Chapter 36: An Aching Void

Xu Zijin found it very hard to pander to his lust in bed. She didn't expect that he would be so crazy and rude in sex. When he began to move, she felt pain in the lower abdomen and almost thought that he was Fu Sinian.

But soon she rejected this conjecture.

Maybe it was because all men in the world had the brutish nature. No matter how gentle a man was in normal times, he would become a wild animal when he made love to his woman.

Furthermore, she told Fu Chen that she wanted to use him to forget Fu Sinian. Certainly he would get angry. Xu Zijin sorted herself out and began to do her best to loosen up and cater to him.

However, her obedience provoked Fu Sinian again. He turned her around and entered his body from behind, then started moving back and forth crazily.

When it was over, Fu Sinian leaned on the headboard and lit a cigarette. In the dark, the burning cigarette was glowing, like a snake sticking its scarlet tongue out.

He let his eyes settle upon Xu Zijin who had fallen into exhausted slumber. The loneliness and bitterness in his eyes were as thick as the dark night.

He had already got her and had several orgasms, but there was still an aching void in his heart.

He felt as if he was betrayed by his brother and his beloved woman. His heart ached with anger and sorrow.

Suddenly, Xu Zijin turned over with a smile of satisfaction on her lips, sleeping soundly and peacefully. Her smile was like a dagger stabbing him to the heart.

'How could she invite Fu Chen to make love with her? How could she sleep peacefully after sex with 'another man'? What she has done is really a betrayal of me!' he thought.

He leaned over to kiss her hard on her swollen lips.

His eyes reddened like two balls of fire.

"Xu Zijin, no matter you hate me or love me, you can only be my woman!"

Xu Zijin felt pain even in her sleep. She frowned and mumbled, then turned over and and fell asleep again.

After a long while, Fu Sinian finally let go of her. He threw the cigarette butt into the ashtray, lifted the quilt and got out of bed.

He went to his study and stood at the French window. A cold wind poured in through the window. He looked out over the whole city. Among those scattered myriads of twinkling lights, there must be many simple happiness dwelling in the lanes. But his happiness was already gone. Finally, he took out his mobile phone.

"Hello, I want you to do me a favor..."

His figure was reflected in the glass window. His eyes were as black as the gathering night.

A week later, Xu Zijin underwent the corneal transplants. The thought that she would soon recover her sight brought mixed feelings of trepidation and expectation to her.

Uneasy but eager, she looked forward to taking out her stitches.

However, she was a little upset because Fu Chen seldom came to see her. Every time they two met in the hospital, they lapsed into silence after exchanging a few words with each other.

Although Xu Zijin didn't point out this problem, her uneasiness deepened day by day.

She had heard from someone that all men had deep-rooted bad habits. Most of them wouldn't cherish the women who had already slept with them.

Suddenly, Xu Zijin began to regret her hasty decision.

But meanwhile, she firmly believed that Fu Chen was not that kind of man. He treated her very well and couldn't be such a playboy.

Unfortunately, she was still blind now and couldn't study his face. Otherwise, she could guess what he was thinking by reading his facial expressions. So she was eager to regain her sight.

At dusk Fu Chen came to see her again.

In the evening, she snuggled up to him. These days, she was accustomed to stay in his arms as if he had become a part of her life.

She felt secure and protected when she was with him.

His warm embrace gave her an inner sense of security which she had never felt even when she had been with Fu Sinian.

Her three years of marriage seemed a disaster because only in the Xu Mansion could she have the chance to sleep with Fu Sinian. The reason was that he had to do that to deceive her father.

When she lived in the Golden Beach Villa, she seldom saw Fu Sinian because he often stayed in the company all night. Even though he had come back home, he always stayed in his study all night.