Chapter 12
FAITH:
When he drops me off at home, I don't even wait to hear his explanations, which have neither head nor tail, I'm not going to let him talk to help him free his conscience, I have nothing to do with his pity, I I don't even know what possessed me to let him kiss me, once again I let the desire take over and I end up getting hurt by this man again, he is reducing his chances day by day so that he can knowing one day that he is going to be a father, I don't want to introduce into my child's life such an emotionally unstable man, who will disappoint him all the time as he does with me, if it is to have a father like that is better not to have one
I'm so mad at myself, I never should have let him get so close to me, so he could find fault and fuck with me again, it's all over now, that's it. last time i shed a drop of tears for this madman, from now on i won't get into these little games, i'll keep him far away from me and my son, i wipe my tears, i take a bath and i go to bed, I was so tired both physically and psychologically that I sleep instantly when I get into my bed…..
The next morning when I woke up I didn't feel well at all, I felt like I was really sick, on top of that I'm in bad spirits but I'm still getting ready to go to work, with my discomfort this morning I really don't know if I'm going to be able to stand this guy, and his sarcasm….
I arrive very early in the morning as usual I tidy up the mess on my desk a bit, since the day before I left a little hastily, when I finish I start in the unfinished files when I hear his office open, I don't even calculate it, he doesn't come spitting his venom here either, fortunately for him because the mere sight of his face makes me want to kill and if he doesn't know how to place his words I risk screwing him up the head….
He leaves to settle in his office, I also continue my work when a violent nausea takes me, I rush into the toilets to put myself at ease, when I come back I find him at the doorstep of his office questioning myself with a look, I just answer him, it's fine and he doesn't insist, he goes back to his office but barely thirty minutes later it starts again, really I can't count on help, this child, let's say, the guy looks at me this time again but he seems lost in his thoughts which relieves me because I don't want to answer his questions…..
CHRISTOPHER
Since my arrival this morning I noticed that the cousin was not feeling well, so I decided not to disturb her, she goes back and forth in the toilets, but when I ask her questions she tells me that OK, so I prefer not to interfere in his private life anymore.
I have to meet an Arab investor today, who intends to create a hotel chain in Dubai, if I manage to convince him to give me this project it will be a long series of partnerships since he builds hotels all over the country. world, but I will need help to take notes so I have to turn to the cousin, when I arrive in her office she was leaning back in her chair looking really lost, when I greet her she jumps a sign that she was really far away
me: hello
Faith: hello
Me: I have to meet an investor right away, can I count on you to take notes?
Faith: Of course, it's my job.
Me: are you sure it can go
Faith: yes it's fine, let's go
Me: ok come on, James will take us there
The journey is done in dead silence, I notice James throwing glances at us but does not say a word, when we arrive at the meeting room of the hotel February 2, she carves out a place at the back of the room with her agenda, when my appointment arrives, we discuss for a good hour before he decides to entrust me with the project, it means a lot to me, and I intend to take up the challenge
When we finish the meeting, we were discussing the last terms of the contract when I notice him ogling the woman of mine, and I feel my blood boiling but I try to keep my cool, like that's not enough. no it launches now
Him: well, your secretary is beautiful
Me: not really my secretary
Him: is she married, I can't find a wedding ring on her finger
To tell the truth, it's a question that I've never asked her, I don't know if she has a husband, children, nothing, but I pretend to know everything
Me: no she's not busy, but she really interests me
Him: I noticed the looks you're giving him, but if you don't succeed let me know I'll take over
Me: don't worry I don't intend to fail, nor leave it to someone else
We laugh together and we say goodbye, when we finish I join my beautiful stranger and I decide to lift the veil on this question
Me: we're done we can have lunch or you want to go home
Faith: no, I'd rather go home
Me: okay as you wish, but can I ask you a question
Faith: Do I have a choice?
Me: Guess not
Faith: ok go ahead, I'm listening
Me: do you have a man in your life, are you married, do you have children
Faith: no, but who do you take me for, if I had someone in your life do you think everything that happened between us would have happened?
Me: I'm sorry it's not to upset you or offend you, just that I never asked you the question so I wanted to know
Faith: I have no one in my life, no child, no…….
She doesn't finish her sentence when I see her collapsing, but what's going on here, she's got what, I'm really freaking out, I run to her, and I hug her, I run to the car and James drives us to the nearest hospital, when we arrive we are immediately taken care of, the doctor asks me to wait outside
After about thirty minutes which seemed like an eternity to me, they come to tell me that she is awake and that I can come in to see her, I don't wait for the end of the sentence to rush into her room...
Me gently: it's better
Faith: yes it's fine now
Me: but you really scared me, and you don't always have to answer it's ok every time you're asked the question
Faith: I have to believe that I'm used to it, it's always been like that
We were talking when we knock on the door
Doctor: can I come in
Me: yes doctor, come
Doctor: it was nothing serious, there was more fear than harm, congratulations to you your wife is expecting a child
I'm a bit stuck, she's pregnant, I don't understand anything anymore, so that's the cause of her vomiting the last time
me: sorry
Doctor: she is almost in the third month
This is where I start by making the connection, she and I met it will soon be 3 months, could it be that this child is mine, I turn to her questioningly, and as an answer she comes out
Faith: He's not my husband
Doctor: um…. sorry I knew….
Me: don't worry, you can leave us alone please
Doctor: no problem, I'll come back later
Me: thank you doctor
I wait for the doctor to come out and I turn to her, she has her back to me
Me: you will stop playing crazy and explain to me immediately what is happening here, is this baby mine………..