Chapter 45
Nicol
I probable came 10 times and I’m not even kidding before Nicolas decided it was enough; it might be the fact that his alarm went off and it was 6 am. I needed to get back to my room before Nikki got up. He moved up my body and kissed me on the lips, it was a sweet kiss not I hate you kiss it was sweet and I fell in love with him even more. “You go sleep for a few hours I’ll keep Nikki busy when she wakes up.” “What about you?” “I’m use to not sleeping angel. We’ll leave at say 11 so you have a few hours.” I took his face in my hands and kissed him it was also a sweet kiss but I was trying to say so much in that one kiss but all I said when I pulled away was “Thank you for the best night of my life.” Then the tears started rolling. He wiped away the tears but didn’t say anything. He kissed me on the forehead and got of the bed, leaving me to get dressed. I quickly got dressed in one of his T-shirts, grabbed my cloths of last night and almost ran to my room, as soon as I closed the door in my room I cried and cried. I locked the door and crawled into bed crying my eyes out, that was the best night I’ve ever had and I will never forget it. I set my alarm through the tears and fell asleep.
Nicolas
When Nicol thank me for the best night of her life I realized it was the best night of my life as well, to have her with me again to make love to her. “No Nicolas, you fucked you didn’t make love.” I berated myself. I walked to the bathroom and got in the shower, I wasn’t really looking forward to washing the night away but I had to I promise she could sleep and I’ll keep Nikki company. I wanted to be ready for when she woke up, these day’s it was anything between 7 and 9 am. I’ll take a guess today and say she’ll sleep until 9 am there were a lot of excitement last night and yesterday during the day, I took my time in the shower then I went to shave and get dressed, it was only 7 am and I was ready for the day, it’s not uncommon for me to be up so early and ready but it is uncommon for me to be ready so early on a Sunday morning. I decided I’ll use the time to catch up on some work, I took my laptop and went to sit in the living room I wanted to see when Nikki get’s out of her room I didn’t want her to wake Nicol up, she needed her rest especially because we are going on our outing today and I’m sure it’s going to take a lot out of her and me.
I started with my e-mails there was a contract waiting for me that needed my undivided attention something I didn’t think I can master up today, there was so many things going through my mind. Top of that is what is Nicol going to tell me, that I wasn’t good enough? That she didn’t see me as a father? That I wouldn’t have been able to care for them? She could say a lot of things but she couldn’t say that not of me. I was thinking about all this stuff while I worked through meaningless e-mails, when I looked at my watch again it was past 8 am I heard a noise in the kitchen, Isabella was probable here. I got up and went looking for a cup of coffee, “Morning Isabella.” “Jeez Nicolas, you scared me, morning why is you up so early?” I didn’t answer I waited for her to come up with an answer what am I going to say, I fucked Nicol all the ways I could last night and promised I’ll look after Nikki this morning. “Oh, sorry you don’t have to answer I’m sure you are nervous all I’m asking you is going into this with an open mind.” That puzzled me “Do you know something I don’t?” “No off course not Geoffrey and I think we know why she left.” “And you don’t think you should tell me?” “No Nicolas it’s something you should hear from her.” I was upset, my housekeeper and driver know or think they know why she left me but they don’t want to tell me. I grabbed my coffee and went back to the living room not talking to Isabella further. Was I acting like a child probable but come on I’m dying here wondering what the answer might be and they think they know. What the actual fuck? I just walked into the living room when I saw Nikki coming out of her room and going straight for her mother’s room. “Morning sweet pea.” She turned around and looked surprise to see me. “You up early.” She said. “Come let’s get you something to drink, tea, a or maybe coffee.” That had her eyes go wide “Coffee” she walked towards me “Yes but it’s our secret okay.” “Okay.” We walked to the kitchen where Isabella was making breakfast for Nikki. “Morning Isabella.” “Morning Nikki.” Nikki hugged Isabella they formed a very strong bond the past week. “Nicolas said I could have some coffee.” Isabella looked at me “Yes Isabella that special coffee I bought Nikki.” “Oh yes that.” It was basically frothing milk with a kiddie’s coffee powder but Nikki couldn’t find out it said kiddies, she will quickly remind you she is almost 12 and not a kid anymore.
I took my coffee and Isabella put Nikki’s coffee in front of her, “This smells delicious, mom is going to freak out if she finds out.” “It’s our secret mom is not suppose to find out.” “I won’t tell I promise.” I showed my pinky to her “Pinky promise.” “You not serious.” I didn’t pull my hand away “You are, I’m not a kid anymore.” And there it is. “I know but I want you to pinky promise.” “Fine I pinky promise.” She hooked her pinky into mine and we pinky promised. “So, what did you think about last night?” I asked her while we where sipping on our coffee. “I loved it I want to go every year I’m just not sure mom could afford it.” “I’ll take you every year.” She looked at me shocked and then she asked “And why would you do that, you just mom’s friend not her boyfriend you’ll probable disappear out of our lives when I’m healed.” “Nikki I won’t I promise you you are stuck with me forever.” “Forever?” “Yes, Nikki forever.” Because I am your father, I thought I wanted to tell her so badly but I know I need to have all the facts before we can do that. I already made a commitment I’ll always be there for her so it’s not like I don’t want her in my life I want both of them in my life I’m just not so sure I can have Nicol in my life sexually or as a partner, she’ll be there but as Nikki’s mom and nothing else. Or should I say that is what my head is telling me my heart after last night is singing a whole other tune.