Chapter 28

Nicol

I heard a door slam shut but at least Nikki was too busy to show me her room so she didn’t hear it. Clearly, I did something wrong. After Nikki showed me everything, I got onto her bed with her. We were lying together when she asked me that question again “Mom seriously now what kind of relationship did you and Nicolas have?” “Angel it’s complicated.” “Where you boyfriend and girlfriend?” I decided that was a very innocent way of looking at it so I said “Yes angel we were boyfriend and girlfriend.” “Oh” she said surprised. “Why are you surprised?” “You never had a boyfriend before?” “I did before I had you.” “Oh, then why don’t you have a boyfriend now?” “Because I’m to busy.” I couldn’t tell her the truth I couldn’t tell her it’s because I still love Nicolas with all my heart and always will and every time I look at her I see him. “You are busy that is true.” “Where is Nicolas now he needs to say good night to me.” “I think I heard him on the phone angel.” “Oh” she looked a bit sad. “You will see him tomorrow remember.” “I know.” “Well then, did you drink your tablets?” “Yes mom.” “Then you need to go to bed, I’m also going to bed now.” “I am tired.” “Night angel I love you to the moon and back.” “Love you more than jelly tot’s mom.” She said our night time ritual. I kissed her on the forehead and walked out of her room to the kitchen to get my tablets, when I walked into the kitchen the tablets were taking out for me and lying on the counter. He did this when we where still together maybe his not that angry with me. I took a bottle of water and drank the medication then I walked back to my room. Clearly Nicolas didn’t want to see us anymore tonight.

I fell asleep almost immediately I was exhausted at about 1 am I woke up with a huge head ache and a fever that was probable over 105. I didn’t know if Nicolas will have a thermometer so I brought my own. I got up and found it in the bathroom when I took my fever it was over 105. “Fuck” I said out load, I needed to get this fever down and fast. I walked to the kitchen to look for some ice I wanted to put some ice in the bath with water and try to get my fever down. I must have made a noise because I heard Nicolas behind me “What you looking for?” “Ice” He put his hand to my forehead “Fuck Nicol you are burning up.” “That’s why I need the ice.” He helped me to my feet and got the ice. “Come.” He walked in front of me with the ice in his hands he went straight to the bathroom filled the bath and threw the ice in. “Get in.” “I’m not getting undressed in front of you.” He started to pull at my shirt I was just too weak to stop him. “I’ve seen everything you have Nicol now take your pants off.” I took my pants of because yes, his right and my body has changed like the scar of my c-section. Clearly, he noticed it. He helped me into the bath the water was cold but not ice cold. “You okay.” “MMMMM” I said.

Nicolas

I heard a commotion in the kitchen when I went out to see what was going on Nicol was sitting on the floor looking for something in the freezer. “What you looking for?” I asked a bit irritated. “Ice” When I put my hand to her forehead she was burning up. “Fuck Nicol you are burning up.” “That’s why I need the ice.” I got the ice and walked in front of her to her room when I got to the bathroom I started to fill the bath. I told her to get undress but she said she won’t so I started to undress her I mean I’ve seen her naked multiple times I was just not prepared to see the cut on her stomach probable from a c-section. That made me wonder what went wrong why she couldn’t have a normal delivery. But I need to focus on the problem that was in front of me know and that is Nicol’s fever. She pulled her pants down and got in the water. When I asked her if she was okay, she just said “MMMMMM” When she started to shiver, I picked her up and dried her before I put her back in the bed. She was lying there but it was clear she was as sick as a dog and clearly her fever didn’t break in the cold water. I wanted to go and get her some water but she stopped me. “Don’t leave me.” She said but I had to listen carefully what she was saying. “I’m just going to get you some water.” I walked out and brought back an ice-cold water. I open the bottle and told her to drink. “Drink Nicol.” She tried to sit up straight to take a sip but she couldn’t she was too weak. I helped her to take a sip of the water before I put it on the nightstand. Again, she said “Please don’t leave me, I love you I’ve always loved you.” Clearly, she wasn’t talking to me and clearly it was the fever talking and then she said “Nicolas, I will always love you you are the love of my life.” When I wanted to question her, she was out. What the fuck? I thought to myself as I laid down on the coach in her room. I didn’t want her to be alone anything could happen. I’m upset with her but I didn’t want Nikki to loose a mother because of a fever or if I could have prevented it.