Chapter 30 Chapter 30
"That’s your problem, Jade! Your mind! You overthink too much! You suspect everything! I just fell asleep on you, and you’re already mad. I just told you something, and you’re already crying. I don’t update for a bit, and you think I’m cheating on you! The problem with you is you want my attention on you 24/7! What part of LDR do you not understand? I have work! What do you want me to do? Drop everything just to answer you?!"
My heart shattered at Jett’s words. I didn’t expect that staying up late tonight just to wait for him and talk to him would cause this big of a fight. I only wanted to ask for a good luck kiss because my board exam is tomorrow. Was that wrong?
"You know what, Jade? It’s better if you just go to sleep. I’m ending this VC. I’m getting annoyed at you. I’m stressed from work, and you’re adding to it."
My face drained in embarrassment. Where was I being excessive? I never got mad when he fell asleep on me. At first, yes, I got annoyed because I felt like he was leaving me hanging, but I understood that he was tired. And I only cried because it felt like I was the one who was always wrong and bad. Is it bad to ask for an update because I’m worried about him? I love him so much that I can’t help but think if he’s okay. I never once thought he had another woman.
"Jett… I’m sorry. Please, don’t end the call. Please, let’s not go to sleep like this. You said before, right? We won’t sleep angry at each other?" I said gently. I tried to calm his temper, and I tried to stop my tears because I felt like he was getting annoyed by how often I cried.
"Well, things are different now, Jade. We’re adults. We have our own responsibilities. I’m working. You? You’re a bum. Since your family’s rich, you have all the time in the world to think of nonsense. You’re grown. You can’t rely on me for everything. Your world revolves around me too much. It shouldn’t. Fix yourself. Bye."
He hung up. I closed my eyes as the sound of the call ending repeated in my ears. It became the worst tune in this world, and I hate it every time I hear it. As if it were a premonition that our relationship is nearing its end.
"Before, even if you were busy, you found a way to talk to me. You’re the one who came into my life first, Jett… I was peaceful… Now why does it feel like I’m the one struggling and scared of losing you? Why am I the one chasing in the end? You’re the one who courted me at the start."
I was brought back to reality when I saw that Hendeix and I were already on the train. Just earlier, we were arguing again. How many more fights do we have to go through just to understand each other better? Sometimes it makes me feel like I don’t want to get to know him anymore. Everything just becomes more complicated. I wish I had just kept quiet and stayed content.
I was staring out the window when I felt Hendeix’s head lean against mine. I turned to him. His eyes were closed, and his breathing was deep and steady.
"Did you fall asleep already? We’re still on our way to the Colosseum, right? Huz?" I asked, but got no answer. I sighed and gently held his head, guiding it to rest on my shoulder. Because he’s so tall, I don’t even know how much he’s bending just so I can lean his body toward me. I want him to be comfortable while he naps.
I took my phone, not knowing I would regret it. Just like what I saw the other day when I heard I was trending in the Philippines, I received a lot of notifications, and one of them was a message from Daddy asking about me. I wanted to answer him, but I didn’t have the courage to show myself to him. And especially to Mommy. I still remember the things she did before—things I couldn’t control or stop her from doing.
From: Daddy
Jadey, I'm always here. I love you.
–end of message–
Tears fell from my eyes, but I wiped them away because another message request from Mommy popped up. I sighed before hovering over her message to take a peek. There were a lot of messages, and I regretted viewing all of them.
From: Mommy
Where are you right now?
Does Jett know this?
What do you mean you're married now?
Are you really rebelling against me?
It's just been three years since you left home, and still you're doing your best to embarrass me.
Come home and we'll talk. I'll forgive you if you stop this nonsense of yours. I'll arrange dinner with Jett.
–end of message–