Chapter 149
Nicole
When we got home Nikki was still in the kitchen, I was in two minds, do I go say hi to her first or do I go to the bathroom and sort myself out first? But she beat me to it. “Mom is that you?” She called from the kitchen. Nicolas looked at me and smiled if he only knew the questions she was going to ask when she sees me. He took my hand and we walked into the kitchen. “Hi angel.” “Hi mom.” She got up and gave me a hug moving to Nicolas and giving him one to. We sat at the table with her while she was eating, I wasn’t hungry not with everything that happened today. Nikki looked at me then at Nicolas “Did the two of you fight?” She asked looking at Nicolas. “No Sweet Pea why would we fight?” “I don’t know grown ups fight and it’s clear mom has been crying.” Before Nikki could go of on Nicolas I jumped in “No Angel it’s my allergies, you know how I get sometimes.” I’ve been using that excuse since she could understand when something was wrong. “Allergies?” She asked not sure if she can believe me. “Yes, angel it’s just allergies.” “Then what’s with the ugly scarf?” Nicolas looked at me and raised his eyes he couldn’t believe his daughter was so observant.
“Someone at the shelter gave me the scarf as a thank you gift.” “For what?” “Jeez Louise why the third degree?” “Well, if you must know, when I got home you weren’t here then dad comes home and suddenly disappears without telling me his going anywhere and now you are back and it looks like you cried the whole day and you have a weird scarf on.” Nicolas must have taken pity on me, “Sweet Pea I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I was leaving I just wanted to get your mom before it got too late, nothing else is wrong okay.” “You promise? We not going to have to move or something?” And there it was the root of all the questions, the fear was real loosing Nicolas was what was bothering her. “God no Sweet Pea, you and your mom is stuck with me not even if your mom and I do fight will I ever let you guys go, never worry about that okay?” “I sort of do worry about that.” I was exhausted, mentally and physically after the day I had but I had to set my daughters mind at ease, but I wasn’t going to lie to her not about this. “Angel look at me.” She turned from Nicolas and looked at me “I promise you if anything ever happens, we will speak to you okay. I want to believe nothing will ever happen but I’m not going to lie, you and I both know shit happens in life but your dad and I will always talk to you there is nothing to worry about I promise you.” Nicolas looked at me clearly not happy with my answer. “Okay I believe both of you.” “Well then, you okay now sweet pea?” “Yes dad, can I be excuse from the table I want to go shower and watch some TV in my room.” “Yes, off course.” She first walked to Nicolas and hugged him then she whispered in his ear, load enough that I could hear her, “I liked your answer better.” He just started to chuckle. “Love you sweet pea.” Then she came to me and hugged me “Hope you feel better tomorrow mom.” “Me to angel, I’ll come and tuck you in later.” “Okay.”
Nicolas
I couldn’t believe Nikki was so observant that she even notices the scarf and the fact that she gave both of us the third degree. I however didn’t like the fact that Nicol told her shit could happen, in other words shit can go wrong with us, I didn’t like that statement at all, when Nikki was in her room and I heard the door close I asked Nicol “Why did you tell her that?” “What Nicolas?” I could see she was tired and this was probable not the right time to speak about it but still. “The fact that shit happens she doesn’t need to know that, we will sort things out, do you really think I will ever let you go?” “I’m not going to lie to her Nicolas shit does happen, do you think any of those women in that shelter thought their lives will turn out the way it did.” “No but this” he waved a finger between us “This is different, I lost you once I’m not going to lose you again Nicol never ever again, my life was empty without you and Nikki in it.” “I understand Nicolas, I just want her to know that anything can happen in life, life isn’t a fairy tale.” “I would prefer that our daughter still believe in fairy tales Nicol.” “Okay okay I’m not going to argue with you, I’m tired, my head is killing me all I want to do is get in a hot shower and sleep.” She got up from the table and turned her back to me “Nicol you need to eat.” She turned around but gave me a look, a look I really didn’t like. “I’m not hungry.” Then she was out of the kitchen. “Fuck what do I do know?” I thought to myself.
I took the food Isabella put in front of me and started to eat, when I thought of something, “Isabella is there still some lasagna left?” “Yes.” “Can you dish me some of that but just a small helping and warm it up please, maybe I can get her to eat that.” “Okay Nicolas.” After I had a plan of making Nicol eat, I could enjoy the food that was in front of me. When I was done, I grab Nicol’s plate and a soda, some pain meds and walked to the room. I heard the shower just turn off after a while she appeared dressed in her comfy PJ’s. “I need to go tug Nikki in.” “I’ll do it, you get into bed, and try to eat some of last nights lasagna.” “Nicolas, I told you I’m not hungry.” I just looked at her with puppy eyes. Eventually I got a smile from her “You know I can’t say no to anything if you make a face like that.” “Good eat, I’ll be right back.” I said with a huge smile walking out of the room to go and tuck Nikki in.