Chapter 53: Chapter Fifty-Three

Olivia

I was looking through the internet for a wedding dress designer. It was proving to be a hard task. I sent out emails to some that I saw, I was mostly looking up at starting designers, ones that were fresh from designer school. Maybe even one who has never traveled before. But most importantly I was looking for someone who could come here to start their design and finish it. Obviously it would mean that I provide with everything.

Money was not a problem. I had a card that Jason had given me for everything wedding. He didn't hand it to me though, he just put it in an envelope and put it on my desk back at my office. He didn't say anything, he actually gave it to Julia to put it on my desk. And he never said anything in regards to it after that. When I asked him about it he said, and I quote, "Do you think it would make me a good husband if I let my wife pay for her own wedding?"

So Yesterday when we spoke about his idea of finding someone from out of the country I asked him if the person can come over to design the dress and he said yes. I figure it's not going to be something big anyway since I just want a straight dress. Jason went out today, he said he was going to meet with Joe and my brothers, so I'm sitting alone in the house bored out of my mind. Maybe getting pregnant was a good thing, my babies can keep me company.

My phone rings then and I pick it up thinking that it's Jason, but it's not. The person calling me though makes a smile appear on my face and I squeal as I answer the phone. We speak every other day, but this past week has been hectic so we haven't spoken much.

"My God I've missed you so much." I tell her after calming down.

"I know, do you want to video call?" She asks me.

"Girl of course I do, I haven't seen you in so long." I say and she tells me to connect her on my side.

After we connect on video call, I ask her how she's been and she tells me she's good and I'm happy for her.

"I'm getting used to getting married, I mean Demetrius is making sure of it." She says laughing.

"What do you mean?" I ask because I can't help it. I want to be sure that this guy is treating her right.

"You know how when you're used to doing things alone and now you need to change how you do things because you have someone to consider?" She asks and I understand what she means. "I mean, I no longer work. I actually just sit around doing nothing important all day. It's frustrating really. But Demetrius says it's for my own safety. I don't even know what the guy does on a daily basis." She continues and I see that she really is frustrated.

"I'm sorry. Maybe you should try to talk to him?" I offer. Her situation is worse than mine, because although Jason was the one to suggest my leaving work, I'm the one who made the final decision.

"He doesn't want to listen, I tried reasoning with him but he doesn't want to listen." She says sadly and I feel bad that I have nothing but words to offer.

"Convince him through sex then." I blurt out.

"I would, but we haven't reached that stage yet." She says and now I see where all her frustration is actually coming from.

I was not ready for that revelation, not at all considering how Jason and I started.

"Then make it happen. Are you going to be able to stay with a man without being intimate?" I ask her because I wouldn't. I couldn't even do it with my boss.

"I don't know how...I. kinda still a virgin you know." She drops another bombshell.

Desiree is not the type of girl to stay a virgin, she is too sexy for that. But I get it really, even though I don't know her reasons. Men of this world are cruel, I mean considering the guy who broke my virginity broke my heart, I don't blame her at all.

I smile at what she says. "I wanna meet this husband of yours, because I would have shagged you was I not engaged." I tell her, then something clicks in my mind. "Maybe he's gay." I say and she laughs, full on laughing.

"Oh no he is definitely not, believe me. Although I don't understand why he hasn't touched me yet." She says. At least I was able to cheer her up.

We talk more about her marriage then move on to mine. When I tell her she must be back for my wedding because she is the maid of honour, she becomes happier and tells me she will work on coming. As we are talking, she tells me her husband is home and that we will talk some other time and we disconnect.

I haven't heard from my own man for those two hours. And although I'm not so bored, I miss him. But I understand we can't be together all the time. It's also times like these that I wish I wasn't an only girl child. I love my brothers but men can't understand women like women do. Which is why I was always happy I had Scarlett and after our friendship ended, Desiree. It's also another reason why I want a big family. Both girls and boys.

My hand goes to my tummy as I wish I am carrying girls. Maybe it will be a good idea after all that while I am getting a midwife Jason and I go for a scan every month, speaking of which, Jason has a baby book. And I'm not talking about a magazine, I'm talking about those memory books for children. It has the first and second scan from the doctor.

Anyway, we finally spoke about the midwife thing and Jason like it. I swear Jason is more my mom's son than I am his daughter. I am not jealous though. We both spoke to my mother and she said I shouldn't worry because we have a family midwife. Or more like there's a hospital that all the women in my family go to as soon as they get pregnant. It's a family tradition of some sort.

I've already gone to the hospital to see it and meet the woman who will be helping me during birth. Just like my mother, she told me not to take any medication but that I must always eat lots of fruit and vegetables and meat. She said on my last month's of pregnancy I must come so that they can massage me. But she said I could come anytime for the massage if I felt I needed it. I was sold.