Chapter 80 80
Vanessa's POV
"Urgh!!!" I screamed out in frustration.
Where did I keep it?
"Damn girl! Your room look like shit" Rebecca chuckled, sitting on my bed.
I turned to look at the mess I made. It wasn't much but a lot of irrelevant papers and old rusted stuff were laying on the ground.
"I'm looking for something. I can't find it" I groaned, arranging the drawer back
"What's that?" She asked
"My contact book. Its filled with important contacts" I could literary cry right now out of frustration but whenever I think of my age, I'll just comport myself.
"Have you checked everywhere?"
"Isn't it obvious enough?" I snapped
"Bitch, watch your tone. I wasn't the one who misplaced your damn note" She yelled at me
"Sorry" I sighed, feeling bad for transferring aggression
"You better be" She said, laying on the bed. "I didn't see you at the end of Matthew's birthday. That was 2 days ago yeah?"
"Yeah" I simply said
"I thought you went home with Richard. Until I saw him with Paula again. I don't even know why he keeps treating her gently. He asked of you but I ignored him" She sighed loudly.
"Richard!" I said in realization
"Huh?" Becca looked at me weirdly
"I think I left it in his house!" I smiled.
"Ohhhh. We can go check tomorrow" She said
"Nope. I'll go today" I started picking up the important things from the ground, to place them in their rightful position
"I came to see you briefly babes. I don't think I can go with you today" She said, sitting up
"I'll be fine. Besides I said I will go. First person pronoun" I smirked at her
"My bad. However, I can call Bryan to -"
"No. I got this. I'm not scared of him" I laughed. "I doubt he'll be around. I'll just breeze in and out. That's all"
"Well, don't hesitate to call me if he puts up any nasty move that you don't like." Becca said, standing up
"I might not call you for that but I might call you to come help me move his body from the house and clean up any trace that'll lead us to jail" I smirked at her
"I'm sorry bestie but I'll pass. Call Chelsea"
"Chelsea? Haven't you heard that blood is thicker than water? Even if her brother was the villain in the story, she'd not want to aid me in killing him. Her only brother for that matter" I said
"That's not a real friend then" Becca shook her head
"You're one to talk" I burst into laughter.
"Okay, I'm off" She said, strolling out. "You should learn to lock your door though"
"I let it opened cos you called to tell me that you were on your way to see me" I frowned, standing up from where I was seated, following her out of my room
"I don't like that Paula" Becca said, stopping at the door.
"You needed to see the evil look she gave me when she saw Richard and I together. I swear, that girl knows what she's doing. I tell you" I shook my head
"Are you not going to do anything about it?"
"Me? It's always a waste of time trying to fight for a confused man." I rolled my eyes
"It's the worth the try" She shrugged
"Nah, at times it can be fruitless." I gently pushed her out of my house. "I need to get that contact book before he gets back from work."
"Fine, I'm going!" She hugged me before entering her car.
"Bye!" I waved before entering back into my house. I locked the door and went to conclude the unfinished business I had with my room.
I had to clean up and freshen up in 1 hour time so I can hurriedly go pick up my contact book before Richard comes back from work.
What if he didn't go to work?
Oh no, please!
"Hey Mateo!" I smiled at the big man I've gotten used to
"Hi ma'am! It's been a while" He said
"I think that's the most I've heard you say" I laughed, giving him the gift I got for him on my way here.
"Thank you" He said, smiling a little.
"You just smiled?" I pointed out
"No ma" He shook his head
"I'm glad I don't have eye problem. I'll let you lie this time though because I'm in a hurry to get something" I said, punching the passcode to unlock the door.
Oh shit! Someone's here.
It could be Nanny Vee. I mean, only she handles the kitchen around here. I was about calling out her name when Paula strolled out of the kitchen.
"What are you doing here?" Paula asked, looking at me from up to down
What am I doing here?
"I don't think I owe you any explanation for barging into my man's house" I said, rolling me eyes
"Your man?" She scoffed. "Why's it taking you so much time to realize that your time is up. He's back to the main deal. That's me" She laughed
"Main deal? Stop fooling yourself girl. I'm sure he fucks you and 5 others. I'm sorry you think you're the main deal" I patted her shoulder lightly
"You-"
"Vanessa?" Richard suddenly appeared, surprised and scared. Scared?
