Chapter 61

Nicol

When Nicolas grabbed me outside Nikki’s room, I was so for it. I was really not in a mood to talk yes; I knew we had to but I didn’t want to. I threw my legs around his waist as he took me to his room. I loved it when he kissed me it was the best feeling in the world. I think I was trying to forget the fact that he was still mad at me, he was probable trying to forget that to with using me for sex, but really, I didn’t mind, I think I might be the one using him. His dominant side came out to play tonight and I loved it, I also knew he loved it when I called him Sir. When he spanked me, it felt like I was flying, I was feeling so much, for the last 12 years I was on autopilot, making sure Nikki was okay going to work, paying bills everything was on autopilot but here in Nicolas’s bed in Nicolas’s penthouse I could feel for the first time in a long time I could feel. Yes, some of the feelings wasn’t nice to have like knowing he was mad at me, but being in his bed, him spanking me, him fucking me like his life depended on it, that was all the best feelings I’ve ever had. After he came, he rolled of me I knew we had to talk so I didn’t move.

“That was fucking awesome.” He said. “You can say that again.” “You still like it when my dominant side comes out?” “Yes, Nicolas, I don’t like it, I love it, you taught me everything I know so when you grab me so hard and spank me it takes me back to the good days, I’m starting to get slightly addicted to it again.” “Oh, really know?” He said rolling on his side looking at me. “Yes really.” “We have a lot to figure out Nicol.” “I know but can’t sex be part of the way we figure things out?” He got quiet I probable said the wrong thing. “Or it’s fine I’m sorry I asked.” “No no I would give anything to have you in my bed every single night, fucking you like this but I’m not sure about us yet Nicol and I don’t want you to think by us having sex that I want us to be together again.” “Don’t worry Nicolas, I know you not ready to have me back in your life.” “But that is where you wrong, I want you and Nikki in my life I’m just not sure in what capacity I want you back in my life.” “So basically, you don’t know if you want me as Nikki’s mom just in the house, a fuck buddy or your girlfriend?” I said a bit upset. “Well, if you have to put it that way then yes, I’m not sure.” “Shouldn’t we just go back to my place and you can figure it out while I’m not here.” “NO” he said so fast and hard. “I don’t want you and Nikki to leave of that I’m very sure in fact I want you guys to move in.”

What the fuck he wants us to move in how on God’s earth is that going to work. “Really Nicolas, you want us to move in but you don’t know in what capacity you want me, you want me as room mate now? What happens when you want to bring one of your model’s home to fuck her like you just fucked me?” “I don’t fuck them like I fuck you.” “Does that mean I’m special?” I ask sarcastically. “Nicol come on we are getting of point.” “Then what is the point?” “The point is I want you and me to sort things out while you and Nikki stays here.” “Okay and what then Nicolas, what happens when you decide this doesn’t work for you anymore and you don’t want us here, we are cramping your style, what then?” “You won’t okay and if we make sex part of our deal then I really don’t need to see other women besides I won’t bring other women close to Nikki.” “So we making sex part of our way to figuring things out?” “If you don’t mind then yes.” I really didn’t mind not having sex for 12 years and now being back in his bed, I know my emotions are all over the place but I also know that Nicolas was always the one that could keep me grounded and make me get all my ducks in a row. “Okay.” Because really I wasn’t going to say no.

“Well then what else do you want to talk to me about?” He got up and walk to the bathroom, he came back with a cloth for me and he put some PJ pants on. Clearly, I needed to get dressed for this conversation. I cleaned myself walked naked to the bathroom and washed out the cloth before I got back to the room and put my shorts and t-shirt on. He was watching me the whole time, the look on his face said he wanted me again but clearly, he had a stronger will than me. I went to sit crossed leg at the end of the bed looking at him. “We need to talk about Nikki.” Oh, okay that is why we are dressed. “Okay what about Nikki?” “Well, I’m back at work and you are at work, what happens after school with Nikki.” “Normally the nanny will get her at school and take her back home and do homework. I thought Geoffrey will get her and bring her back here then she stays with Isabella? Isn’t that what was going to happen, because if not then I have to call the nanny?” “No no that was what I thought as well but do she have tutors or people helping her with her homework?” “No if she struggles, she normally asks the nanny or wait for me.” “Oh, okay that makes sense. Any after school activities?” “No Geoffrey can get her at 4 pm at the school.” “Fuck is she that long at school?” “Yes, Nicolas what did you think?” “I don’t know.

Well, I can sort out most days to come home with her then I can help her if there is something she needs help with.” “That would be very nice if you can, she will love that. The other thing I wanted to ask you is there somewhere a table we can put in her room where she could to her homework at?” “I’ll get the interior designer to get one that goes with her room.” “That’s not necessary.” “If you are going to stay here then I want this place to feel like home Nicol so it is necessary.” “You serious about us living here?” “Off course I am I wouldn’t have said that if I wasn’t.” Should I give up my lease, I could safe a lot of money if I do that, but how do I approach that conversation or should I just ask him?