Chapter 68

Nicol

When Nicolas eventually got up, he slapped my ass and said “Stay still I’m going to get something to clean you.” The slap wasn’t hard but after the spanking he gave me I could feel it. I laid still until he came back and cleaned me. “There all done. Can I just say my hands look gorgeous on your ass.” “It feels gorgeous as well.” I said as I got up and got dressed. When I was ready to walk out of his office, he pulled me back towards him and held me to him hugging me and kissing me on my head. “I meant what I said I did miss you a lot, no one I’ve ever been with had the same energy for sex like you do.” “I really don’t want to hear about the other women you have slept with Nicolas not after what we just did.” “I’m sorry I was trying to give you a compliment and tell you you’ve always been as hungry for sex as I was.” “Believe me it’s only with you or else I wouldn’t have been salabate for 12 years.” He pulled away from me put his finger underneath my chin and kissed me, he devoured me all over again, I was actually ready to go again. “I like that you’ve been salabate.” He said as he pushed away. “I’m sure you do.” I said with a half-smile because he was definitely not salabate he was more like a man whore the last 12 years but I wasn’t going to mention it, I want him to take me back I want us to be a family and bringing up all the women he has slept with the past 12 years will just me tactless and besides I don’t think we have enough time until I have to be at work tomorrow.

“I don’t want you to think I’m just using you for sex Nicol. I’m really trying to work this out and find away where I could say we should be a family.” “Oh, really is that what you want?” I asked a bit shocked because I told him he could use me for sex. “Yes, I really do want it, I’m just working through my feelings for you and I’m wondering if I could ever trust you again?” “Really Nicolas I haven’t had a boyfriend for 12 years not even a one-night stand and you wonder if you can trust me should I remind you what you did just a few days ago?” I didn’t want to bring it up but he did piss me off, how can he tell me he doesn’t know if he can trust me. “I trust you when it comes to other men Nicol, I know you won’t cheat on me, but will you run from me again, what if something happens you don’t like will you run or will you stay. Let’s take the other day for example I was caught on camera with another, women and you ran.”

“Technically I didn’t run if I did, I would have taken Nikki with and you wouldn’t have found me again.” “Fuck see that is what I mean.” “I’m sorry Nicolas, but I wouldn’t run, I was hurt and I knew you will know where to find me so I didn’t run I was just hurt.” “I understand but I can’t promise you I won’t hurt you ever again Nicol what is going to happen then?” “I won’t run Nicolas; I promise you that.” “See that is the thing I need to figure out for myself can I trust you not to run. I won’t get over it if I lose you again Nicol. I mean it’s not just you anymore.” “I understand Nicolas and the only why I can proof to you I won’t run is with time. So, I’m more than willing to give you time.” “Thank you, Nicol, I just want you to know I’m not using you and I am thinking about us almost the every day.” “Thank you, Nicolas.”

“Can I ask you a favor?” Maybe if I do research, he will see he can trust me. “Yes, off course.” “Can I barrow your laptop, I’m sure Nikki’s got mine.” “Yes, sure but I want to buy her a phone she needs to be able to call us when she needs us, will that be something you will think about?” “Yes, you can buy her a phone Nicolas she will be very happy.” “Good I’ll do that tomorrow. Here you go.” He gave me his laptop. “Are you going to do what I’m thinking you are going to do?” “What? Do research?” “Yes.” “Yes, Nicolas I am.” “Thank you, Nicol thanks, you so much.” I gave him a kiss on his cheek and went to my bedroom. But first I wanted to see if Nikki was still awake. When I open the door, she was asleep with the book laying on her chest. I walk into the room, took the book of her chest tucked her in and put the light of, then I walked to my room. I got myself comfortable on the bed and started doing research about my own ballet school. I can’t believe I’m in a position where I can actually do it. I didn’t want to get my hopes up I need to take a few refresher courses first but with the money Nicolas is willing to pay for child support and if we can stay here, I can give up my lease at the apartment we have and then I can use my savings as well. I’m sure my dance teacher from Uni will gladly to a refresher course with me. I looked at studios to rent and to buy. I grabbed my note pad and made a few notes of what I wanted to do. Firstly, was a refresher course to see if I’m still able to do it. Yes, I warm up with the children at Nikki’s ballet school but it’s just not the same. I open my e-mail and send an e-mail to my dance professor from Uni asking her for a refresher course. I decided that is where I will start. Maybe I can still to my work and the classes if not I will have to decide what is more important to me. Dancing or Nursing. But I already know the answer to that question.