"Oh hey, B. Vanessa is here. I was asking her to sit and wait for since you were on an important call but she refused" Paula smiled sweetly at Richard.
"Really? You said that?" I raised my eyebrow at her
"I.. I did"
"Learn to stand your ground and don't ever stutter when you lie. It doesn't sell the story" I smiled at her before walking past her
"Vanessa.." Richard said, following me to the room
"I promise, I'm not here to stay okay? I only came to look for something." I said, opening the room door
"Can you just listen to me?" He snapped, locking the door once we both entered
I was avoiding this.
"Give me 10 minutes to look for what brought me here okay?" I said, walking to the drawer.
"Sure" He said, sitting on the couch, staring at me intensely. "I can help you if you want"
"Seen it" I said, bringing out the Black jotter. I opened it to make sure it's really it. Bingo! I got it.
Now how do I get out of this.
Do I tell him I want to throw up and need water to suppress it? Or should I say I have -
"Stop that. I know you're trying to come up with an excuse." He said, snapping me out of my thought.
"Okay, I'm listening. Mainly because I have no choice" I sat on the bed. I didn't want to sit near him
"So I tried telling you about letting Paula stay over for few months until she finds a place to stay" He said
"That's so thoughtful of you" I smiled
"Really?"
"Yes, Richard" I nodded
"Everytime you talk, you always agree to whatever I say but then your actions says otherwise. Your eyes says something different." Richard said, staring at me
"I think you're reading me wrongly then" I shrugged, admiring the design on the book.
"Vanessa you sent my calls to voicemails. I came to your house knocking but you never opened. I came to your office but they wouldn't let me see you. Why?" He glared at me
"All those happened?" I gasped, acting surprised.
"I'm not 5, Cupcake."
"Okay, I guess we're done here. I've listened to you talk yeah?" I said, standing up
"No. We're not done" He blocked my path
"What now?" I groaned.
"This is suffering. This whole calmness towards everything that's going on is making me feel like I'm losing you"
"Losing?" I laughed. "You should turn that to past tense"
"Huh?"
"I didn't bargain for this, please. Let me pass" I moved to the right but he blocked me again
"We're not done talking!" He yelled, holding my arm
"Don't fucking touch me!" I snapped, slapping his hands away from me.
"What's the matter? What did I do wrong?" He asked, lowering his voice
"Do you think you did or are doing anything wrong?" I asked and he shook his head in response. "Good. No right? So what's the issue here? You're right and not wrong at all"
"You don't know what that girl has been through for 3 years! She was abducted!" He yelled
"Are you serious?" I gasped
"I see you don't get it." He laughed painfully.
"I don't. Now move!" I pushed past him, unlocking the door.
"You're so hard hearted." He said
"I'm hard hearted?" I turned to face him, shutting the door once again. I didn't need her to hear anything. "You chose her over me and I'm trying to live my life without breaking and now I'm the hard hearted one?!" I yelled
"No, I..."
"Ever since you saw her at France, haven't you been so withdrawn and a bit off? Haven't you?" I poked his chest. "Now, I'm the hard hearted one for refusing to show you how much your actions hurt me" I yelled.
"Do you want me to throw her out of my house? It's MY house anyway and I get to decide who comes in and who doesn't. If you're not fine with my decision then fucking go!" He snapped back at me.
"Then I want to beg you. Please do not ever in your life come back for me. We're done." I said.
"Huh?" He looked at me with disbelief. "What do you mean? Don't do that."
"Get your shit together. You're old enough to make decisions yourself! Have a happy reunion with your first love and leave me the fuck out of it. I beg you!" I opened the door and ran out before the tears spilled.
I ran to my car and locked it before crying. I've been trying to be strong for weeks now. If not a month.
I should've known this wouldn't last forever.
Immediately I saw Richard outside searching for me, I drove off.
After today, I promise to never shed tears over spilled milk.
I'm Vanessa Willow. I speak elegance and attraction. I can't let one goddamn sick bastard break me. Never.