Chapter 111

Nicolas

Rika walked into my office and immediately begin to talk we didn’t even have to say anything.  “I need you guys to promise you won’t talk to her about what I’m going to tell you.”  Both Nicol and I looked at each other not sure about if we should promise anything.  “Okay let me put it this way if you not going to promise I won’t tell you.  I need to keep her trust in me and by telling you what happened I already betraying that trust but it’s something I would want to know if it was my child.”  “Well then spit it out.”  I said.  “Not until you promise you won’t say anything.”  “Fine I won’t say anything.” Nicol said.  “I can’t promise you that not if she’s getting hurt.”  “Nicolas just promise her okay.”  Nicol must have an A’s up her sleeve to get around this whole promise thing.  “If you do tell her, you can just as well fire me because she won’t trust me anymore and our relationship will be ruined.”  “Okay I won’t say a thing.”  I promised.  “Okay good.  Zoe didn’t bully her today but a boy did.”  She got quiet letting that sink in for a minute or two.  “Wait what?”  Nicol was the first to ask.  “Yes, there is a boy in her class that started bullying her today apparently, I spoke to her and ask her if it happened before and she assured me it didn’t that the whole thing was new.  I then investigated and found out this boy is new in the class, but I also think she has a crush on him and that is why it hurt so much.”  “What did he say to her?”  I asked because I needed to know.  “Well, that is where it gets difficult.”  “Just spit it out Rika.”  “The teasing was more about you.  He told her she had a whore of a father.”  “What?”  Nicol almost screamed. “He also said the possibility that she was really yours are zero and she should stop being so gullible. Because it was clear that not only was her father a whore her mother was one to.”  “Who is this fucker?”  “His name is Kevin Dyson.  They moved here for his father’s work.”  “Frome where?” Nicol was dead quiet to quiet.  “From Florida.”  “Is that all?”  “Yes.”  “Okay you keep an eye on her please.”  “I will and you won’t say anything?”  “No, we won’t.”  Nicol said.  When Rika left the office, Nicol wiped the tears from her eyes.  I pulled her to me and just held her.

“What are we going to do Nicolas.”  She asked crying into my chest.  “We need a way to talk to her.”  “We promised Rika and Rika is right if we say anything she would know Rika told us and that will cause more problems, she won’t trust Rika anymore.”  “Isn’t there a way around it, shouldn’t we talk to her about my past relationship and why I did it?”  “We can do that but do you really want her to know you slept with half of New York?”  Nicol asked.  It was a low blow but I understood where she was coming from.  “Well, I’ll rather have her hear it from me than some fucking bully.”  “Okay and the fact that I’m a whore to and she might not even be yours.”  “Let’s show her pictures of us together in Uni that will put her mind at ease, go down memory lame for the night, tell her things we used to love doing.”  “You still have photos of us?”  “Off course I do I never threw them away. And you?”  “I have a box full of photos and cards you gave me even a flower or two.”  “Okay so we have a plan we are going to bring her into our Uni days?”  “Okay it’s a beginning.”

Nicol

I couldn’t believe this fucking child was messing with my child telling her that her father might not be her father and that both of us where whores, who gave him the right, but I did understand Rika’s point of few.  I think Nicolas and I came to a good solution for one of the problems and I was sure Nikki would love going down memory lane with us.  Nikki was quiet through out dinner, I asked a few times what’s wrong but she just said nothing, she was very excited about the sleep over but Nicolas and I haven’t talked about it yet this issue with Kevin was more pressing.

After dinner Nicolas told Nikki “Your mom and I have a surprise for you.”  “Oh, really can I go to the sleep over?”  Nicolas looked at me and I at him, I just nodded at him.  “Yes, sweet pea you can.”  “Oh, yippee thank you daddy thank you.” She grabbed him around the waist and hugged him.  “You should thank your mom to.” Nicolas said.  She walked to me and hugged me as well. “Thank you, mom.”  “My pleasure angel but that is not the surprise.”  “Then what is.”  “Let’s go to the living room then we’ll show you.”  “Okay.”  She was already in a better mood.  When we walked into the living room both Nicolas and I have put our boxes on the table.  “What is this?”  “We want to take you on a trip down memory lane?”  “Oh, okay?”  She asked a bit confused.  “We want to show you pictures of me and your dad when we where still in Uni.”  “Seriously.”  “Yes, angel seriously.”  She open Nicolas’s box first, right on the top was his diary I remember it like yesterday he was always writing in that diary.  “Can I read this.”  “When you a bit older sweet pea.” Nicolas said as he took the book from her.  Interesting. I thought.  She took out the photo’s and went through them, there were pictures of the two of us lying on the grass studying, I always loved that photo.  “Is this you?”  She asked Nicolas.  “It is, why?”  “Because we look alike.”  “I know you look like the girl version of me.”  Nicolas said smiling at her.  I saw a smile form on her face.  She took out a picture of me in my ballet cloths “Wow mom is this really you?”  “It is angel.”  “You look so beautiful.” “Thank you.”  She took every photo and examine everyone of them, she took a few cards out of the box recognizing my hand writing and read the one card out loud, I think it was a Valentines Day card, she read,

“To my forever love, Nikki

I love you more than words could ever say.

I will love you for always and always.

Your angel

Nicol”

It was short and sweet but it must have meant something to Nicolas if he kept it all these years. “You called dad Nikki?”  “I did” “Is that why my name is Nikki?”  I looked at Nicolas it looked like he wanted to cry “Yes angel that is why I named you Nikki and why I call you angel as well it always made me feel closer to your dad.”  “Which means you are really my dad?”  Nikki asked Nicolas with huge blue eyes, eyes that look just like her fathers.