Chapter 21: Help Wanted

SEBASTIAN.

I knew I kind of rushed her with the offer, but I desperately wanted her by my side. I knew that the feeling was not mutual, but I didn’t mind, as long as she was here. There was no way I could understand my turmoil right now, but I was doing my best not to unleash it.

I spent the last few days wondering what it would have been like if we didn’t stop our bursts; if we had given free rein to the passion that dwelt in us. One thing was certain. Although she did not let this for me to see, it convinced me that there was a struggle in Teresa’s soul. There were thousands of questions, such as why a human?

Teresa had that sort of brightness that I never saw on anyone, not even in Bella. My poor Bella. I was sure she was seeing all my battles here. I once promised her I would never look for my Luna? How selfish was that?

And if Teresa was indeed my other half, my soulmate, then it was time to act. I would not let her escape. I would respect her decision of not wanting, but as far as I was concerned, she was also way too deep in this.

“I don’t think I understand what you just said. You want me to start...today? As in, now?”

My decision definitely amazed her, and not expecting it to sound like that. It took her a moment or two to sink in the information. A large gulp into a certainly dry mouth because of the shock. That was the only thing she could do. Yes, amazement does not quite cover it. It was more likely trauma. That kind of impact I had on her.

I really wished I had the chance to talk to her much, to know her thoughts, to extinguish that fire within her. But if that was just a dream, then I don’t want to wake up. She was still staring at me in awe, probably wondering what she had done to deserve this. Even if I was generous, things developed quickly, and she surely was thinking I just didn’t give a damn about her resume. It was true that I didn’t look at the document and she was not stupid. She realized that the sole reason I offered her the opportunity starting today was just a trick of mine to keep her close. She couldn’t be righter.

“That was exactly what I meant. So, what do you say? Will you accept my offer?” I also took minor advantage of her desperate situation. I knew she could not say no. She needed this job.

“I don’t know if I am doing the right thing, but I accept... I mean, I have to, you know…”

“Don’t worry, you don’t need to explain yourself. So, your first assignment is to bring me a coffee. I drink it black, short and strong, that is an espresso” her levels of rage were alarming; she was throwing fire through those pretty eyes she had. Her anger was boiling up, but somehow, she restrained. I won the first battle. But there was a war to attain. She complied and nervously left the office in her quickened step. At that very moment, Liam entered, displaying a confused grimace. But also with a wide smile, asking me with only one look.

“What just happened? Why did she leave like that?” But when he wanted to ask again, he stopped. His eyes became enormous, and suddenly he realized something. That exact thing. “You wait just a minute, Bash. It’s the same scent I’ve felt in the last few days and don’t even try to deny it. I can read the guilt on your face.” oh well, what was the point now in denying it?

“Ok, I will tell you everything. She is Teresa Bradley, the woman that has kept me awake all these days. And the same that I wonder about. She is human, Liam, and just by seeing her, my entire being goes ballistic. My wolf is restless.”

If I thought better, I wouldn’t get along with him at all. In vain, I told him to stop. He had a life of his own. He didn’t give a damn about what I thought or felt.

“You already told me before about her being a human. And you know my answer, Alpha! If she is your destiny, don’t let her go. Even if it raises endless questions, even if the nights become agitated by her absence, even if the days become a continuous hunt for her, you set up in your head a single purpose, having her in your life!”

“Easier said than done, Liam. She is different. She is independent and as far as I could see, she loves her freedom. "

“But, Bash, you are not chaining her, you are loving her. Be patient, fight for her, and what is more important, let nothing happen to her.”

Liam was entirely right. I was falling for this woman. But now knowing what her feeling was driving me insane. I could say a new love, but I needed first to heal myself. The wound Bella left in me was still vivid, and I just could not let that stand in our way. Maybe it was selfish, maybe I will end up judged, but when the time would come, I would make room for a new love. This time eternal. My love for Teresa was real, but it was a quiet emotion that I, for now, could not show or to breathe. I was faithful to Bella, to our unborn child, but this might be the last time when I shall speak about her. It was like she has given me the sign I have been waiting for. Because if I wanted to love again, I must be free, and Bella just gave me that freedom I needed the most.

My soul had been alone for so long that now it was almost uncertain if he could have such a feeling. This new tenderness would heal me, heal my brain and my heart. I know it would be silly, but I just loved how our words weaved together in awareness, in realizing that even sarcastic those words could have caught deep through our essence. The reflection of her body in my mind was just like a whisper of my imagination and that made me weak, paralyzed, and made me realize that there was no belief, no anchor for me, just desire and the pain of waiting for her; even if it was for eternity.

“I can focus on that. As long as I am around, nothing bad will happen to her. And that is my oath!”

“Good! Now that we have sorted this out, how about calling our supplier? I was thinking, with his alchemy knowledge, he might give us a straight answer, whether this serum can happen?”

“That is most likely. Killian is a professional. I am sure he would get us out of this mess!” and right about then I reached for my cell phone. There’s got to be a way to settle this out. On the second call, Killian’s voice echoed in me. I didn’t get the chance to greet him properly.

“Sebastian, how nice to hear from you! You haven’t called me in a while. Is everything all right? Do you need something?” it really thrilled him to hear me, but I had to admit I was more. I needed his skills in this equation. I required the right person, and he was that person.

“Everything is fine, well personally, other than you already know, nothing new. But professionally I could use some help”

“What do you need, Sebastian?” his voice changed instantly. I was in need and he might want to help.

“Look, I want you to tell me if there is any possibility of getting me pure iron. "

“Is there something I can’t get? Don’t worry, leave this on me. For when do you need it?”

“Like yesterday!”

“Oh, that quick? Consider it done. Give me two days and you shall have it delivered to your door!”

“Killian?”

The concern with which I uttered his name left a little peace between us. He knew me well. I asked for his advice in the past too, so he knew when something was bothering me.

“Yes…”

“Answer me this, but straight, bluntly if you want, and with all your accumulated knowledge. Is there any possibility I can create a serum that will speed up the healing process? In other words, can it annihilate silver?” his answer came right away like asked, and to be honest I would not expect any other from an expert like him.

“Positive, absolutely yes! You just have to find the right ingredients. And you can create undoubtedly a revolutionary era, where only the strongest survive!”