Chapter 76

Nicolas

After Nikki went to bed, Nicol and I sat in the living room, “Are you sure about this girlfriend thing Nicolas?” Nicol asked me. “I wouldn’t have made it public if I wasn’t sure but you have to realize something.” “Like?” “I’m going to get a lot of calls from all the girls I’ve been with they will call any time of day and they will have questions for me, I’m with you now and I don’t want you to get jealous.” “I understand.” “Do you really?” “Yes Nicolas, I have been keeping up with you on social media I have an idea how many women you’ve been with since me.” “Seriously? You’ve been cyber stalking me?” I asked her with a smile on my face. “I’m not going to lie to you, if I couldn’t have you, I still wanted to be a part of your life in some way or another.” I pulled her to me and held her against my chest, hugging her. “And you still want to be with me although I had so many women?” “I love you Nicolas, I always have an I always will. I left you I can’t be upset for what you did when I left. With that being said I can be upset for what you are going to do from here on out.” “I know and I understand.” “All I ask from you is to be honest with me Nicolas if you don’t feel it with me anymore and you want me to move out then just tell me, but don’t cheat on me.” “I promise I’ll always be honest with you Nicol even if it hurts.” “Thank you because I made myself a promise that I won’t ever lie to you again not about anything.” “Thank you I really appreciate it and it will go a long way in fixing what broke between us.” “I’ll try every day to fix what I’ve broken Nicolas that is a promise.” I kissed her on the forehead and just as I wanted to kiss her lips she pulled away.

“There is something else we need to talk about Nicolas.” “And that is?” “Nikki. This is going to be hard for her I really don’t think she has any idea what will happen when that article comes out, what you should know about her is she retreats, like the other night when things is to overwhelming, she likes her quiet time and then there is Zoe she won’t make this any easier for Nikki.” “I’ll give Nikki her space I promise but this Zoe kid we need to do something about it.” “You only going to make things worse for her, just leave it please Nicolas.” “I’m not going to lie to you and say I’ll leave it but I will promise to try, but if the opportunity presents itself like say at the father daughter dance, I will say something.” “At least try not to.” “Like I said I’ll try. Now what is your plans for the rest of the week, I mean it is almost Friday are you going to rest or what do you have up your sleeve?” “I was thinking of going to see my old dance professor at Uni she hasn’t come back to me yet.” “That sounds like a good plan but just as you are worried about Nikki, I’m worried about you, the paparazzi will be following you as well and they may have harder questions for you and even call you names.” “I’m aware and will be careful I promise, I’ll also stick with what we said, stick to the truth as far as possible.” “If things get too hard, I’ll get you a bodyguard Nicol.” “No let’s not take such dramatic steps, let’s see how it goes tomorrow.” “Okay then but you will tell me if you need someone.” “I will.” I got up and kissed her on the forehead, “Then I’m going to go to bed it was a long day and I’m sure you are exhausted to.” “I am but there is one more thing I need to talk to you about.”

“What is it?” “My apartment I want to know if I should give my notice?” This was definitely taking things in the right directions she was making me so happy without even knowing it. “Yes, angel you can put in your notice I’ll organize someone to pack up the apartment and put your things in storage if you don’t want to bring it here.” “No that’s not necessary I’ll pack up the apartment besides Nikki would need to go and decide what she wants to bring with.” “Okay what about the weekend we go to your place pack up what you need to bring here and then the rest I’ll get someone to do?” “You not going to take no for an answer, are you?” “I won’t.” “Okay then, but you don’t have to come with I’m sure you have other things you need to take care of.” “Let see. Now I’m going to bed.” “Goodnight Nicolas thank you for your support today.” “It’s my pleasure Nicol, good night.”

I left her in the living room and went to my room, I wanted so badly to take her with me to have her under me but I knew we had a long day especially she I mean she resigned she’s giving up her apartment and then the piece that will be in the paper tomorrow it’s a lot. So, I put my own needs to the side and thought about her. She thinks I don’t know how to be around someone that retreats when things get’s to much, she is exactly the same ever since I knew her when she had a bad day or a to busy day you would find her in her sweatpants or her PJ’s under a blanket in front of the TV and all she needed then was to be held I know how to treat someone who retreats I had experience all that it means is that I have two people in the house that does the same thing. I’ll see tomorrow how bad it can get because not either of them knows what a shit show tomorrow is going to bring. I want them to go on with their lives as normal, I want Nikki to go to school although I also know it’s going to be chaotic for her, I also want Nicol to go to the University and see her dance professor but that is going to be even more hectic for her because the University is where everything started. But tomorrow is going to be a very good test as to how much my girls can really handle. I hate doing this to them but it is a necessity in my world it will show me if I should protect them from the chaos and if they will be able to handle the chaos. That was the last thoughts I had before I fell asleep.