Chapter 33

Ana was not used to things like this. It was shocking. And quite honestly, it took her off guard. She didn't know what the hell she was going to do now.

She walked towards the table slowly and looked at the objects on it. She stared at the carefully then picked up the bouquet of gardenias. They looked beautiful and smelled nice. And right next to them, a box of her favorite cookie brand.

Ana was moved like so hard. She knew the gestures would seem simple to some people but it had really touched her. And it made her emotional.

She noticed something else next to the cookies and picked it up. It was a baby pink envelope and it was so pretty. Ana awed a little.

She already knew who it was from. No need to play guess games. It was Jack. Hopefully anyways. He had realized how wrong he had been and had decided to apologise. If it wasn't him anyways, Ana was sure she was going to cry.

She kept the flowers down and opened the envelope. It was so sweet and it actually brought tears to her eyes. It read:

Ana, first off I want to tell you how sorry I am. I know I hurt you. And I know forgiveness is not easy. Trying to regain your trust will be the hardest thing I have ever done, but if you let me, I am willing to do everything to make up for every hurtful word I threw at you.

Hurting you was the last thing I intended to do and I just want you to know that I am sorry beyond the words I can put on paper.

In such a short while, you have become one of pillars of my very existence and losing you would almost mean losing the light in my life.

I can't promise to never hurt you. But I can promise to try my best to make you happy and if you give me the chance, I'll try to restore that faith I destroyed.

Call me if you (and the baby) think I deserve a second chance.

Love, Jack.

If this wasn't the most emotional thing Ana had ever read. It oozed with pure emotion and she was tempted to pick up her phone right there and call Jack and tell him Jack baby, you're forgiven.

But no, she wasn't going to do that. She had not replied to any of his texts or answered any of his calls. And she felt he deserved to stew in his self anguish a little bit more. After all, she was the one hurt so she was the one making the decision.

Ana put the letter back into the envelope and held it a bit lovingly. Then she sniffed it. It had some of Jack's cologne and it was a heavenly smell. It made her miss him even more.

She kept it in a lockable cupboard then picked up the cookies. She had not gotten anything to eat since morning and she was ravenous. Honestly, she preferred this to any other elaborate Jack would have made.

He understood that it was too soon for her to see him without chucking a shoe at his face. So he sent a letter. And he didn't pressurize her into answering or calling him. He acknowledged his faults and he didn't blame his shortcomings on her. For that she was extremely grateful.

"What do you think baby? Do you think we should forgive Daddy?" Ana asked rubbing her tummy.

For the first time since she had found out she was pregnant, she felt a light kick on the walls of her womb. Her eyes widened. Oh my God that was the most exciting thing to have ever happened to her.

The feeling was a pleasant one. It didn't hurt. The baby's kicks were light and fluttery and it was almost like someone had taken a feather and tickled her insides.

Ana wiped the emotional tear that fell down her cheek and laughed out loud. It felt like a confirmation that her baby was there. Yes, she had seen the pictures. Yes she had seen the baby on the ultrasound screen. But this. This just made it more real.

It was like it was in that moment that she was getting the realization that she was actually carrying another human, another life in her tummy.

She picked up her phone quickly and dialled Jack's number. As it was about to ring, she put it off. What the hell was she about to do?

It was like her mood was broken in that instant. Yes she felt happy that she had felt the baby move. But fuck it, she wanted to share the news with the baby's father and make him as excited as she was. But at that moment, she knew it would not be possible.

She called the next best option. She felt bad calling him that even in her mind. Like he was on second place in her mind and heart. Which was not the case. She loved Landon very much.

Even though of late, she had started feeling like Landon's feelings for her went way beyond the friendship place. But she was going to place that behind her for now. It sounded so cold hearted, but she really didn't need any stress in her life.

Discouraged by her thoughts, she put down the phone. She didn't want to call Landon simply because Jack was not available. In her head, it was all sorts or wrong. She knew she wouldn't want to be second place in someone's life, an afterthought, and she definitely didn't want Landon to feel like that.

She removed the letter again and stared at it. In her heart, she knew she had already forgiven Jack. But she needed to make him understand that she was not a puppet. He couldn't play with her like that and expect no consequences. She was human and if he expected them to have a relationship with each other, he was going to have to alter some of his mindsets.

She didn't know what had happened to him in the past to make him react like that. And maybe she was going to get to know in due time. But he had to know that whatever happened to him then was not a foreshadow on whatever was going to happen to him in the future.

She was here. And whoever had done whatever to him, if there was even someone like that, was no longer there.

Ana nodded in determination. She was going to call him. And she was going to tell him all that.