Chapter 26

Nicolas

When I looked at the phone, I saw it was Nicol phoning I was actually fuming from the inside with everything she took from me so I was mean “Hi Nicol I never thought ever in my life you will call me ever again especially not on this number you had for the past 12 years.” “Hi Nicolas.” She said without saying anything else, clearly, she didn’t take the bait. “How’s Nikki?” “She’s okay she ate and I just got her to go and rest for a while that is why it took me so long to answer.” “Oh okay, Nicolas I know I have no right to ask you for a favor but I’m going to ask in any way.” You damn right you have no right to ask me but I’ll listen, “What is it, Nicol?” “Please please please don’t tell Nikki you are her father; we need to talk before we can tell her.” “I would never what do you think off me?” Fuck did she really think I will put Nikki through that “I know the Nicolas of 12 years ago I know he wouldn’t do something like that but you’ve changed.” That just made me angrier “Why do you think I’ve changed Nicol?” “I know, there is something else we need to talk about as well.” “I’m listening.” “We need rules Nicolas.” “What kind of rules?” “Well first of all can we not fight in front of Nikki?” “Yes, off course I would never put her in that situation.” My mother and father never fought in front of me why on earth would I do it in front of my child and she knows this about me. “Thank you and then can you please not bring your lady friends over while we stay there.” Really, she didn’t think much of me, but I probable deserved that one “Done.” I didn’t even hesitate. “Anything else?” I asked “I know we need to talk Nicolas I really do but I’m exhausted I would really appreciate it if you can give me time?” What the fuck she needs fucking time “Time? Really Jenn fuck you had 12 years I think I’ve given you enough time.” I was so angry I just disconnected the call. “Fuck time she had enough fucking time.” I said as I walked to my room to take a shower.

Nicol

I was busy with my shift but everything that happened the past 12 years where spinning in my head I mean there was so many times I wanted to call him where I wanted help from him the nights, I was lying on the bathroom floor because I was so sick but I had to go and work the following day. The nights I didn’t get any sleep because Nikki was sick and I had to stay by her side because I was too afraid, she will die if I’m not there, the nights I went to bed without eating because I didn’t have money for food for both Nikki and I there was really so many times I wanted to do that but I didn’t I sorted everything out myself. Now here I’m standing giving people there medication and helping them to pee in pots and this was not my dream ever I wanted to be a dancer I wanted to own my own studio I wanted so many other things in my life but I wouldn’t trade anything because Nikki is my life now as long as I could give her her dreams I’ll be happy, when you have a child you push your dreams to the side and do what is needed to be done. It was getting late and almost time for me to go home but I could feel my body is going to crash I know the signs and I’m on the verge of a very bad cold. Before I clocked out, I went to one of the doctors for a prescription for antibiotics I couldn’t get sick I needed the money. It doesn’t mean now that Nicolas is in our life I can depend on him his way to angry for me to ever depend on him. After my shift ended, I walked out to find Geoffrey waiting for me again in the emergency parking, I really should talk to him about that but I just didn’t have the energy to do that now. “Hi Geoffrey.” “Hi Nicol you look exhausted.” “I am. Can I ask you to stop at the chemist please.” “Yes, off course.” When we got to the chemist Geoffrey stopped in a no parking zone, clearly, they just didn’t care, I jumped out and went inside to get the prescription filled then we were off too Nicolas’s place I couldn’t wait to see Nikki but Nicolas I couldn’t wait either just to be in his presence again but I also know he is pissed at me and I also know he has the right to be.

As we got to the penthouse Geoffrey actually said “Good luck.” “Oh my God is it that bad?” “He is vey upset Nicol and you can’t blame him.” “I know but I don’t have the strength for that.” Geoffrey walked in front of me to where Nikki and Nicolas were sitting on the ground playing Monopoly. “Mommy” Nikki said when she saw me. “Hi angel how was your day.” She started rambling about Nicolas that eats grilled cheese sandwiches like she does and her room she wanted to jump up to show me her room. “Angel takes it easy okay. Hi Nicolas.” I said because it was the first time Nikki stopped talking. “Nicol.” He looked at me like he could see I was getting sick, he always could especially after an exam we prepped for after wards I would always get sick. “You, okay?” he actually asked, which took me by surprise. I decided whatever happens from here on out I will be truthful with him so I answered truthfully. I just shook my head and showed him the medication in my hand. “Okay angel come show me your room.” Before Nikki could get up Nicolas was up. “I think you need a shower and food then Nikki can show you, her room.” “But Nikki and I always talk when I get home.” “Nicol you are getting sick it’s written all over your face go take a shower and I’ll warm up your food then you and Nikki can talk.” Nikki was looking at us with huge eyes she’s never heard anyone talk to me like Nicolas does, probable because I never had a boyfriend. “Fine where is my room?” “Isabella will show you.” I turned around and there behind me Isabella was standing. “Isabella Oh my God you still with them?” I said “Only Nicolas now, hi child how are you.” She grabbed me and hugged me. I actually started to cry. She took my hand and walked with me to my room. “Here you go.” “Thank you, Isabella.” “My pleasure. All the stuff you liked when you where younger is in the bathroom and your cloths is in the cupboard already packed out.” “Isabella” I said and then the tears started to stream down my face.