Chapter 19

Nicol

It felt so good to be back in Nicolas arms although it was just for a minute or two but I’ve missed it so fucking much. When the doctor came and told us what is wrong with Nikki, I was worried but also relieved, this was something that can be fixed a small operation and she will be fine. I was impressed with Nicolas asking all the questions though. It made me feel like I was wrong so many years ago when I ran from him. But there is absolutely nothing I can do about it now; all I can do is try to explain my reasoning behind my decision and go from there he will hate me even more than he hates me now or he will understand. Obviously, I was hoping he will understand but for now all our attention should be on Nikki. I saw a man walking towards Nicolas with a McDonalds bag I actually recognized him it was Nicolas’s mom and dad’s driver I walked over to him “Geoffrey?” I asked “Miss Nicol how lovely to see you again.” I walked to the older man and hugged him “And you” “It’s been a long time.” He said I heard Nicolas’s mumbling “12 years to be exact.” “How have you been?” “I’m good Miss Nicol but I take it you not as good if you are here?” “No, it’s not me in fact I work here but my daughter is sick.” Nicolas was next to me saying it for the first time to someone else I know of “OUR DAUGTER” The look on Geoffrey’s face was one of pure shock. “I take it she’s almost 12?” “Yes” was all I said. He pulled me in for a hug and whispered in my ear “Now I understand.” Then he gave the bag to Nicolas and walked away. If only Nicolas will be willing to understand without me telling him why I did what I did.”

When we walked into the room Nicolas took the McDonalds bag and hide it behind him, I’m sure Nikki could smell it but at least he tried. “Do you understand what we are going to do Nikki?” The doctor asked her. “Yes, but will it be sore?” “No angel you won’t feel a thing they will give you medication that will make you sleep and then when you wake up everything will be over.” “Okay I’m sure I can handle that.” “See there is my sweet pea concurring all her fears today.” She actually smiled at Nicolas for saying that. I had to smile to. “Will you be with me mom?” “No angel I can’t go with you for that but I will be here when you wake up.” She tried Nicolas “And you Nicolas?” I gave him a look that he at least understood. “No sweet pea but I will also be right here waiting for you to come out.” “Okay then.” The theater porter came in unplugged the bed and started to push her to the door. “Wait” I told him. I went to Nikki and gave her a kiss on the forehead then Nicolas came closer “Can I get a hug sweet pea?” “Yes” She grabbed him around the neck and hugged him. “Okay now you can go.” I told the porter while whipping a tear from my eye.

Nicolas and I each took a seat in the empty room there was no Nikki between us now it was just the two of us. He took his phone and started to work not talking to me not asking questions nothing. While he was looking at his phone he said “You can take a nap I’ll wake you when she comes back.” “You sure?” “Yes, Nicol, I’m sure.” I wrapped myself in the blanket they gave me last night I set the recliner and as soon as my head hit the pillow I was out. That is how tired I was.

Nicolas

I got my first report from Jeff my private detective, the first report basically told me what I already knew, where she grew up, when her parents passed away, what she studied at NYU and when she left NYU that date will be forever in my mind I could have just as well tattooed it on my arm that is how often I think of that date. Then it got interesting, she moved to a China Town when she left me, she stayed in a one room apartment above the restaurant she worked at as a waitress. Apparently, the owner and his wife took her in because she was pregnant and helped her. ‘Well, that was nice of them’ I thought. She went to nursing classes during the night. I even got her bank statements. ‘Fuck’ I looked at her ‘How on earth did you survive.’ I asked as I was looking at her. I could see she was saving as much as she could only paying the bare minimum for everything, I didn’t even saw that she bought any cloths for herself in the period she was pregnant, how? “Why would you live like this if I could have given you everything you needed?” I said out load. “Was I such a bad person that you didn’t want me in your life?” She must have heard that “No Nicolas in fact you where the best person I’ve ever known that is why.” Before we could go into it further the porter came back with Nikki. That went quickly I though but when I looked at my watch she was almost gone for an hour. The doctor walked in behind her both Nicol and I got up and walked to him. “She did really good we got everything out and the lungs looks healthy now. I’m going to put her on a week’s antibiotics just until the wound is healed and then you can take her home tomorrow.” “You serious so soon?” I asked. “Yes, not need to keep her here anymore. Do you need more time off?” The doctor asked Nicol. I could see she was biting her lip. “I can’t afford to take more time off; I’ll ask her nanny to stay with her doc thank you.” I waited for the doctor to leave before I gave her my suggestion.