Chapter 14 Chapter 14
"Here, my wife."
I TURNED TO Hendeix when he handed me his handkerchief. My forehead creased.
"What is this for?" I asked while in frown.
"I forgot to wipe you earlier because you immediately ran away."
"Huh? What are you talking about?"
I was shocked when he kneeled in front of me again. I immediately backed away and held my breath. I even held his head away from me.
"H-hey! Stop there! Don't you dare, Hendeix!"
He held my hand, making me instantly weak.
"I know, I'm just trying to wipe you down here. I promise, I won't try to do something again."
"But you're starting something again."
He looked up and continued wiping my lower part. He didn’t have to do this. I just forgot, but I could have gone to the bathroom.
"I'm holding myself back because... I made a mistake. You must be mad at me, Mori."
I couldn't speak and just stared at him. My breathing deepened even more.
He’s right that there's an anguish in my heart, but not toward him.
I am the one afraid of getting pregnant because I don’t want to have a child yet. And besides, what are we to have a child? We don’t even love each other to build a family. We just got married abruptly. We don’t even have a clear conversation about how far we’re supposed to go. And also, we wouldn’t even be able to raise the child properly. What do we even know about that? I also think his mind is full of business. He’s not the type who’d want to have a child immediately, especially now that he’s at the peak of his career. And based on what I know about men, they only want the pleasure, not the hardship. They don’t like responsibility.
"I didn't do it on purpose, I promise. I was just so into it and I was about to withdraw, but you pushed yourself hard towards me. I couldn't—"
"I know. You don't have to explain yourself. It's not merely your fault. I was also caught off guard by the announcement. Don't worry, I will pray that nothing comes out positively next month. So, come back to your seat now," I stated coldly.
He gulped hard. The dark aura occurred to him at the same time he stood up. And that shut me up for the entire trip. He's also not talking at all. His face is gloomy, serious, and scary. It was just earlier when we were joking around, and now, we've become like this—distant even though we're just inches away.
I was in deep thought when I decided to look outside the window—observing the skyline. I smirked my thoughts off, realizing that even the sky has its line, a border that separates the sky from the city. And that's what I feel now, yes, even if Hendeix Larvarre got married to me, we still have the boundary we shouldn't cross. And that boundary is still unraveled since we still have no proper conversation about what happened to us.
Thinking about us—that's when I caught myself asleep. The next thing I knew, it was already morning, and I was between my husband's arms, leaning on his chest. His coat is also covering my upper body. Did he do this?
I gulped as I observed his face. I must really be in heaven—seeing an unearthly handsome face that stole my breath without asking; his pointed nose and tall bridge that I want to take, long lashes that make me insecure, lustful lips that I wanted to taste every now and then—everything is perfect—devastatingly gorgeous. Together with his tousled hair that begged to be touched and played with, his sinful build made every woman curious about who this lucky girl riding his body was. Well, I am. I am that girl who's willing to taste the war and tenderness when it's with him.
"Hmm..." he moaned as he slowly opened his eyes. The moment he completely saw me, I noticed his pupil dilated. We were too close to each other.
"You're awake," he commented as he moved himself gently.
I just nodded and answered him in my low voice. "Yeah, just a couple of minutes ago."
"I see. Where are we then?"
"Still in the plane, 30 to 45 minutes before we land. That's what I heard from the announcement."
"I see."
Silence once again filled the space between us, but now, it felt bigger. I didn’t know what was going on or if it was because of what happened last night. It was difficult for me because we still haven’t had a proper conversation. We just took everything home and slept on it. I really hope we get that chance to dig into what happened because I want clarity on what kind of marriage he even wants, because first of all, we did this abruptly. And it seems like I stepped on a bomb already, that’s why he’s barely paying attention to me now.