Chapter 34
Nicolas
When we got to the apartment, I excused myself and went to my office, holding Nicol’s hand was just too much for me there was so many feelings that went through me and I’m sure she felt it to. But I was angry at her I should remind myself the whole time how angry I was at her; she disappeared from my life and not only her but she took my child with her and I should remember that. I started to work on my e-mail and contracts I needed to work through. I don’t know how long I was busy when there was a knock on my door. “Come in.” I thought it would be Isabella but no it was Nicol the one person I was actually running away from in my own home. “What do you want?” I asked sharply “I thought I’ll bring you a piece of pizza I mean the pineapple was your idea.” She tried to make a joke which actually worked because I smiled, I know how much she hated pineapple on a pizza. She put the plate down in front of me and turned around to walk out. “Wait Nicol.” I didn’t know why I told her to wait but I did and now I need to think of a reason or what I wanted to say, so I started with “I’m sorry.” Her eyes got so big “What on earth for?” “For grabbing your hand.” “Oh, thank you. You should have asked.” That made me upset yet again, I walked from behind my desk and walked towards her as I approached her, she was walking backwards until her body was against the wall. “Where is Nikki?” “Sleeping.” I don’t know what came over me but I pushed my hands in her hair and pulled her towards me and kissed her, I devoured her mouth. She started to moan and that gave me better access to her mouth. I pushed my leg between her legs as we kissed, she was starting to dry hump my leg, fuck I still got it. Then I let go of her. She opened her eyes and just stared at me, when she eventually got her senses back, she asked “What was that for?” “I wanted to see if I really hate you?” “And?” she asked but it didn’t seem like she wanted to hear the answer. “No Nicol, I don’t hate you, there is still something there I just don’t know if we could ever react on that.” I must have upset her because she turned around and basically ran out of my office. I don’t know if she went back to the living room or her room frankly, I didn’t care or that was what I told myself, so I went back to work.
Nicol
When we got back from Central Park Nikki and I got dressed in more comfortable cloths to watch some movies and eat pizza. After the first movie I ordered a small pizza for me because I hated pineapple on mine and a big pizza for Nikki and Nicolas. Nikki was falling asleep when I decided to go and give Nicolas a piece of pizza, I mean he did encourage her to order a pineapple pizza. When I walked in and I saw him my heart dropped I love this man so much but I don’t have the courage to tell him. When he asked me where Nikki was and I told him she was sleeping I could see what his next step would be, but it still took me by surprise the fact that I kissed him back, I couldn’t believe it, but come on when last did someone kiss me like this, I was actually dry humping his leg, I couldn’t believe it. He suddenly pulled away “What was that for?” “I wanted to see if I really hate you?” “And?” I asked but I didn’t really want the answer. “No Nicol, I don’t hate you, there is still something there I just don’t know if we could ever react on that.” Those words where like the nail in my coffin for some reason I had this idea that he will forgive me and we will live happily ever after, the tears were starting to stream down my face as I ran to my room. I walked straight to the bathroom to wash my face. ‘You looking for a fantasy Nicol, it’s not real life, get a grip.’ I told myself in the mirror. I need to tell him what happened and I need to get out of this house as soon as possible. I decided then and there Nikki and I will return to our flat on Monday and then she can start school on Tuesday. That was what I’m going to do. His not going to make me stay again. He knows where we stay and we will tell Nikki his her dad no matter how hard that will be then we are leaving. I just really hope she doesn’t hate me to for hiding it from her. I was just finished in the bathroom when Nikki came walking into my room. “Hi mom you, okay?” “Yes angel.” “It looks like you where crying.” “No don’t be silly it’s just the fever of yesterday.” I lied.
“You think you getting sick again?” “No angel don’t worry but there is something I want to talk to you about.” “Okay what is it?” “You getting better I think we should go back to our place on Monday and then Tuesday you can go back to school.” “You sure you want to leave mom I mean we don’t have to do any thing here.” “This is not our life Nikki and we need to return to our normal life.” “Okay fine we can leave on Monday but can Nicolas still come and visit?” “Yes, off course he can.” “Okay and there is something else I wanted to ask you?” “It sounds serious what is it?” “I want to know if I can ask Nicolas to come to my father and daughter dance?” That almost gave me a heart attack but before I could even say anything, Nicolas appeared at the door “Off course I will go with you sweet pea it would be an honor.” ‘Fuck me” was all I could think off.