Chapter 31

Jack was tapping his foot on the floor of his office. Dammit he had fucked up. He had fucked up so badly. He didn't know if Ana was ever going to forgive him. And if she didn't, it would be completely understandable. His behavior had been disgusting.

Like what the hell was going through his head when he was telling Ana all those things? Calling her all sorts of names. He was just really pissed off and jealous.

He knew that was no excuse. He had no right to talk to her in that way. He had no right to insult her. And he had to no right to draw all those conclusions about her.

Fuck! He had fucked everything up. He had messed up. And he had proven that all of Ana's insecurity about him was kind of true. He was so disappointed in himself.

Jack took his ball point pen and started clicking it. The noise was annoying but it made him keep a steady stream of thought.

All of a sudden, he shot the pen to the opposite side of the room. He was fucking pissed off. He was fucking disappointed. And all that because of nobody but his own damn self. He had nobody else to blame.

Jack stood again and walked around the office. He didn't know why he had had that reaction. He was usually cool headed. But he had been so rash, so fucking impatient with Ana.

Instead of asking for an explanation, he had exploded. He needed to talk to someone. Anyone. He was going to get mad.

At that moment, Lucy knocked on his office and got in. She was holding some files in her hand and muttered a polite greeting and was about walking out when Jack held her hand.

"Wait. Please, Lucy. I want to ask you something," Jack said. Lucy looked surprised. Jack was sure that this was the first time he was showing her actual emotion. But honestly, he didn't care. In that moment, all he wanted was to find a solution to the fucked up situation he had caused.

It was like the situation had humbled him go an extent. Normally he'd be kind of demanding but he had actually asked Lucy nicely. And it left her intrigued. What or who the hell had made him like this?

Jack took Lucy's hand and dragged her to the chair opposite the one he usually sat on. Lucy was shocked. But she didn't say a word. Waited for him to settle and tell her whatsoever was bothering him.

"So I fucked up with this girl I have feelings for," Jack started and it kind of shattered Lucy's heart. But she kept a staring face, just nodded for Jack to continue.

In her head, this was her opportunity. Jack was vulnerable. And he was going to listen to her very easily. And she could very well take advantage of this opportunity.

"What happened?" Lucy asked, pretending to be all concerned.

Jack stared at her for a while. But it was like he didn't even know she was there. His stare was blank and impersonal.

"Jack?" Lucy asked, getting a little worried. Who was this girl that had managed to make Jack like this? And what had he done?

"Lucy. If your significant other told you you were an easy whore, would you ever forgive them?" he asked slowly, refocusing his gaze.

Lucy grew a bit confused. She wanted to tell him what he wanted to hear to please him but telling him that was not going to help her own case so she told him the exaggerated truth.

"I don't think I would, Jack. I mean, he supposed to be the one to protect me. So calling me that would mean he can't even defend me if ever anything were to happen to me," Lucy said.

She was lying. If it was Jack, sure she would pout around for a while and made sure he made up for his words. But she would forgive him. There was no doubt about that.

"So you don't think I have a chance?" Jack asked, squinting a little. Then he covered his eyes for a while before staring at Lucy again.

"I think you do. But a very slim one," Lucy finally said. What was she doing? It was simple. She didn't want Jack to feel she was telling him to drop everything simply because she had feelings for him. She wanted him to trust her.

"So what do you think I should do to ask for her forgiveness?" Jack asked, staring at Lucy intently in a way that made her blush. She knew he wasn't staring at her with any particular intention behind his mind but the look was heated alright.

"What does she like?" Lucy asked, leaning on the desk. She had grown comfortable. And it was obvious.

Jack opened his mouth to answer then shut it as a smile grew on his face. "You know what Lucy? Thank you for your help but I think I got this."

Lucy was confused and kind of pissed but she didn't make any comment. Just smiled and shot a generic I hope everything goes well and hightailed it out of there.

Of course she didn't hope everything went well. Left to her, she would have proposed the shittiest plan ever to Jack and he would have lost the girl. And who would he come back crying to? Her. But she didn't mind. Sooner or later, she was going to make her first move and it was going to be fucking bomb.

Meanwhile, in his office, Jack had a million different ideas running through his mind. He was coming up with a wild plan. And he sincerely hoped it was going to work.

He had fucked up. But he was willing to make up for it. And he hoped Ana was going to see his efforts and maybe think of forgiving him. Because it had taken him a meager hour to realize that he definitely couldn't do without her. And that was putting it lightly.

He picked up his coat and his briefcase then left the office, muttering an appropriate goodbye to Lucy. He knew she was staring at him as he left. And he honestly regretted calling her into his office and talking to her

He had destroyed that employee-employer relationship and he knew she was going to want to take advantage of it. That's why he had taken the decision to let her go and help her find another job.

He hoped things were going to work out for the better with Ana. Because he really couldn't afford to lose her. Not right now. And not ever of he could help it.