kitchen behind Nikki, I couldn’t help it my smile grow bigger. Nikki was standing right in front of me “What’s wrong sweet pea.” “Can I give you a hug?” “Yes, off course you can but why are you asking?” “I want to thank you for telling mom we can go to a make-up artist.” I open my arms to her and she walked straight into them, I gave her a big hug. “My pleasure sweet pea but you mom did tell you….” She interrupted me “Yes mom said I shouldn’t make a habit out of it.” “Good. Morning Nicol.” “Morning Nicolas.” She said as she poured herself a cup of coffee. “Morning Isabella, can I get my special coffee as well?” Nikki asked. “Morning Nikki yes off course. Can I make you some breakfast?” “No thank you mom is taking me out.” “Oh, that’s nice.” “You two can come by the office if you want to.” I said it before I even thought about what I said. “Can we mom, please please please, I want to see where dad works.” “Yes, angel we can.” She looked at me asking me with her eyes if, I was sure. I just winked at her which made her happy.

I wasn’t totally sure but I couldn’t take it back. I got up and gave Nikki a kissed on her fore head. “See you later sweet pea.” “Later dad.” Then I walked to Nicol and without thinking about it I gave her a kiss on the forehead as well. I whispered in her ear, “You going to sleep with me tonight as well.” I notice Nikki was looking at us but she didn’t hear what I said to her mom. “Bye Nicolas see you later.” Was all Nicol said.